In recent days, the mood is very irritable, the work is very busy, but also by the blind date girl who has known her for more than a year, the original relationship is still good, often keep in touch, almost every day to greet her, although she returned to me with less information, I always think she is busy, no time to pay attention to me, usually see things suitable for her, I will buy it as a gift to send to her, I have always bought snacks and fruits for her, I have always felt that she is different from the average girl, I think she is very positive, beautiful and generous, unpretentious, It is indeed the type I like, take her to buy clothes, but also I rush to pay the bill, eat and watch movies, discuss things, but also have the same point of view, we talk between each other very elegantly, based on the fact that we are all principled people, so I never do anything excessive to her, I only seek to go with the flow of development, I have kept in touch during this time, I have expressed my will many times, hoping that she can be my girlfriend, but every time she keeps silent, for my frequent concern, she often does not respond, Only occasionally reply to my message, I also expressed many times, if she finds the right person, or I am not interested, you can also explain clearly, I am willing to be a person who knows, choose to leave, she is also selectively avoiding responding to such a question, even on Valentine's Day, send her a red envelope, she is only expressing happiness, just saying that the heart is received, although I am a little sad, I still comfort myself, she just does not want me to think that she is a material girl, it turns out that this is just my wishful thinking...
Later because of a thing, she was angry, because we knew each other on a blind date, there was a matchmaker in the middle, both parents knew, for my parents, I wanted to know how the development between us was, I simply said the situation, and then my parents felt that we got along very well, there was also the meaning of rushing, and also wanted to hear what her parents had, wanted her parents to communicate with her, to see if she had any will, so I found a matchmaker to go to her house to ask about the situation, well, just because of this, angry, Say that the matter between us let the adults participate, let her parents embarrassed, I am a little blind, although the family can not influence the will of the individual, is the family not even have the right to ask questions, although I am very uncomfortable in my heart, her groundless accusations are also strong words to take it, but I still maintain restraint, repeatedly apologize to her, including my family's behavior, I also apologize to her, but her attitude is still not responding, I have been sending her a message again, indicating that we should understand each other, my parents communicate with the matchmaker, Is it the misplaced meaning conveyed by the matchmaker, causing any misunderstanding, I want her to tolerate some things, but still a silent person, sent her messages for many days in a row, saying apologies, saying humble words, saying boring words, and then saying angry words, and finally she replied, saying that she has a boyfriend, I am like a lightning bolt, what is wrong, I also pretend that she is cheating on me, I also said that she is not married I will not give up, but she still takes the involvement of her parents to talk about things, let her be angry, alas, Is this childish, there are a lot of words I really can't express, can only say that I look away, originally I still blindly raised her, said that she is an excellent girl with a temperament type, but now, it is also a deep-sea fish, no, I should not say this, she has this qualification, I am a humble fish, not worthy of her at all, everything is only in me, has nothing to do with her, I poured out all the tenderness and did not exchange her for a trace of pity, it was caused by my misunderstanding...
I can be sad, I can cry, but I still have to be strong, I still have to smile and work hard.
However, I had to work hard to forget everything about her, but I really needed someone to comfort me, but there was no one I could pour out, and late that night, I tried to pray to God, not only for me, but also for the wishes of my parents, I prayed and fell asleep...
That same night, I had a dream
In the dream I walked into a restaurant of many people, there was no empty seat, I saw a table in the corner, only sat a girl, I did it opposite her, looked at it, felt bad, did not look again, it was indeed a strange face, her hair was tied up with long hair, and then I took out my mobile phone to see, found that the back of the phone is made of glass, do not know when it cracked a lot of lines, a closer look, these lines are actually words, and English, can you ... yet......？ I'm not good at English, I don't understand anything, and there's a sentence about what do you know what love is? It seems that this, at that time, I only read English, did not carefully read the Chinese character copy, and then I also seemed to hear her also murmuring, did not hear anything clearly, and then she smiled at me, really she smiled, I was moved, I pulled her out, is to take her away, as if in a school corridor, there are many students, as if she has to go to class, as if she also has something, may be to work, I asked her for WeChat, I gave her a pen, meaning she wrote WeChat in my hand, But she wrote on her left hand, stretched out her hand and let me look at it, and then withdrew it, I only remembered the two words "oak jiao", the rubber word was uncertain, it could also be Yu, the word Jiao was still the kind of female word next to the upper stroke down, the tail drew a careful kind, and then I did not let go of her hand, she was squeezed under the stairs, I was squeezed to the top of the building, at this time I found that I pulled the wrong person, and then I was inexplicably squeezed into a classroom, and then I forgot about the back
When I woke up, I thought about this dream carefully, is this the love affair in my dream, is she a teacher teaching English with a ponytail, Oak Jiao, is it a female teacher named Jiao in Henan? I am a native of Henan, is this my magical dream...
Well, I'm a rational person, if it's really like a dream, I'll be recorded in history, hahaha...
Anyway, this dream makes me forget about these unpleasant troubles, I will look forward, the adult world, more need is a strong disguise...