"That's how we all grew up."
This is the theme of Sammi Cheng's 2019 World Tour Hong Kong Red Pavilion Station.
At that time, Zheng Xiuwen was in the eyes of the storm of the "peace of mind incident", and Xu Zhi'an's betrayal made the deep affection for many years tear up.
But for her, along the way, it's just another part of growing up.
Because when you grow up, there will always be troubles to accompany you, and there will always be dissatisfaction.
But flaws do not obscure the true nature of life, and failure will not become the main spin of life.
As Zhang Ailing said, it is just that the gorgeous robe is crawling with lice.
So, when she stood in the center of the stage and sang the song "Beautiful for Life" in a long white dress. We know that, like the past 200 concerts, this little body still bursts with great power.
As if to say, we all grew up this way.
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In 1990, 18-year-old Zheng Xiuwen released his first Cantonese album "Sammi", which reached gold record sales.
And who would have thought that two years ago, in 1988, she debuted in the rookie singing contest just because she wanted to know if there was a dark curtain in the competition.
Zhang Ailing once said, "Become famous early." Zheng Xiuwen did it, and his career has been all the way since then.
How much did people love her then?
Her first concert was at the famous Red Pavilion in Hong Kong, and 8 consecutive concerts were packed. To this day, she is still the female singer with the most records of the Red Pavilion.
Zheng Xiuwen's concert, the stage is gorgeous, the shape is changeable, amazing to the extreme, people will never forget.
Remember the classic Nike eyebrows and rose head? There's also the moped crystal charm, the distinctive featherbra, the dominant Cleopatra.
In almost every concert, Zheng Xiuwen can contribute his iconic personal and stage style.
After a hundred days of change, it is well deserved.
In addition, she is also a natural singer who can soothe people's hearts with music.
Zheng Xiuwen's love songs can always be easily sung into the hearts of urban women; dance music can always drive your body to sway involuntarily to the rhythm. We sang "Lifelong Beauty" and were moved, swayed with "Eyebrow Flying Dance", and hummed "Worth It" to cheer up our love.
In the Hong Kong entertainment industry, singing and excellent will definitely act.
In 1992, Zheng Xiuwen debuted on the big screen with the movie "Flying Tiger Elite Love on Earth", and was nominated for the Academy Award for Best New Actor.
After that, Zheng Xiuwen got acquainted with Du Qifeng and said in her words: "It is the noble person of fate."
In addition to the aesthetics of violence, this representative director in the Hong Kong film industry is best at romantic comedies, and he is also a rare straight male director with a female perspective, and he can always grasp the tough and firm temperament of Zheng Xiuwen.
In the hands of Du Qifeng, Zheng Xiuwen established himself as the queen of Hong Kong light comedy.
Sir Du has publicly stated:
"Sammi is my favorite actress".
Johnnie
When she became extremely popular, she was called the successor of "Hong Kong's daughter" Mui Yanfang by the media. Zheng Xiuwen's time should be what everyone dreams of, singing all the way, the spring breeze is proud, there are inseparable lovers, and there are partners who can be relied on.
She became a microcosm of the golden age of Hong Kong's entertainment industry, a stage called Zheng Xiuwen a smooth sailing.
But after the blossoms, there are also defeats.
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In 2001, Zheng Xiuwen was nominated for the Academy Award for Best Actress for the first time with "Lonely Man and Widow".
As a result, that year, he met Maggie Cheung of "Fancy Years" and lost the initial battle.
In 2002, Zheng Xiuwen made a comeback, with three films, "Slim Man and Woman", "Living Together", and "Zhong Wuyan", he came to a phenomenon-level nomination, but he lost to Zhang Aijia of "Long Day".
This time, Zheng Xiuwen was a little disappointed, and being nominated for three movies at the same time was a testament to her strength, which had previously fulfilled expectations, but ultimately failed to ascend to the throne of the queen. Compared with the smooth success of her singing career, for the first time, she obviously felt the ups and downs of life.
However, a greater catastrophe awaits.
In 2004, Guan Jinpeng was preparing to bring Wang Anyi's novel "Long Hate Song" to the big screen, and he found Zheng Xiuwen to play the heroine Wang Qiyao.
For Zheng Xiuwen, who has lost best actress twice, this literary epic is a good opportunity to prove herself.
But as soon as the news came out, it was controversial, and many people thought that Zheng Xiuwen, who showed people with light comedy, was not suitable for the role of Wang Qiyao, a Shanghai woman in "Long Hate Song".
Invisibly gave Zheng Xiuwen a lot of pressure.
Stills from "The Long Hate Song"
Perhaps because of the rush to prove herself, or perhaps the paranoia of the pursuit of perfection, or perhaps because of the hidden dangers left by the long-term rush forward, her emotions began to have problems.
During the filming of "Long Hate Song", Zheng Xiuwen suffered from depression, and asthma and severe eczema also struck at the same time, leaving her physically and mentally exhausted.
At that time, she shut herself in her room, and communication with Kwan and Leung Ka-fai "could only rely on notes, text messages and letters."
So much so that Liang Jiahui later recalled this past and used three words to evaluate: "Very magical."
Guan Jinpeng, on the other hand, could understand Zheng Xiuwen's pain.
"She's just too demanding."
At that time, Zheng Xiuwen thought that this should be the most difficult time for him.
However, her suffering seems to have only just begun.
After the release of the film, word of mouth and box office have experienced Waterloo, as for the Academy Awards, although it was nominated again, it lost to Zhou Xun in "If Love", which made Zheng Xiuwen suffer a lot.
"If Love"
"Long Hate Song" is her transformational work, and her importance is evident, so much so that in an interview with Lu Yu many years later, when she heard Lu Yu praise the film as great, Zheng Xiuwen still had a sense of relief and gratitude: "The first time I heard someone praise."
But just when the haze of "Long Hate Song" had not yet dissipated, Xu Zhi'an, a lover who had been with her for 13 years, left her for the first time.
This became the last straw that crushed her.
Zheng Xiuwen recalled that during that time, she did not dare to see people and locked herself in her room every day.
"Can't see a little light".
Not only that, but she couldn't sleep at first, and could only rely on alcohol to numb herself.
She once hung up on "thin or dead" and began to overeat uncontrolledly.
Her life, her faith, collapsed.
Even the media began to spread negative news such as her cutting her wrist.
Xu Zhi'an and Zheng Xiuwen
This moment is exactly what she sang in "We All Grew Up Like This":
The rain was pouring, and the inspiration was soaked.
Cold bones, falling all over the ground leaves yellow.
For Zheng Xiuwen, this is the Shuluo Field.
Darkness, helplessness, anxiety eroded her, consumed her, tried to drag her deeper into the abyss, and her struggle and resistance were useless, and she felt that she was about to be unable to hold on.
At this time, she had only two choices in front of her: to give up or to cheer up.
But whichever one is not an easy decision.
Fortunately, in the end, Zheng Xiuwen chose to cheer up, although it was difficult at first, but she told herself: "You can.".
So she began to read again, try to travel, draw, insist on sports, let herself see more of the world, let the tense body and mind relax.
She said: "The obstacles of life, stepping over, will open the sea and the sky."
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After three years of silence, In 2007 Zheng Xiuwen announced his return.
The first thing was to return to the starting point of the Red Pavilion, and like when she first appeared in the Red Pavilion, she held 8 concerts in a row. Not only did the fans who still loved her come, but more than 80 stars came to the scene to witness the return of the queen.
At the concert, she emotionally said to the fans: "Thank you for waiting for me."
What was touching was that the fans responded loudly: "Thank you for coming back!" ”
At that moment, Zheng Xiuwen's eyes were filled with tears, in addition to being moved, he may also be glad that he did not give up.
At the end of the 8 concerts, she shared with her fans a letter she wrote to herself, which contained this passage, which is exactly the portrayal of her heart:
"It rained for days, and the sun finally smiled for you. Isn't this life? Worse and worse will pass, but we must keep a beautiful realm in our hearts."
After 2007, Zheng Xiuwen returned to the film circle. Fortunately, Du Qifeng was still waiting for her.
Again, Sir Du sent her to the Academy Award nomination list for two consecutive years with two films, "High Altitude Love II" and "Blind Detective".
However, life is impermanent, not that you will have a smooth sailing when you walk out of the quagmire, that is a story that only exists in the movie.
Because life is a gorgeous robe, crawling with lice.
"High Altitude Love II" lost to the character "Chunjiao" whom Yang Qianwei only met once in her life.
And "Blind Detective" is even more unfortunate to meet Zhang Ziyi, the "Palace Ii" who also returned from the king.
Accompanied by the Academy Awards for 14 years, 7 post-film nominations, all returned home.
Although it is always only one step away from winning the award, the side is also an affirmation of Zheng Xiuwen's acting skills, at least her classic image and film clips have never faded in the passage of time.
At this time, she has long been able to face failure calmly.
"For me, the most beautiful thing about this film is the whole process and the format fragments that remain in my mind, winning or not is no longer the focus, the best parts and learning have been stored in my heart."
Compared with Zheng Xiuwen, who said in Guan Jinpeng's mouth that "she is just too good", she has now broken through the cocoon into a butterfly.
On the contrary, the old partner Du Qifeng is still angry: "After the Academy Awards did not give Zheng Xiuwenying, I was angry for a whole decade."
Therefore, back to the Zheng Xiuwen who stood on the concert stage in 2019, it is not difficult for us to understand the indifference and determination.
After the disaster, she began to explore more of the beauty of the world, even in the face of huge storms, she was still at ease.
From the arrogance to the pain of suffering and the open-mindedness of walking through adversity, everything she experienced reshaped her little by little.
Therefore, in the face of the ups and downs of life, you can always see the sunshine from the bottom of the valley, only because of what kind of attitude and persistence you have, as Zheng Xiuwen sang in the song: "After surviving, I found that the rotten mud was full of wild flowers in the mountains."
Isn't that the charm of growth?
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