Last night I had a dream that I was back to when I was a child, when my father was still there, and there were three sisters, two older brothers, and one youngest me.
The memory is too old, I don't remember how old I was then, only that my family was very poor and life was very difficult. Although the three sisters and the eldest brother had already graduated from elementary school and were working outside, it should have been nine years ago, and the salary was not high. Is there a second brother still in the fifth or sixth grade of primary school? I can't remember exactly.
My parents were farmers, and they planted more than one acre of land, but at that time, the harvest was not good, and they often needed to go to other homes to borrow rice to cook rice or spend money to buy rice, and their memories often ate very thin white rice porridge. The main economic source of the family should be regarded as the father every morning to the mountain to cut pine resin, once a month to take it and sell it can be exchanged for money, sometimes there is a lack of money, half a month will be collected once, but the bag containing pine resin is not full, usually insist on cutting once a day, cut for a month, the bag containing pine resin will be filled.
The father in my memory has always been a little talkative, silent, honest, often getting up very early to cook porridge, and going out to the mountains to cut pine resin at dawn. He wouldn't come back until after 10 o'clock, and then he would sit in his chair and rest, doze off, wake up and go out to do farm work.
I remember once, the family came in at night with a docile and non-venomous chrysanthemum snake, but at that time my dog was also very fierce, the dog found the snake, it should be a fight with the snake, no doubt, the result is that my dog won, the chrysanthemum snake escaped with injuries to the gap in the rice tank placed in the room where my mother and I lived. By the next morning, when my father got up to take rice to cook porridge, he found a dying, scarred chrysanthemum snake, and it happened that the day was also the day of the market, and his father caught the snake and thought that he would take it to the market for money and buy some pork.
In the morning, after I got up, I saw that my dog's foot was injured, asked my father to know about this matter, and then I couldn't remember clearly, I only remembered that my father rushed back at night to carry a few or two pieces of pork, because finally there was meat to eat, I was very happy, I thought it was the pork that the snake sold for money, and I also gave my big dog a big hug!
In fact, the snake can't be sold, the person who bought the snake said it was going to die, didn't want it, and then the father put the snake away, and the meat was on credit...
At that time, I was still young, but when I heard my father say that the snake had not been sold, I felt very uncomfortable in my heart, but at that time I did not understand what this emotion should be called, I was sad and felt very pitiful, I still don't know, at that time, I was poor for the snake that was dying or the hope of poor father was disappointed? But I knew that my father must have hoped that the snake could be exchanged for some money.
Because our family is so poor, I remember once my father went to the market, I quarreled to follow, my father stepped on his 28-inch bicycle to take me, to the market my father would go to a stall selling shochu to sit, a sitting is a whole day, my father and the owner of the liquor seller seem to be very familiar, they chatted about home, my father loved to drink shochu, every night to eat half a cup. I watched my father and the soju seller talk like good friends, and when the boss wasn't busy or when they were both tired of talking, they dozed off together.
At noon I was hungry, my father took out the money from his pocket, a total of only 7 yuan, took a dollar to the powder shop next door and spent 5 cents to buy me a bowl of cold mixed rice noodles, at that time I liked to eat the most, the taste was very fragrant, and now I have not eaten it for more than 20 years.
At 4 o'clock in the afternoon, my father and the owner of the shochu sold a pound of liquor on credit, and then bought a couple of pork for five yuan, which was very expensive at that time, and our family only ate it two or three times a month. When I got home, I spent 1 cent on the storage of the bicycle, well, it seems that I bought two apples because I was clamoring to buy them. When I got home at night, my second brother and I ate half of it, in fact, I ate half of it myself, and the second brother and my mother ate the other half separately, and my father didn't eat it!
Later, the time is not clear anyway, the second brother graduated from primary school, there is no money to go to junior high school, plus I still need to save money to keep for me to go to school to pay tuition, so the second brother also went out to work with his brothers and sisters after graduating from elementary school.
At that time, there was no telephone, all the contacts could only write letters, and the family could receive letters written by brothers and sisters every month, but I had not seen the eldest brother and three sisters at that time, because when they went out to work, I was still young, I did not remember sex, I only knew the second brother, when I was a child, I often quarreled with the second brother, I cried if I didn't win, and then I went to my parents to complain, and then the second brother would be scolded, and when it was serious, I would be beaten.
In my memory, once, the second brother was beaten by my father once because of my reasons, and the second brother glared at me with hatred, but did not cry, at that time, the second brother must have hated me very much!
Remember the second brother went out to work at the end of the year of the New Year did not go home for the New Year, at that time the village has been a family installed a fixed telephone, all the people who go out to work in the village and the contact with the family was replaced by a phone call, the second brother said on the phone that the Year did not go home, said that he found a part-time job, the New Year when he went to work to make more money, and later learned that it was actually because he just went out to work at that time, did not earn any money, did not pay wages, and the fare back was quite expensive. So the second brother brought the remaining 400 yuan to the eldest brother back to the family, and he left 200 outside the province for the New Year.
At the end of the year, the eldest brother came back for the New Year, it should be three more midnight to go home, anyway, at night I fell asleep, at about 6 o'clock in the morning when my mother woke me up, helped me get dressed, very happy to talk to me about what, I can't remember clearly, at that time sleepy, but also dozing off, carried me to the door of the hall to put me down, I just looked at the door of the room where the second brother lived before There was a very good-looking man brushing his teeth and washing his face.
Well, that's my eldest brother, my eldest brother is very good-looking, recognized in the village, in today's parlance, is handsome. But at that time I didn't know him, my mother told me with a smile that it was the eldest brother, and the eldest brother looked at me while wiping his face with a towel, and I couldn't remember it later, and I remembered this in my memory.
Later, my family's life began to slowly get better, no longer so difficult, my father's credit account was also hired, and the family even had money to start calculating the construction of new houses and buildings.
The days are getting better and better, but somehow I started a period of bad luck!
First of all, once ate mooncakes on the night of the Mid-Autumn Festival without washing my hands and wiping my face, I slept until midnight when I was bitten by a centipede, I cried all night, and my mother coaxed me behind my back for a night without sleeping.
After this incident, the family dog got sick, as if it was a cold, because watching it keep snot and sneeze, I still had to play with it, as if it hurt it, was bitten on the hand, and then for a month the bar was injected, as if it said anti-rabies or something. Then the next day after the last shot, I went to the neighbor's house to play, and they had a bitch who had just given birth to a puppy for a few days, and I ran up and down while they were playing at their house and then their dog didn't know what crazy suddenly rushed out and bit my ass!
I cried and went home and was scolded badly by my mother, and then took me to get an injection. When the last shot was almost finished, I don't remember what happened, anyway, the dog needle was not finished, and it was bitten by the dog again... Then on the way home after the last shot of the injection, my friends and I went to play hide-and-seek, I used to not wear shoes, and then walked and looked at the road, and I was stuck by a rusty iron nail...
Just went to the injection and came home, I had to go back to the doctor, at that time my mother was angry and scolded me and beat me up, since then, I have been at home for more than a month, I can only jump on one foot and walk. As if cursed, non-stop accidents, after the foot was good, the eldest brother bought a bicycle, took me to play, I sat on the back seat of the bicycle, the eldest brother stepped on the front, and kept telling me to open my feet, be careful not to put my feet into the wheels, but I still put my feet into the wheels, the heels were injured, the skin was scraped off by the wheels, leaving a lot of blood, at that time the eldest brother looked at me with a stunned and very unbelievable expression...
Later, I also began to enroll in primary school, the family also built a new house on the first floor and a half, there was no decoration, everyone in the village was praising my two brothers, the two brothers saved their own money, did not need their parents to build a new building for a penny, other people's sons are the houses built by their parents for money, and they still need to ask their parents for money when they go out to work. Even my tuition was spent on my brothers' money.
No matter how good it is, life is getting better and better, there is no need to borrow rice, there is no need to borrow money again, my father does not need to pay credit anymore, life is no longer so difficult, but my father suddenly left forever...