Ning Lu's Memory (Forty-Eight)

Looking back on it now, the house was noisy and noisy, but it was very warm. Because Dad is still there, the home is complete.

The experience of the year before her father's death was the last thing Ning Lu wanted to remember. At first, Dad also told Ning Lu that after his legs were better, he planned to go out and do something. As the bedtime extended indefinitely, Dad was no longer talking. He asked Ning Lu to move a chair and put it in the corridor in front of his house, and Ning Lu and his mother helped him sit there, which was considered to be out of the house. He sat there in silence for a long time, looking at the snowflakes flying outside the window.

Winter passed and he stopped going out. Instead, he sat on the balcony of his home and watched the flowers he planted in the pots bloom, and he rarely talked to his family. Occasionally his brother and sister came back to see him, and he would also say a few words, but except for Ning Lu, no one else could understand what he said, and his language function gradually deteriorated.

Later, Dad's range of motion was limited to his bed. He refused to go down to the ground again, not to take any more steps. Ning Lu assisted him in moving his upper body, helping him pinch his legs, and he did not scold and grin, and cooperated mechanically.

A clock hung on the wall opposite Dad's bed, and every time the children were about to end of school, he looked anxiously at the door, as if it were the only thought he had in the day. Jiayuan and Yuezhi would come back from school and walk up to him and shout "Grandpa, Grandpa" on his face, at which point Daddy would laugh out loud and mutter a few words.

I remember it was a Wednesday in July, the hottest day of the year. The children are on summer vacation, Yuezhi goes to cram school, and Jiayuan writes summer vacation homework at home. In the morning, Ning Lu bathed her father as usual, changed the bedding, and changed the sheets. Mom had already boiled milk for Dad and soaked a bun in it. Ning Lu fed her father breakfast and let him sit on the bed, and Jiayuan accompanied her grandfather to talk for a while. Ning Lu cleaned up the house after breakfast, and washed all the clothes, pants and bedding that her father had changed. After exercising for a while, he peeled a peach that he loved the most, and after eating the peach, his father slept.

At noon, my mother made a meal, it was braised beef, the beef was very bad, and it melted in the mouth. Ning Lu called her father to get up to eat, her father barely woke up, but she couldn't sit still, Jiayuan supported her grandfather, Ning Lu fed her father, and the food she fed into her mouth did not chew and swallow. His eyes quickly closed again, as if he hadn't slept enough. Ning Lu had to put down her rice bowl and cover her father with a quilt for him to continue sleeping. Ning Lu felt very tired after lunch and wanted to sleep for a while, but she didn't trust her father, who was a bit abnormal today. Ning Lu measured his blood pressure, and the sphygmomanometer showed that both blood pressure and heartbeat were normal. Ning Lu called Jiayuan and asked her to guard her grandfather and her mother to sleep for a while. If anything is unusual, call Mom. Xiao Jiayuan moved a small chair to sit in front of grandpa's bed, and also took a fan to cool grandpa. Ning Lu slept for an hour or so, and when she got up, she saw that her father was still asleep. She felt that something was wrong so she called her eldest sister Ning Ke to ask if she needed to call an ambulance, and Ning Ke said that she would leave work soon and wait until she came back to see. Soon, Ning Ke returned, she called for her father, his father did not respond, she quickly called the community doctor, the doctor said that dad had fallen into a deep coma. Ning Lu dialed 120 again, and when the ambulance arrived, the emergency doctor examined her father and said that her father had died.

But Ning Lu touched her father's body and was still warm, so she couldn't believe that her father had left. Dad's body was taken to the morgue by ambulance, and the community doctor told Ning Lu that Dad's condition in the afternoon was not a deep sleep, but a deep coma.

Dad died because of a lung infection caused by prolonged bed rest, and various functions of the body gradually deteriorated.

Brother Ning Shi heard the news and took the latest flight to rush back. Ning Lu accompanied her brother to the morgue to see her father, and after a few hours, Ning Lu always felt that the doctor had misdiagnosed her, and her father was just asleep. Watching Dad being pushed into the freezer, she wanted to stop it, it was too cold there, and what if Dad suddenly woke up and his shouts weren't heard. The brother hugged her and said that her father was gone and would not wake up, and she cried bitterly after putting her arms around her sister.

Three days later, the farewell ceremony of her father's body was held in the funeral home, the brothers and sisters cried very sadly, Ning Lu was also very uncomfortable in her heart, but there was not a single tear, she was about to explode, she missed her father so much.

She remembered when she was a child, she dragged her father's backpack to her father's unit, and her father smiled and told others that she was his little tail; she remembered the back of her father when he went to her cram school to borrow money from other people's homes, when his father's tone of pleading with others made her feel helpless; she remembered all kinds of love for her. She hoped that her father would wake up and scold her again, as long as she could, and she would never argue. She meditated countless times in her heart: Daddy, I miss you, in the next life I will be your daughter.

Ning Lu's father is an honest and cautious person, and he is also unknown in the unit. But his funeral came with more than three hundred people, most of whom he had helped.

The departure of her father is a grief that Ning Lu cannot let go of in her life, and today, after many years, Ning Lu is also crying bitterly while recording this text. Let us all cherish the loved ones around us! Because once lost, how to bear that pain!

Years later, Ning Lu would still wake up at dawn. To the star that shone brightly in the sky, he said, "Daddy, I miss you, and I will be your daughter in the next life." ”