This is a film that explores "bipolar disorder", and such a conscience work may be becoming more and more rare at the moment.
The film is based on the novel of the same name by Japanese writer Yukiko Tani, who won both the Wasagawa Award and the Mishima Yukio Award, and has a Douban score of 7.3 points.
The reason why such a film with gloomy visual effects and monotonous moving lines can be praised is more because the film itself is speaking for people and shouting for people living in a state of mental sub-health.
The current society gives people too much pressure, and the big hands of the workplace and life invisibly overwhelm people's spirits and make people vulnerable. In this era, suffering from bipolar disorder or depression is a very sparse and common thing, but many people do not care and help this group, and even the patients themselves are not self-aware and unwilling to admit that they are sick.
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One of the first themes that the film throws at us is bipolar disorder.
Many people don't understand the concept of bipolar disorder, but most people have heard of depression. In fact, bipolar disorder and depression are two different mental illnesses, and their symptoms are also different.
Bipolar patients will be irritable for a period of time, some small things may cause a violent reaction, if not treated and adjusted in time, it is likely to develop into depression, bipolar disorder treatment is mainly based on mood stabilizers.
Depressed patients in a long period of time will appear melancholy and depressed mood, and thinking is relatively slow, it is likely to be accompanied by pessimistic and negative mentality, such patients usually do not have the onset of irritability, the main treatment is to antidepressant drugs.
The protagonist of this film, Ning Zi, is a bipolar disorder.
Her daily life pattern is to sleep, and there are many alarm clocks on her head, but they can't wake her up.
In addition to sleeping, all she does is smoke, drink, and then throw a tantrum at the people around her for a small reason. Unable to manage emotions, often out of control, often wanting to wrestle things, inadvertently crying.
When she was a child, she had a bipolar attack, and she shaved all the hair on her body, including her hair and eyebrows, so she was bullied by her classmates at school.
Ningzi recalls that when she was a child, she would often see a woman standing naked and dancing in front of the window on the night of the power outage. It turned out to be Ningzi's mother, and her mother also passed on the gene for bipolar disorder to Ningzi.
Throughout the film, most of the time, we see Ning Zi curled up and hiding in the quilt, like a wounded hedgehog, as long as she hides in the quilt, she does not have to suffer any more injuries. However, there are also times when she can't sleep, and she can only wake up, with everything around her, just like her heart, a mess.
Japanese people are a group that particularly likes to smoke, and both men and women have a penchant for smoking.
Ning Zi crawled out of the quilt and opened her eyes and the first thing she had to do was smoke. He often becomes manic because he has finished his cigarette. Then she will lose her temper with her boyfriend Tsunagi, and inexplicably swear, in short, the other party will do nothing wrong.
She doesn't go out to work or do housework every day, but she's not indifferent to everything. When her sister advised her on the phone, she was also touched, so she tried to take the interview to find a job, but the next day when the interview time came, she was still sleeping, because she missed the interview and was ridiculed on the phone.
She tried to cook a meal for her boyfriend Tsunagi, but when she went to the supermarket, she saw that the onions she wanted to buy were rotten, and she wanted to buy a box of eggs, but she was bumped by the aunt who hurried by, and the box of eggs in her hand fell to the ground and shattered.
Looking at all this from Ningzi's point of view, all of them are so imperfect, even as if she is deliberately opposing herself, when she wants to do something, she touches nails everywhere, and her already tense emotions can no longer withstand a little more accidental blows.
So when Ning Zi finally returned home after shopping, she found that she finally forgot to buy miso sauce, and when she put the food in the microwave to heat up, the electric gate at home was once again tripped into darkness, and with the arrival of darkness, the last line of defense of her psychological construction also collapsed.
So she curled up and stayed in the dark corner until Tsunaki came home from work and planted the jumping electric gate before she could stand up.
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When Ning Zi lost the opportunity to interview and returned to the vicious circle of sleeping, smoking, and eating frozen bento, she thought that she should not be saved. But he was saved by a strange woman. They are obviously hostile identities, but she forces Ningzi to return to life, and this woman is Tsunaki's ex-girlfriend Ando.
Ando stubbornly believes that Ninko is a burden, a drag on her ex-boyfriend, and as long as she moves out of Tsunagi's residence, Ando can get back together with her boyfriend.
But Ninko says I don't have money or a job, so Ando insists on introducing her to a café job, making her financially independent as soon as possible, and then leaving Tsunagi. Ando stubbornly thinks that as long as Ningzi leaves, she and her ex-boyfriend will definitely be reunited, so she actively promotes Ningzi to work.
When Ning Zi half-pushed and half-pushed to the café to work on the first day, she met the amiable boss and the boss lady, and The same as herself, the migrant sister Linai, who used to like to stay at home.
She constantly and recklessly tries to work, constantly breaking cups and saucers, although she bears the pressure of her heart, she can feel the acceptance of this small shop and the kindness of the people around her.
So on the way home from work, Ningzi and Tsunaki talked emotionally like a normal couple. She told Tsunagi that although I was not doing a good job, the people around me were very tolerant, and she seemed to feel that she had the hope of doing the job.
However, Tsunagi, who was tired from work, only said yes, and was speechless.
Compared to Patients like Ningzi, who are open-minded and completely acquiesce to their own bipolar disorder, Tsunagi is not a state of mental sub-health. He worked at a publishing house, but because he didn't want to deal with people, he never went out to interview. Every day in addition to writing, or writing, their own writing, but also to help sick and hospitalized colleagues to write, every day dragging tired body, in the work without a sense of self-identity to live.
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Just when everything seems to be changing in a good direction, there is a situation that we expected. After all, Ning Zi was a sub-healthy person. Although I went back and forth to the coffee shop and started working, I couldn't get back to normal life all at once.
During the tossing and turning, one day without paying attention, she overslept again, and forgot about going to work. So I fell into depression and mania again. Just like the big aunt every month, this kind of bipolar disorder will come again, unexpectedly, but it can't be shaken off.
Ando, the enemy of love, is like a family member who is serious about herself, supervising Ningzi, and she hopes to let Ningzi move out of Tsunagi's house one day earlier, so Ando comes to the door and personally drags Ningzi to the café, reprimands and lectures her, and lets her continue to work.
In the café, even if she did something wrong and forgot to go to work, everything can be forgiven, so Ning Zi returns to work.
After closing the business, everyone sat down to eat together, and Ning Zi felt the concern from her colleagues.
But unconsciously, Ning Zi clearly felt that this tolerance and tolerance had a strange look, and when she said to herself that she was afraid of pumping the toilet, everyone revealed a disdainful and "this person is really strange" attitude between words.
Ning Zi is sensitive and fragile, so she once again falls into an infinite inferiority complex, and the mania recurs. This time it came very violently, echoing the beginning of the film.
In the moment before the outbreak, Ningzi called Tsunaki, and she said that she had endured to the limit, but still could not, she was exhausted, just living, had made her feel too tired.
So, Ning Zi rushed out of the coffee shop and began to run wild mode again. In the winter, she took off her clothes one by one and ran wildly on the road until she was naked, climbed up to the roof of the building, and stood there in a daze. Tsunagi chased Ningzi behind her.
When Ningzi saw Tsunaki catching up, she tearfully said to him, As long as you want to leave me, you can leave, you can tell me. But I envy you so much, you can leave me, but I can't leave myself, I can't be separated from such a self for the rest of my life.
Then Ninko asked Tsunagi, "Why are you with me?"
Tsunaki said, the first time I saw you, you left the party with friends, saying that your presence would cause trouble, you said to me, it always feels like you are being seen through, I am shocked to hear you say this, because I have also had this kind of thought, so I deliberately keep myself at a distance from many things.
Later, you broke your head, your head was bleeding, but you were running aimlessly in a blue dress, and when I saw you running wildly, I thought it was beautiful and wanted to know what kind of person you were.
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Although the whole film strives to show us the plight of bipolar people, the director, in addition to throwing out the problem, does not forget to help us find a way to solve the problem.
When Ning Zi went to work, the store manager once gave her guidance. Tell Ning Zi that the real good thing is not that others want you to do this, that you want you to work, but that you want to do something from the bottom of your heart.
At the end of the film, in the climactic part, Ning Zi, as a patient herself, also frankly confesses her feelings and requirements for those close to her.
The reason why she suffers from mania is because she is a person who lives very deeply, and her bad emotions are not sudden, but caused by many things. If Tsunaki hadn't been blindly unopened, always with a face and an attitude, that might have been helpful to Ningzi.
Ning Zi is living hard, she is sensitive to all the air and emotions around her, the same, she hopes that Jinnai mu can sincerely and frankly face her, she did wrong, she criticized hard, Jinnai Mu himself is unhappy, dissatisfied, can also say it, can frankly tell Ning Zi, this is what Ning Zi wants to see.
Even if people don't necessarily really understand each other, and feelings of joy and sorrow are not completely interchangeable, this love that strives to achieve synchronization and understanding can heal everything.
Finally, on the rooftop, Tsunaki also saw his ex-girlfriend Ando, who was trailing all the way. Ando was obviously self-absorbed, Tsunaki had long since separated from her, and there was no room for redemption.
Ningzi and Tsunaki returned to the apartment again, and the two people who were open to each other hugged each other and cried bitterly.
Tsunaki tells Ninko that he will learn more about Ninko. In that instant, Ning Zi was no longer frightened by the darkness, and the long-awaited release she had been waiting for finally arrived. Because of love, she felt that she was still alive.
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Watching the whole film, there are still many parts that the director left blank for us, which is worth playing repeatedly.
Where are the outlets for patients with bipolar disorder or all emotional problems? We should realize that external and internal forces are equally important.
As far as external forces are concerned, the tolerance of colleagues, family, and friends is needed. But blind tolerance will make the parties feel more alienated, appropriate to treat this patient as a normal person, with the real self to face the patient, this is the people around should strive to do things.
And internal force, for the problem person itself, like Ning Zi, most people are not always in a state of illness or emotional control, so when awake, try their best to express their feelings, accept their problems, and learn to ask for help.
Human vitality is exuberant, everyone has the desire to survive and seek good, any illness in addition to medicine, willpower is the most important support, but also the decisive pillar.
Seeing Ning Zi running naked, some people may think that she is crazy, but on another level, she did not commit suicide, she did not get trapped in bipolar disorder, let bipolar disorder evolve into depression, she is right. Running wild is what she is releasing, and she releases part of the pressure in her own unique way.
Even if it is a normal person, anyone has a time of mental fragility, this is like having a mouth ulcer, it is not a shameful thing, we must know how to do it to please ourselves, let the emotions get catharsis, even if it is like Ningzi running naked.
Living is not an easy thing, why not be considerate of yourself. As human beings, the most important thing for us is not to carry responsibility and pressure, nor do we have to live for something, but first of all, we must let ourselves live.
Naked running is a symbolic meaning, whether it is a real act or not, it all tells a kind of struggle, a kind of resistance to fate, injustice, and life, this action is beautiful, it is powerful, and it is the withdrawal of vitality.
If you are also in depression, you may wish to think about how to release!
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