On May 13, 2007, Chen Xiaoxu, 41, died of illness in Shenzhen. There is more Chen Xiaoxu in heaven, and there is no more Lin Daiyu in the world.
On an early summer evening 38 years ago, under the golden sunset, a young girl hid in the sofa by the window, quietly looking at the book in her hand, and the quiet look seemed to be isolated from the noise of this world.
Also in the middle of this sunset, a big boy came out of the light.
They are friends and confidants.
She brought the girl a magazine with information about the recruitment of actors in Dream of the Red Chamber.
The girl stared obsessively at the recruitment news in the magazine and was silent.
The boy found a pen and paper and asked her to write a letter to the director Wang Fulin that she was Lin Daiyu.
The girl shook her head like a drum wave, I didn't do such a stupid thing, China is so big, how could she notice a silent little girl, writing a letter is just self-inflicted.
The boy is a little anxious, you love the dream of the Red Chamber so much, and said that you like Lin Daiyu, but you don't dare to fight once.
The girl was not convinced, and threw her head away, I didn't dare anything.
The girl is Chen Xiaoxu, who is also Lin Daiyu.
She was born in 1965 into a family with an artistic atmosphere. The director of her father's troupe, Mu Kyo is a dance teacher, and she has no little friends when she is young, spending all day with books, and even saying that she is excluded by her peers.
She often took her favorite books, hid in the corners that others could not see, from classical literature to world famous works, and even forgot to eat.
She said that my greatest happiness was in those quiet nights, looking at the stars and weaving my own fairy tales. I had been dazed and imagined that one day there would be a miracle, and a red sail would come from the sky and take me far away.
It is said that the beauty is not in the bone, and in Chen Xiaoxu's body, the beauty is more in the temperament, the elegant posture brought by ballet, the soul that has been infiltrated by literature, so that she exudes an irresistible classical artistic temperament.
Love without hurting, inferior and arrogant, she is really like Lin Daiyu.
Director Wang Fulin received countless letters of recommendation, in a simple envelope, there are two poetry briefings, and several photos from different angles, in which she said that she wanted to play Lin Daiyu, and also wrote her own analysis of this character, not humble, not profane, telling her own characteristics and advantages.
In the poems, Chen Xiaoxu compares himself to a willow flower, and when he meets the spring wind, he becomes a knowing, gifted poetic feeling, without any sense of pretentiousness.
At a young age, he had read the Red Chamber and understood Daiyu, and Wang Fulin felt that it was very rare, so he informed her to come to the interview.
The day Chen Xiao wanted to see the director was a rainy day, at ten o'clock in Beijing, there was a downpour in the sky, and Chen Xiaoxu pulled up his pants high. Holding up a small green umbrella. Crossing the sidewalks, Wang Fulin and a few teachers opened the door, and a pale, thin girl with long braids stood timidly in the doorway, a light green dress and pants drenched in a few points, and holding an umbrella that was dripping.
Two bends like a furrowed eyebrow,
A pair of eyes that seem to be happy or not.
The sorrow of the two evils,
The sickness of the body,
Tears dotted,
Gasping slightly.
When it is quiet, it is like a flower shining on the water,
The action is like a weak willow wind.
The heart knows more than the dry,
Sick as Nishiko wins three points.
It was quite a situation where Baoyu first saw and was in doubt at that time.
If at the beginning, Wang Fulin was still a little worried that Chen Xiaoxu was not beautiful enough, but at the moment, only Chen Xiaoxu was there.
She is thin, intelligent, has a poet's temperament, speaks sensitively and truthfully, and she is a child.
As Chen Xiaoxu said, I am Lin Baoyu.
When everything seemed to come out of the water, Chen Xiaoxu was relieved, and at the same time, you were nervous, too many people loved Lin Daiyu.
The list of characters appeared in the newspaper on the day it was reported. Controversy has risen one after another, and even some people have come to threaten her sexually, Lin Daiyu is an idol in our hearts, if you can't act well, we will unite to fight you.
In fact, Dai Yu is also an idol in her heart, and how can she be willing to leave any stain on her.
In order to take a good picture of Lin Daiyu's tearful emotions when she remembered, she wore a light gauze coat, and in the cold wind of March, even if she was about to freeze into a mummy, she did not shout a bitter word.
When she wanted to rehearse Daiyu's piano, everyone advised her to find a stand-in. No one believed that a girl who knew nothing about the guqin could pop up the flowing water within two days, but she resolutely did not find a substitute, and under the guidance of the teacher, she forgot to eat and sleep, practiced for two whole days, and finally let a song of flowing water meet Baoyu's soul.
When filming the funeral flowers, she walked in the flowers on the ground in a light blue costume, crying so much that even her shoulders shook, and she couldn't stop crying until the end of the scene, at that moment, she also forgot why she was crying, and she also forgot whether she was Dai Yu or Xiao Xu.
In "Three Years in a Dream", Chen Xiaoxu wrote: I have countless beautiful dreams, and the most beautiful one starts here.
Three years of time in the Red Chamber, for other actors, may be just a precious and unforgettable experience, but for Chen Xiaoxu, it is a period of time that melts into her bones.
The banquet dispersed, everyone raised a glass to congratulate each other on their bright future, Chen Xiaoxu's heart was empty and firm, she was the person who entered the drama the deepest, walked to the Red Chamber, but could no longer walk out.
After three years of dreams, it was three years of arduous north drift, and her confidant became a husband and an ex-husband, and she did not know where to go.
According to the reasoning for the popular Lin Daiyu why did she fall to this point, perhaps Daiyu's arrogant heart has long been deeply integrated into her bones, she is not willing to please others, nor is she willing to use her beauty in exchange for money.
She opened another path, what kind of weather is it that Lin Sister entered the business world when she went to the sea to do business?
The worldly atmosphere still has nothing to do with her.
She never bows her knees to please customers, wants to see her, she says no, she doesn't see, let her accompany dinner, she says not to go, she will not go. Although she is big, she is very sincere and reliable, and everyone likes to do business with her.
With her extraordinary talent and tenacity, she quickly found her own other world in the business world, and the advertising agency under her leadership eventually had an annual turnover of nearly 200 million yuan.
In 2004, Chen Xiaoxu was named One of China's 30 Outstanding Female Advertisers, and in 2005, she was awarded the title of China's Economic Person of the Year by World Managers Weekly.
She shows the outside without luxury, benefits the inside and has a long connotation.
In May 2006, Chen Xiaoxu was diagnosed with breast cancer, but her illness was not incurable. The doctor said that if you use Western medicine for chemotherapy, you can continue some life. Her father advised her to operate, but she did not want to.
She loves beauty too much, would rather endure pain, even death than destroy any part of the body, she pursues a most perfect self, even if it is death, it must be a perfect form.
Yuan Mei, the actor who attacked people, once commented on her, she is a person who pursues perfection, her heart is full of romance, full of all the beauty in the world, and there is a very firm thing in her personality.
At the end of his life, Chen Xiaoxu chose to drop all the glitz and fall into the Buddha's Gate, the Dharma number Miaozhen, just as Dai Yu sang, the essence of the essence is clean and clean, stronger than the dirt and the ditch.
Some people say that Chen Xiaoxu has spent a lifetime playing a role, in fact, she has acted from acting, she is a general character of Lin Daiyu, Chen Xiaoxu's life is weak to not be weak, in the face of fame and fortune, always maintain her original intention and temperament, she is like a fairy who fell into mortal dust, although in the world, but not to provoke the worldly atmosphere, maybe we will find it difficult to see such a Daiyu again, and it is difficult to meet such Chen Xiaoxu again.
There is more Chen Xiaoxu in heaven, and there is no more Lin Daiyu in the world.
Never forget, the lonely forest of the immortals.