I was born in 1990, born in the countryside, my parents are farmers, and I graduated with a master's degree in law in 2019. Because I stayed on to work for two years after graduating from undergraduates, graduate students graduated older than their peers.
As an older young woman, approaching the age of 30, she is always caught in the panic of age, into the panic of achieving nothing, into the panic of not being able to find a satisfactory job, into the panic that she may not be able to take care of and repay her parents in the future, and also into the panic of loneliness and old age.
As of now some are still going on...
As a law student, during graduate school, the teacher said that students should have a dream of being a lawyer and a dream of being a judge.
Because I do not like to communicate, I have never been very interested in the legal profession, coupled with the experience of internship in a law firm after graduation, lawyers are expected not to consider it in the future. But as a law student, I still have the dream of being a judge or a prosecutor.
I like to know the public examination of "not to do, do something", my tendential work has never been to make much money, enough to use, work to be able to reflect your value, meaningful to this society.
Some people may say that it is good that this society can live, what dreams do you want?
In this society, the pressure of young people is indeed very large, from the pressure of survival, from the pressure of work, etc. But I also think that dreams still have to be had, what if they come true?
For the examination of public society, perhaps many people are thinking of having a decent job, which can reflect their own value in the work, and their work can contribute a little to the development and progress of society.
After work, there is still energy and time to take care of my family, I will not have too much unemployment anxiety for the future, and I can have time to enrich myself, which is also my original intention of choosing to take the exam, looking back on myself, I still don't have enough to pay.
After graduating in 2019, he also participated in the national examination and the provincial examination, and then left the law firm to prepare for the examination, perhaps because of his learning methods and psychological pressure, and finally failed the 2020 provincial examination.
The line test has been hovering at more than 50 points, and the score of the argument is gradually improving. Since the end of the 2020 provincial examination, it has been in a state of wandering.
At present, working in a very general state-owned enterprise, I not only have to face the intrigues between the leaders, the deceit among colleagues, but also the trivial work, upset, always want to leave, but there is not enough courage and confidence.
Looking back on 2020, meeting the right person successfully got off the list, got married, and solved life events, which is a big achievement, and then there are parents in good health and family harmony. For individuals, the rest seems to be of little gain.
Approaching 2021, there is no panic of loneliness and old age, which can also be regarded as a matter of concern.
The upcoming 2021, from 0 to 1, people need to calm down, comb carefully, and work hard. Recently, I have been thinking that the terrible is never the mediocre status quo, and the most terrible thing is that I am content with the status quo and have no intention of changing.
The source of all panic is that they are not working hard enough, not calming down, anxious about the status quo and slow to take action to change, lack of perseverance, in the new year, you need to sink your heart, find yourself, do not become the most hated look you have ever been.
In 2021, I hope to work with like-minded Bon friends to sink my heart and start again. (Recently anxious and irritable, spit spit haha, friends do not abandon)