Volume II... Trip to Guangdong
Chapter VI...
After the Spring Festival, in the midst of busyness, time passed quietly, four months, I and Qiu Xiang have not been together, they are very busy, please take no leave! It is also the most difficult, love but can not keep each other, basically every night insomnia!
I can't feel the mood at that time, but I have a habit of keeping a diary!
"April 20, 2004, cloudy
Separated from Qiu Xiang for a hundred and twenty days, phone calls and chats have become a habit, she told me that May Day has three days of vacation, to come to me, I actually cried happily, four months, we can only listen to the voice, even see one is so difficult? God, if you let us fall in love, why do you have to separate? Let us suffer from this lovesickness! Why let us suffer this torture? ”
"April 28, 2004, Sunny
Qiu Xiang called and said that May Day could not be a holiday, I... Really sunny day thunderbolt ah, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, want to die the heart has, once again greeting God, anyway can not sleep, only 12 o'clock, to the beach to shop, let God split me! ”
"2004, April 30, cloudy,
Qiu Xiang said that next month on the 5th of the certainty to come to me, my mother, big ups and downs, that is less than a week? Ha, god I want to thank you today! Qiu Xiang also said that she wanted to help me buy a shirt, I was really happy, growing so big, the first time a girl sent something to me, although it is not expensive, but it is of great significance! Think about it, since we met, I haven't sent anything to her, alas, I can't sleep anyway, and I'm visiting the beach again! ”
"May 10, 2004, cloudy
Qiu Xiang has been in Dalang Town today, these days, we are painful and happy, happy is that we have been separated for four months, and finally got together, the painful thing is, this time apart, when will we get together? After a short reunion, it was a long worry, and I don't remember how many times we went through a parting? The fragile heart has long been scarred! After each reunion, you have to endure the pain of parting! Alas, let's go to the beach again."
"July 14, 2004, light rain
Separated from Qiu Xiang for more than two months, she didn't have much goods there, a few a day, very boring, very painful, I know, because I am also suffering from this pain, she told me to give up shrimp farming, to work in her place, she can contact the factory, but I do not want to, I do not want to give up the efforts of this time, in the shrimp farm I even have a commission of 1000 a month, five or six hundred wages? Oh well"
I remember that from that day on, we had our first Cold War, and for a month in a row, she didn't contact me, I didn't answer the phone, and I didn't reply to the message! Usually we all talk on the phone every day, at that time I thought that raising shrimp was my only way out, and it could change our work for the rest of our lives, and I refused to let go! Looking back now, what a childish thing!
"August 15, 2004, cloudy
This month is really sad, when I love someone and feel pain, it is no longer love, but a torture, should I give up this relationship? Maybe Qiu Xiang and I have the same idea, to be honest, we have known each other for more than a year, we are gathering less and leaving more, adding up to less than three months, feeling so tired."
"2004, August 20, sunny
Qiu Xiang finally answered the phone, she said, during this time there are very few goods, too much free time to think wildly, very painful! I know the root of the pain, is to know me, I asked her if she regrets knowing me, she did not say a word, I know, she did not say anything, but the meaning is obvious, I understand this feeling, maybe we should give up, so on, we are all suffering from this kind of torture, long pain is not as good as short pain? ”
"2004, September 1, 2004, Sunny
Qiu Xiang called and asked me if I could give up shrimp farming and work for her for her sake? She also asked me if my job was important or if she was important? I can only say equal weight, she said disappointed in me, more and more strange to me, said I have changed! Perhaps, the job of shrimp farming really does not want to give up, if you really have to choose..."
Oh, my thoughts at the time, if I had to choose, I would give up Qiu Xiang, now that I think back, I am really stupid and pitiful, the job can be found at will, can you meet someone who loves her and she also loves you? Maybe it's another life! Two years earlier I asked Qiu Xiang if I didn't go to her in the end, would she give up on me? "Yes, we were all in so much pain at that time"!
"2004, October 1, cloudy day
The connection with Qiu Xiang is getting less and less, another month, knowing her, has been more than a year, from the realization of now, the bits and pieces of life, the wind and rain are deeply engraved in the mind, the days in Kunming, gone forever, how happy and sweet it was then, after arriving in Guangdong, it was separated from the two places, suffering from the endless pain of lovesickness, knowing this, I would not come to Guangdong! Qiu Xiang, do you still have the courage to persevere? I'm ready to try to slowly forget about you, maybe separating is okay for us all? ”
"2004, October 28, 2004, Sunny
Qiu Xiang came to find me yesterday, the last wanted, either follow her to Dalang Town, or let go completely, we are both unhappy, even Sister Qian, Xiao Zhang came to enlighten us, finally, Qiu Xiang cried while saying, give me three more months, if you don't go to her in three months, she will go back to her hometown guizhou, so that I can never find her! Alas, let her go. ”
That night with Xiao Zhang squeezed a night, early in the morning, they went out, Xiao Zhang sent Qiu Xiang to the station, told me, Qiu Xiang cried all night, the eyes are swollen! In retrospect, I was really not a man, and my thoughts at the time were that work was more important than her!
Chapter VII... Akika, here I come!
The next chapter is more exciting, stay tuned!