I am 26 years old, an ordinary office white-collar worker, single, and have no plans to get married. I always believe that marriage is a special thing that needs to be treated with care.
However, a recent incident made me think about marriage in a new way. One day, my boyfriend and I had dinner and had some drink, and when we got home, something unexpected happened.
When I told my boyfriend, his expression became complicated. He told me that he felt that we weren't ready to be a dad before we got married.
A few days later, he talked to me about an incident where his family asked him to give me an 88,000 bride price, which he felt was too much to accept.
I was so lost that I felt like a child who had lost his home and didn't know where to go.
Time passed quickly, I raised the baby alone, and after a while, the baby was born, a healthy boy.
I insisted on finding someone for myself and my children who truly loved me and was willing to live with me for the rest of my life.
However, just after I had a fight with my son's grandmother, he suddenly appeared at my door, knelt on the ground, and begged me to marry him.
I was touched by his actions, but deep down I was still a little hesitant. The injuries and experiences at the beginning are not so easy to erase.
I was very moved by his proposal, but there was still some hesitation in my heart. The injuries and experiences at the beginning are not so easy to erase.
His sincerity touched me, and I began to think about whether to give him a chance.
However, just as we were trying to repair our relationship again, something unexpected happened. When my family learned that he had proposed, they were very opposed, and they thought that he was not taking responsibility in the first place when he found out that I was pregnant, and that he was acting too uninterestingly.
It was a dilemma for me, and I knew that my family cared about me and my children's future, and I knew they didn't want me to be hurt again.
I felt exhausted from my relationship with him, and I felt like I had fallen into a quagmire. I looked at him, and a thousand hesitations welled up in my heart, and I knew that I had a decision to make.
I was deeply caught in contradictions, the future of my children, my feelings, and my family's expectations were intertwined for a while, and I didn't know what to do.
On this evening, sitting on the balcony and looking at the stars in the sky, I suddenly felt extremely tired. I need time to sort out my emotions and figure out what I need.
I closed my eyes and let my thoughts run through my mind. At this moment, I deeply hope that I can make a wise decision, for the sake of my children's future, and for my own happiness.
The moment he knelt on the ground and proposed, I felt an inexplicable heartbeat. The remorse and confession in his eyes made me think that maybe he had really changed.
I realize this is a paradoxical moment. I am an ordinary girl, I have no Yaxing or ambition, just have an ordinary life, but at this moment, my heart is churning again.
I need to think about whether the relationship is worth continuing, and I also need to think about my children. After all, a family is not only a man and a woman, but also a baby who has just come into this world who needs to be cared for and a complete home.
This time, I had to make a wise decision, not only for myself, but also for the sake of my children. After all, families need stability and love, and that's exactly what I need to be ready for.