When we are all children, there may be differences in family conditions between a person and a person, but the difference between the children themselves is not obvious. But once you grow up, how different everyone's life path will be, and some are even worlds apart.
This passage is when Shao'an and Runye both reached the age of marriage, Shao'an's inner monologue, and also made a foreshadowing for his final rejection of Runye's confession.
I first read "Ordinary World" in my junior year of high school, and at the age of 20, all my visions of life are extremely beautiful and idealistic.
So the first thing I can't understand is, why isn't Sun Shaoan with Runye? More precisely, why didn't Sun Shaoan dare to be with Runye?
The two grew up together since childhood, they love each other deeply, although Runye lives in the city, Shao'an is also a very motivated young man in the countryside, the key is that Runye does not dislike Shao'an is a rural person, nor does he dislike Shao'an's poor family.
Now that I read it again, I will be able to understand Shao'an.
This is actually the ideal choice of a responsible adult man when choosing a partner, first putting aside the difference between the two people's own conditions, and the expectations of the other half of the two people are different.
Runye's family conditions are very good, she longs for love in her heart, which is why she chose to move out after marrying Li Xiangqian, she is unwilling to grieve her heart.
And Shao'an is just the opposite of her, as the eldest in the family, he also puts his home first after marriage, and the other half he needs is able to work with him, and more specifically, he wants to be the leader in and out of the house.
Obviously, Shao'an would not be in the mood to give Runye love, and Runye would not be able to return to the village to farm with Shao'an, these Shao'an thought of it, so in the face of Runye's eager confession, he refused without hesitation.
It turns out that Shao'an chose He Xiulian wisely in the end, this hard-working rural girl like him not only gave him love, but also became the strongest comrade-in-arms who fought against life with him, of course, if he chose Runye, maybe his life would be a different situation.
So now I feel that Shao'an really loves her by refusing Runye, although Shao'an was also guilty after hearing about Runye's unhappy marriage, he could only make that choice at that time.
As I get older, I gradually have a new experience of what true love is.
It's like seeing Shao'an reject Runye back then, I was angry for a long time, and many times, behind the negative behaviors we see, there may be a love buried deep in us that we are not aware of.
And if we don't have this discernment, it's easy to hurt those who love us deeply.
Later, when Shao'an and Runye met, they also had such a feeling, "With the passage of time, everyone is changing, which once again makes him strongly feel that their childhood has long passed, and both of them have become adults."
This year, I have been back to Xinjiang for more than 70 days, and occasionally I will meet classmates I knew before, or hear some news, and I can really feel that the years have not only made us different, but also made the relationship different.
The beauty of the past can only be buried deep in my heart like Shao'an.
In the depths of your heart, do you have such good memories as Shao'an and Runye?
If it happens to awaken your memories, then you can find a time to write them down, so that the good will stay in words forever.