She killed her own son with her own hands.
She let out a long sigh of relief.
She has finally fulfilled her mission.
She is seventy-five years old.
Her son is fifty years old, just at the age of knowing his destiny.
Although he knew the destiny of heaven, he couldn't distinguish between heaven and earth, or even himself.
His head was always a mess, or maybe it wasn't.
It may be a colorful world, but it is not the real world.
She discovered the anomaly when he was two years old.
She gave birth to him at the age of twenty-five.
She gave birth to a daughter and wanted to have a son, and finally got her wish.
She had a son.
When she gave birth to her son, she had a difficult birth, rolled on the ground in pain, and finally passed out in pain, and when she was sent to the hospital, she only had a faint breath.
The doctor touched her nostrils, startled, and said in a panic that she was dead.
Touching her heart, it seemed to be beating again.
He waved his hand and said, hurry up and rescue.
After saving for two days and two nights, she came back from the ghost gate, and at the same time, her son came back.
Her son came into the world safely and let out a loud cry.
She was relieved to hear her son's scream.
She felt that everything she had was worth it.
She felt that she was the happiest woman in the world.
She keeps a close eye on her son's every move, including eating, talking, and crawling.
The happiest moment is when her son lies on top of her.
The faint smell of her son's milk wafted in, and her little hands caressed her face, and her heart melted instantly.
She felt that when she had a son, she had the whole world.
Her son is everything to her.
Her son is a year old and can't walk, so she doesn't think it's a problem.
My son is two years old, but he still can't walk, and his eyes are glazed and he can't speak normally.
She doesn't think it's a problem.
The husband brought up this abnormal situation, she was unusually angry and scolded loudly, my son is normal, whose child is not like this?!
Some relatives offered to take her son to the hospital for a look, but she resisted stubbornly.
She said, my son is the best son in the world, my son has no problem, you must be jealous of me!
Soon, something unexpected happened to her.
Her son fell to the ground foaming at the mouth, shaking his hands and feet and convulsing.
She was shocked!
Hurriedly with his family, he sent his son to the hospital.
Doctors diagnosed her son with autism and epilepsy.
Of course, she didn't believe it.
She believes it was a misdiagnosis by the hospital and that there was nothing wrong with her son.
She was convinced that her son was a good son.
Later, her son's performance finally completely broke her illusion.
Her son fell ill again, and it was worse than the last time, and he was in a coma.
She finally came to her senses and rushed her son to the hospital.
This time, she no longer resisted, but was very cooperative, and did whatever the doctor told her to do.
She was very submissive.
As a result of her compliance, her son was released from the hospital.
In the past, because she firmly believed that her son had no problem, she had been working, although it was only more than 4,000 yuan, but she had been persevering.
Because the family pressure is very high, the husband is only a working worker, with a monthly income of only more than 6,000 and two children to raise, the most important thing is that they gritted their teeth and bought a suite, with a monthly payment of more than 5,000 per month.
Their hometowns are all in the mountainous Hakka villages, and their parents can't help them, not only can't they help, but they also count on their help.
Now she's feeling a lot of pressure.
Of course, there was hope for her.
She thought that as long as her son's illness was cured, she would be able to get out of the predicament.
For this reason, the couple took their son to big cities such as Beijing and Shanghai, and as long as it was a hospital, they almost went through it.
Once, she heard that an elderly man in Guizhou was particularly cured of epilepsy, so she rushed to it immediately.
This time, she didn't let her husband go, because after a few years, all the family's savings were exhausted, and she owed a lot of foreign debts.
One less person is one less expense.
She took the only 5,000 yuan left in the family, found the old man, and drove a lot of weeds back.
Her son drank it, but it didn't work.
She still wanted to go, but was stopped by a doctor.
Because her family was so poor, in order to treat her son's illness, she not only lost her job, but also sold her house, and the whole family rented a house to live on, living on subsistence allowance, basically destitute.
The doctor was a little unbearable, so he said that even if epilepsy is cured, autism can't be cured. This disease cannot be cured in the whole world at present, and no amount of money can be cured.
The doctor's words woke her up.
Gradually, she realized that her son's illness was really hopeless.
Of course, a hopeless illness is still a disease.
The son's illness often flares up, and he will self-harm and beat people and things.
She had no choice but to say to her husband bitterly, you go and earn money, I will guard the house.
The husband agreed, went out early and returned late every day, and worked to support the family.
And what about her?
Stay at home and never leave your son.
Of course, she is not doing nothing, but actively trying to find a way, according to the doctor's request, to go outside to breathe fresh air, go to the park for physical training.
After a few years, it is still effective.
My son has fewer and fewer seizures, and he doesn't hit or scold, eats, sleeps, and takes the initiative to go to the toilet.
How difficult it is!
In the past, he didn't distinguish between and urine, and when everyone slept, he went crazy and set fire to the house.
Now that's gone.
For a while, she also had the illusion that her son's illness was cured and he could marry and have children.
In this way, her happy life is really coming.
But it quickly shattered.
Her son became ill again.
At this time, she had no hope.
In this way, she spent day after day with her son, and gradually, she became emaciated and slowly grew old.
Her husband couldn't bear to see him, so he contacted a disability agency.
The agency said it could adopt his son on his behalf.
He knew that she had a deep relationship with her son, and it was estimated that she would not agree, but she must have a way out, and her son must have a good home.
So, he quietly went through various formalities behind her back.
After finishing it, he came to the house with the staff.
He thought she would accept it all calmly, at least not noisy.
But he was wrong.
She's not noisy or noisy.
The only thing she could do was to stand on the window and say coldly, you can take my son away, and I will jump down when you take it.
He had no choice but to give up.
However, for a long time, she still couldn't calm down.
One day, she said to her husband with tears in her eyes, this kind of life is unfair to you, it's my fault, let's divorce. The Son is my Son, and in this life and this life, we will all be together, and we will die together. You go, I won't blame you.
Her husband knew what she was thinking, so he didn't mention it anymore, and the family still lived peacefully.
He went to work and she continued to watch her son at home.
The daughter grew up slowly, and reached the age of marriage.
In real life, family conditions often determine the quality of marriage.
But her daughter is very beautiful, and she still has a certain advantage in finding a partner.
Some people have a good family background, but they are not willing to give a lot of bride price.
A poor family 2,000 miles away was willing to give 300,000 bride price, but she didn't tell her parents, but quietly agreed.
Although the family took out a loan, she admitted it.
Because she has an older brother, she needs money for treatment.
She handed over the money to her mother, and after kowtowing, she didn't look back.
She can't go back to this home.
She will live with poverty and backwardness, and her life will be dark, but she thinks it is worth it.
She exchanged her happiness for her brother's short-term peace, which was her last effort and dedication to her last family affection.
She has no regrets.
She may be ordinary, but she is just as great.
As a mother, she naturally knows her daughter's thoughts.
In fact, she knows very well that the whole family is making a final effort for her son.
What she didn't expect was that it was her husband who was the first to fall in the family.
Her husband has three highs, high blood sugar, high blood pressure, and high blood lipids.
He endured it all the time, didn't take injections, didn't take medicine, didn't see a doctor, and spent all the money he earned on his son, and finally at the age of sixty-five, he was gone.
She and her son were the only ones left at home.
She was old and sick, but she couldn't tell me what the pain was, because she hadn't been to the hospital.
Despite the pain, she endured it because she had a son.
Her son is still living well, although he will get sick, but after the attack, he can still eat and sleep.
Although she and her son have subsistence allowances, they are just as poor, because she has been working hard and trying to cure her son's illness.
There is not much hope, but it cannot be said that it has no effect, at least it ensures that he is calm and does not beat or scold people.
Naturally, the family's money is gone, including the daughter's bride price and the money earned by her husband's part-time job.
She has been maintaining the simplest of life.
Of course, the simplicity is just for her, her son still has fish and meat, and even wine.
There are new clothes for the New Year, as well as New Year's money.
In her eyes, a son is a son, a child, no matter how big he is.
New clothes, New Year's money, she insisted on it for 50 years.
By the time she was seventy-five years old, she couldn't hold on anymore because she couldn't stand the pain.
She went to the hospital and was diagnosed with terminal cancer and only three months left to live.
She calmly accepted the result.
Then, very calmly faced this son.
At present, my son's physical condition is still very good, and if he lives for another ten years, it is estimated that there will be no big problem.
Of course, only now, not in the future.
The doctor once smiled and said, like your son, he should not live to be thirty, and it is a miracle to live to fifty, mainly thanks to your careful care, if he leaves you, I estimate that he will not live for more than a month.
The doctor was telling the truth.
Her son had died dozens of times, and each time she pulled him back from the line of death.
Just jumping off the building, my son jumped more than a dozen times.
If she is gone, what will happen to her son?
In this world, he is the only one left.
He will be left alone and on the streets.
It's a complete Hanako, and then dies in the wild.
Even if someone takes it in, it can only be taken in for a while, not for a lifetime.
This was the final outcome she had in mind.
She had always believed that she was a mother, and since she had brought him, it was her duty to take him away.
Because the son has no object to rely on, the only daughter is far away, living in extreme poverty, unable to take care of herself, and walking with her mother is the best ending at present.
She reserved two places in her husband's grave: her and her son.
In this way, the family can be together.
She took a hundred sleeping pills.
Her son took 200 tablets.
As a result, her son left and she stayed.
Of course, the neighbors found out quickly, and the hospital rescued quickly.
She was particularly relieved to learn the results.
She felt that she had no regrets in her life.
(Li Suzhang's original, plagiarism must be investigated)