My stepfather went, and my stepbrother, who was not related to me, dropped out of school to raise me, and that year he was paralyzed in both legs, and I made a difficult decision to get married.
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Text: Yo Yo Xiaolu, Material: Chen Yue
Statement: "The content of this article comes from life, but it is higher than life, part of the plot is fictional, in order to facilitate reading, the first-person narration is adopted, aiming to spread positive energy, please read rationally"
If there were any difficult years in my life, it would have been when I was 10 years old, because of the death of my mother and stepfather, my sky seemed to collapse.
I don't have any impression of my biological father, and I basically know about him from my mother's mouth.
Mom said that my biological father is a northern man, big and three thick, my mother is married from the south, although the contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law is prominent after marriage, but the husband and wife are loving, and life is comfortable.
Especially after I was born, my family of two became a family of three, and my life became happier and more harmonious.
It's just that when I was three years old, my father died of a sudden illness, and my grandmother didn't look down on me and my mother, so my mother took me to the south to work less than two months after my father's death, and since then I have completely cut off contact with my grandparents' family.
My mother is a woman, who has to work to earn money and provide for me to go to school, so you can imagine how difficult her life is.
But my mother is a strong woman, and I fell out with my grandparents because of my distant marriage, and now I don't want to go back to disturb their lives no matter how difficult the days are, so my mother endures it no matter how hard it is, until the appearance of my stepfather opens another door to my mother's and my life.
My stepfather is a colleague of my mother, although he is a southerner, but he is tall and big, his skin is healthy wheat, and he smiles honestly and thickly, and he is approachable at first glance, I have never enjoyed fatherly love, but my stepfather gives me the feeling that he is very much like my father.
He and his mother got married when I was 6 years old, and when my mother and I first moved into my stepfather's house, probably because of the unfamiliar environment and strange people, I was timid, but my stepfather and his son Lele's enthusiasm for me quickly melted the cowardice in my heart.
Lele was 8 years older than me, he was already a junior high school student at that time, I just stepped into the house with my mother, and he was still immersed in his homework at the time, and immediately greeted me warmly, took my hand and said that he would take me to see my new room.
I nervously pulled my mother's hand, but my mother smiled and touched my little head, "Yueyue, let's play with my brother, my mother and uncle will cook a big meal for you"
I nodded timidly, and then Lele took my hand and led me into what he said belonged to my bedroom.
As soon as I entered the door, I was stunned to see what I saw.
The inside is all pink, pink curtains, pink sheets, the cabinet is white, but there is also pink decoration, and there is a half-human tall doll on the bed.
I just took a look at it and immediately fell in love with this fantastic room, which was completely decorated to my liking.
"Yueyue, do you like it? This is what my father and I arranged by hand," Lele's voice came, with a hint of uncertainty.
I was speechless with excitement when I saw this beautiful room.
"Yueyue, why don't you speak, don't you like this room? If you don't like it, it doesn't matter, we can arrange it in the style you like."
"I like it very much, I like it very much" I looked at Lele and replied word by word, and he breathed a sigh of relief.
The days in the new home are indeed very happy and satisfying, before the family was me and my mother, my mother was busy with work every day, and the time allocated to me was very little, most of the time was I entertained myself, and now, there are two more people in the family, and it is a lot more lively.
My stepfather is also very good to me, it is not an exaggeration to say that he treats me like his own child, compared with Lele, he has a little more preference for me, Lele pretends to be jealous every time, "Dad, I must have picked it up, Yueyue is your own child"
"That's not it, Yueyue is my little padded jacket, as for you, where is the wind and where is cool"
Lele immediately pretended to cry, while I snickered on the side, while my mother watched the excitement from the sidelines.
At that time, I only felt that the years were quiet, a family of four, and I was happy and comfortable, and I suddenly thought of it for a lifetime.
It's just that the years are flying, the good days are fleeting, and four years later, a sudden change made my sky fall.
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It was Saturday, which happened to be my mother's birthday, Lele and I were doing our homework at home, while my stepfather rode out with my mother out to buy groceries and pick out gifts, but they went out with a smile on their faces and never came back.
The stepfather was at fault for the accident, and he paid a heavy price for it.
Lele and I went to the hospital to send them on their last journey, my stepfather and mother were all bloodied on their foreheads, their faces were pale, I wanted to try to see the faces of my stepfather and mother clearly, but Lele pressed my head his chest, "Yueyue doesn't look at it, don't be afraid, there will be a brother in the future"
At the age when I was still ignorant, I lost my father, and now, I have lost my mother again, I don't know how to vent my emotions, I just feel that my tears are like pearls with broken threads, and I can't wipe them clean.
It's just that an accident happened, no matter how sad Lele and I were, we had to accept the reality that my mother and stepfather were no longer there.
After my mom and stepdad's funeral, I would come home every day and look at the empty house, and I would feel very helpless, and then I would start to worry about my future, would I be able to continue reading?
It wasn't until Lele didn't go to school for a few days that he told me that he had dropped out of school, and I burst into tears of sadness.
Lele said, "Yueyue, don't be afraid, you will always have a brother in the future, and your brother will become your eternal dependence."
I leaned on his arms, but I didn't know how to express my gratitude, he gave up his future for me, how could I not be moved?
I said, "Brother, why are you so stupid?" Is it really worth it? ”
He patted me on the shoulder, "Yueyue, since my aunt and father got married, she has always been very good to me, and now that she is gone, I take care of you as a matter of course, remember that we are family, we must always unite and help each other"
"But, but"
"Yueyue, you don't have too much psychological burden, anyway, my grades are average, whether I can be admitted to college is still unknown, this is just a choice in advance"
On this day, we snuggled up to each other on the sofa and talked a lot, as if since the death of my stepfather and mother, Lele has changed a lot, and she is a little more mature and stable without her previous hanging.
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In order to support this family, in order to support me, Lele worked day and night, he had never done heavy work, in order to pick up the burden of life, he went to work at the construction site, and it was only a few days of hard work, he was fair-skinned, and his whole face was tanned and swarthy.
He is already very tired from work, but every time he comes back, he still insists on making me good food, and before going to bed at night, he will give me homework tutoring, he said, "Yueyue, your foundation is good, you must study hard, the girl's family, you must read more, learn more, and there will be more choices in the future"
I don't seem to understand, Lele affectionately tapped my head with a pen, "When you grow up, you'll understand, now your main task is to study without distractions, and you don't have to worry about other things, understand?" ”
I nodded heavily, and Lele touched my head with satisfaction, "Yueyue, really good"
When I was in my second year of junior high school, I suddenly received a call from my grandmother, who suddenly relented after a serious illness and wanted to take me back to their house to live.
Lele said, "Yueyue, I respect your choice" He lowered his head, and I couldn't see his expression clearly.
My heart is very uncomfortable, in the past few years, the two of us have depended on each other, Lele for life, every day in the wind and rain, obviously only 20 years old, but look much older than his peers.
I know he's been carrying the weight for me, and although I've been working hard, I'm not as comfortable as I seem.
Lele has paid a lot for me, in the year of his stepfather's death, a relative once came to the door to ask to adopt Lele, I will never forget what Lele said at that time, he said, "Unless Yueyue is with me, I will not go anywhere"
In the end, my relatives left disappointed, I cried, but Lele looked at me and smiled.
The past is one after another, and now, Lele and I have encountered the same situation, I am reluctant to leave Lele, but I am reluctant to let him suffer because of me, I am in a dilemma.
Lele cashed in very calmly, "Yueyue, no matter what decision you make, I will support you"
The day I went to the train station with my grandmother, the sky was gloomy and terrible, as if I was in the mood at this time, and when I was about to enter the station, I ran away, and my grandmother kept shouting from behind, "Yueyue, come back quickly"
I glanced back at my grandmother and said in a resolute tone, "I'm sorry, grandma, I'm not going back, I'm going back to my brother."
After I finished speaking, I left without looking back.
When I got home, I looked around and it was empty, until Lele's voice remembered, "Yueyue, why are you back?" ”
His voice was confused, but more of a surprise.
I threw myself into Lele's arms and said excitedly, "Brother, in the future, the two of us will depend on each other, and I will never leave you again, even if you drive me, I will not leave."
"What a stupid girl, it's better to have your family there than to follow me"
"No matter how good they are, they are not as good as you, I only know that over the years, without you, I am nothing, and where you are, it is home"
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When I was in my third year of high school, Lele was already 26 years old, and there were many people around him who introduced him to him.
In fact, according to Lele's conditions, although it is a little darker, he is tall, not to mention how handsome, but his appearance is not ashamed, and he is diligent, and he is still very popular with girls.
It's just because I'm a drag oil bottle that hinders Lele's good marriage.
There was once a girl who had a good family and her own conditions and fell in love with Lele, and Lele seemed to have a good impression of her, so I was naturally happy to see it.
It's just that in the end, they broke up because of me, because the woman wanted Lele to go out with her to buy a house and settle down, but Lele didn't agree, and finally the good marriage broke up like this.
I felt very guilty, but Lele comforted me and said, "Yueyue, you are my family, you are my sister, I can't lose you because of marriage, I can't be sorry for my conscience, and I can't be sorry for my aunt under Jiuquan"
I didn't want to cry, but I just couldn't control my tears.
Lele and I have been clinging to each other all these years, although we are not related by blood, we have long been like brothers and sisters, and we are reluctant to leave each other.
After I was admitted to university, Lele followed a friend to work in other places in order to earn more money.
That day, he took me to school with a large bag and a small bag.
He was like a father, accompanying me to report, accompanying me to buy daily necessities, and making my bed, I didn't let me, feeling a little embarrassed, after all, I am such an adult.
But Lele had a thoughtful expression, and finally made the bed for me quickly.
After I was busy, Lele and I walked around the school, and it could be seen that Lele did not go to college, and there was regret in my heart, so he kept telling me to cherish the opportunity to study before leaving.
At that time, everyone agreed that being admitted to university could not only glorify their ancestors, but also change their destiny.
In fact, over the years, I have gradually realized this regret in Lele's heart, without a diploma, it is difficult to move an inch, and in order to survive, I can only do that kind of hard and tiring work.
On dog days, I witnessed Lele sweating like rain on the construction site, and once I almost suffered from heat stroke, but fortunately, a worker found it in time and sent Lele to the hospital.
Later, Lele went to work in the factory, two shifts, the assembly line is to fight for efficiency, he is often so tired that he goes home and falls asleep, once I got up in the middle of the night to drink water, and saw him fall on the sofa, snoring.
One winter, he had a severe cold and fever, but he still insisted on going to work, but because of dizziness, his hands were almost disturbed by the machine, and Lele was almost fired because of this.
This is more or less a cry without a diploma, if Lele hadn't dropped out of school back then, would he have had a completely different fate after four years of college baptism?
It's a pity that once I make a choice in life, I don't have the opportunity to come, and now I can only help Lele make up for his regrets, study hard in school, and change the fate of me and Lele through my own efforts.
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Four years have passed, and I have entered the society from school, and my efforts have finally paid off, and I have become a member of the workplace from a student.
I was the only girl in the entire technical department, in order not to hold back the department, and in order to make them look at me, I worked overtime with them day and night, and came back from work to wash and scrub, and the hour hand on the wall was basically pointing to the early hours of the morning.
Every time I lay in bed, I basically fell asleep.
On Saturdays and Sundays, I still have to be busy charging, and I really have to learn endless technical things, and if I want not to be eliminated by the company, I can only keep pushing myself to improve.
Countless late nights, because of the pressure of work, I would bury myself in the quilt and cry bitterly, but after crying, I was Xiaoqiang, who couldn't be beaten, and came back to life.
Lele often calls, but because of his busy work, he doesn't have much time to chat, and he is often interrupted by something when he can't say a few words.
Lele sighed on the other side of the screen, "Yueyue, it's a good thing for girls to be ambitious, but don't tire yourself out"
At that time, I was wandering in a foreign land, only busy work could relieve my inner loneliness and uneasiness, I didn't even dare to stop, as long as I stopped, there would be a lot of emotions in my mind, I wanted to escape to a comfort zone, maybe for the rest of my life, but I knew I couldn't, so despite the thorns ahead, I could only move forward with my head held high.
It wasn't until the appearance of Aray that my heart finally settled down.
He would shush me when I was sick and take me to the doctor, and the way he looked at me was full of distress.
When I'm in a bad mood, he will say, "Yueyue, cry if you want to, my shoulder is here, I'll lend it to you at any time"
When I collapsed under too much pressure at work, he would look at me affectionately, "Yueyue, if you are not happy at work, forget it, I will be responsible for making money to support my family in the future, and you will be responsible for being beautiful like a flower."
One of my hearts gradually fell into these sweet words of his.
So when I was 30 years old, we had plans to get married and settle down in the city.
But less than two months after my wedding, Lele suddenly had an accident.
I rushed back overnight, and by the time I arrived at the hospital, Lele had just come out of the operating room.
Looking at the doctor's expression, Lele's condition is not optimistic, although he has saved a life, he is afraid that his legs will not be able to walk independently in the future.
Lele is only 38 years old, and I don't know how he will accept this cruel reality when he wakes up.
I looked at his face and didn't dare to squint all night, now that he was the most important relative in my world, I didn't want him to miss anything.
After Lele knew his situation, he was calmer than I expected, but after he was discharged from the hospital, he often locked himself in his room, and I realized that his previous calmness was all fake.
I heard movement in the room from time to time, and I didn't dare to ask more, so I could only choose to stay behind him silently.
When there were still 10 days before my wedding, Lele rarely spoke, he said, "Yueyue, your wedding is only a few days away, you go and get busy, but unfortunately my brother can't attend your wedding in person, so I can only wish you a happy wedding here in advance."
He had a smile on his face, but my heart was bleeding.
If Lele hadn't wanted to buy me new furniture and decorate the house because I got married, he wouldn't have had this accident, and now he wouldn't be confined to a wheelchair, all because of me.
As the wedding date drew nearer, I became more and more panicked, and when I was only one day away from getting married, I finally made up my mind to give up my marriage.
Since Lele's accident, my boyfriend and I have started a protracted tug-of-war, Lele is not married, alone, and now his legs are inconvenient, so I naturally can't leave him.
Although my boyfriend loves me, he doesn't want to accept Lele to live with us.
I was caught between love and affection, and in the end I chose to give up my marriage.
The boyfriend almost gritted his teeth and said, "Yueyue, you are really a ruthless woman"
At this time, any explanation is pale and weak, Lele has nurtured me, so many years of dependence, doomed me to not be a person without conscience, so, I can only choose to give up my feelings.
After Lele knew my decision, he scolded me and cried, "Yueyue, why are you so stupid, this is the happiness of your life"
I squatted down, looked at Lele and said word by word, "Brother, my happiness is far less important than you, without you, there would be no me today, you didn't leave me many years ago, and now, I will never leave you"