"Suntak wrote this book to go home, and to go home to be free."
Bai Yansong's words at the book launch of "Skin" once made Cai Chongda cry on the spot.
This "genius boy" in the eyes of many people has been tormented by the misery of life to the point of anger and helplessness, and can only continue to trek to the inner world through writing, trying to answer those puzzles that have been circling in his mind for a long time.
As he said, "Skin" is a book of growth, and in the process of growing up from a teenager to a young man, he confronts birth, old age, sickness and death, hometown and distance, ideal and reality.
Read these 5 sentences of "Skin", learn to open your heart, and bravely accept yourself who is doing your best.
1
Take a few more steps and see, God will always give you the way.
Tsai Chongda is the second child in the family.
Back then, his parents ran from his hometown to Xiamen to give birth to him, but because they couldn't pay the hospitalization fee, they were kicked out of the hospital on the third day.
The couple, who had no money to take a ride, could only hold their newborn child and walk along the road in the direction of home.
His father was worried that he would not be able to return home, but his mother comforted him: Take a few more steps and see, God will always give you the way.
Finally, at an intersection, they bumped into a fellow who came to Xiamen to replenish the goods, and solved their urgent need.
Because of the overbirth, my father was dismissed from public office and fined three years of food rations, and was hit to the point that he didn't want to look for a job anymore.
The mother did not complain, looking for work everywhere, trying her best to support this family that was not wealthy, and quietly waiting for the day when my father figured it out.
The wait was three years, and the reinvigorated father found a job as a seafarer, and in a few years, he earned several times more wages than in his hometown.
In the face of known predicaments and unknown results, my mother always has the firmness and open-mindedness of "taking a few more steps", and often ushers in the surprises and harvests of "willows and flowers".
As I have heard, the winner is often the one who can hold on for one minute more than others.
I think so.
Life is like a cross-country race, with bad weather, treacherous terrain, and physical exhaustion that can make the race dangerous and the finish line out of reach.
But the more difficult the moment, the more you have to bear the difficulties and move forward calmly, maybe the few steps you grit your teeth and insist on are the turning point of infinite possibilities in the future.
2
There are many things in life that should come and come, not in this form, but in that form.
After my father was discharged from the hospital after a stroke, he was left hemiplegic:
The left side of the face is not moved, the left arm is curled up in front of the chest, and the left leg only has a sense of control at the knee.
The family asked all the doctors they could, but they were told that there was no possibility of recovery, but they did not dare to tell him the truth.
My father exercised with crutches and went out on typhoon days, tossing himself to exhaustion in the storm.
In fact, his father has long realized that he can't be cured, but he doesn't want to face it, and although the family knows that there is no result, they can't bear to expose it and accompany him to act.
Everyone used their own methods to escape the established facts, but the time to come will always come, and after many irritability and despair, my father finally accepted the fact that he was paralyzed.
How about many people?
knows that there is no result of love, but you have to entangle until you have no love;
knows that the lie can be broken at the first poke, but tries his best to cover it up until it is unavoidable.
As Cai Chongda wrote in the book: The harder you persist, the greater the intensity of the final reef.
When encountering problems, deliberately avoiding them may be able to avoid them for a while, but they cannot be avoided for a lifetime, and the solutions to all problems will only emerge naturally when we are willing to face them positively.
Instead of wasting time and energy on things that can't be changed, it's better to let go of unrealistic flukes sooner.
The sooner you accept the truth, the sooner you can release yourself from pain and helplessness, and avoid making the situation worse and turning it into an unmanageable mess in the future.
3
Ruth thinks for herself, I can't give an answer to your life.
Cai Chongda's genius friend Wenzhan has been planning his life since he was 9 years old:
Understanding the history of the country is conducive to the composition of the high school entrance examination and the civil service examination;
Compared with key high schools, taking the key secondary school can reduce the burden on the family;
Exercising leadership skills may lead to more development opportunities......
Listening to the careful plan made by Wenzhan, who was only 1 year older than him, for the future, 11-year-old Cai Chongda was shocked and suddenly felt anxious, so he pestered Wenzhan several times to answer questions and show the way for himself.
But Wenzhan told him that he had to think about his own path and couldn't expect others to answer.
Some people say that a person's life is very much like walking in the fog, looking at it from afar, but it is only in a fog, and it is impossible to distinguish the direction and good luck.
Only by realizing that everything has to be on your own can you truly take your due responsibility and take responsibility for every decision in life.
At that time, Cai Chongda was exactly like this, and after being awakened by the literary exhibition, he began to find a way out by himself: while studying hard to enter the university, he participated in various competitions.
With the improvement of his academic qualifications and abilities, he finally cleared the fog in front of him, and continued to climb to the top of his dream from a reporter to an editor-in-chief to a well-known writer.
People are always confused, stuck, or unable to find the direction of their efforts, or unable to get the motivation to move forward, but if they blindly seek the opinions of others and apply other people's templates, it is equivalent to putting the future in the hands of others.
In the final analysis, which way to go, how to go, you need to be brave to explore, only in the trial and error to learn lessons, in the hard work to accumulate experience, in order to step by step to the desired poetry and distance.
4
What can achieve the dream with certainty is not the fanaticism of throwing himself into the imagination at all costs, but the pragmatism, humility, and pitiful forbearance that even you yourself look down on.
Magnolia and Tsai Chongda are college classmates.
In the four years of college, Magnolia has been wantonly swaying his youth, forming a band, changing girlfriends frequently, fighting with others, and choking with teachers...... is unwilling to study hard, as if that will disgrace the "youth";
Cai Chongda didn't dare to slack off for a moment, working part-time, earning credits, interning, getting scholarships, and even writing his graduation thesis in advance in his junior year in order to reserve enough internship time in his senior year......
They pursue their ideal life in very different ways, and the results are naturally different.
Although Magnolia once became the school's most influential figure, he could not soothe the emptiness in his heart, but instead gave up on himself more and more, until he was ordered to suspend his studies by the school, and finally embarked on the road of no return;
Relying on the experience and savings accumulated from working part-time at a newspaper, Cai Chongda went to Beijing alone, and successfully passed the assessment of a magazine before graduation, and stayed there to take root.
They are all people with dreams, but compared with Magnolia, Cai Chongda knows the gap between imagination and reality, and understands how to make life gradually meet his expectations, so he is down-to-earth and uses ordinary and boring efforts to build his ideal kingdom.
Indeed, the essence of dreams is not to be dreamy, not to speak in vain.
With the ability to support yourself, you have the confidence to seek breakthroughs;
With the strength to achieve oneself, only then can one have the right to consolidate one's dreams.
The little bit of effort accumulated in every day that no one cares about will eventually make you invincible at some point in the future.
5
Each sea has a different scenery and its own dangers. Life is the same, and so are human desires.
Although he grew up by the sea, Tsai never saw the sea before he was 6 years old.
His parents were afraid that he would have an accident while playing at the beach, and they didn't want him to engage in sea-related work in the future, so they did everything possible to "hide" the sea.
But as the "forbidden fruit effect" in psychology says, the more forbidden things are, the more people want to touch them.
Cai Chongda was prevented by his parents in every possible way, and he longed for the sea more and more, until he jumped into the sea in a hurry to avoid his mother's pursuit, and he felt the danger of the sea.
And the experience of being taken on a voyage by his father and vomiting on the boat until he couldn't cry became another terrible memory for him.
Since then, he has found a way to live peacefully with the sea: at the right distance and in rare tranquility.
Many times, I am forced to deliberately distance myself from the desire that is hidden in my heart, and only when I am truly aware of the danger will I not rush to approach madly.
This is true of the sea, and so are the desires of man.
In life, it is inevitable to be entangled and contend with various desires, but no one's desires will disappear due to suppression and avoidance.
Only by balancing desires within one's power can one find the best way to get along with them without being eroded.
6
Cai Chongda once took it as his responsibility to make money for his father's treatment, and he tightened the strings and worked hard to study, work, and save money.
Seeing that everything was improving, his father died suddenly, which made him lose his goal in an instant while scolding him.
Like most people, he asked himself more than once questions like:
Who the hell am I? How am I going to live?
It wasn't until he tried to keep looking inward and mobilizing his life experience to examine the past that he gradually found clear answers to various life questions.
People live in the world, they will always be caught off guard by all kinds of tribulations that suddenly emerge, and only by cracking these levels can they take a good path in life.
May we all be able to fill our hearts in a rapidly changing world without fear of any challenge.
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