We are born broken, and we mend with our lives.
Zhang Ailing once wrote in "Half Life":
"If I don't love you, I won't miss you, I won't be jealous of the opposite sex around you, I won't lose my self-confidence and morale, and I won't be miserable." If only I could not love you. ”
But in fact, the tragedy of many women's lives is precisely that it is not the lack of love, but overflowing, until it collapses into an army, until it breaks the.
When their lives were swept away by the vast ocean, they left a sigh in the world.
But when we look through the haze that hangs over it, we will find that behind some tragedies, what is entangled is not only those simple, loveless and unattainable love affairs?
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On November 18, 2005, Lee Yin-shin, the favorite youngest daughter of Lee Kin-hee, chairman of South Korea's Samsung Group, committed suicide in New York.
He was only 26 years old.
Li Yinxin's posthumous photo
Samsung is the largest multinational conglomerate in South Korea, and as a family business that has been passed down for three generations, Samsung Group has long been one of the world's top 500 companies.
Therefore, when the news of li yinxinxiang's death, which is a rich man, came, the whole world was in an uproar.
However, Li Yinxin's father let the media report to the outside world: "My daughter died in a car accident. ”
On the day of her daughter's funeral, Lee Anderson and his wife, Hong Luoxi, were not present.
Is it impossible to bear the pain of losing a daughter, or is it difficult to face the shame of shame? unknown.
In China, whether it is a famous family or an ordinary family, the youngest children in the family often enjoy exclusive preferential treatment, and the same is true for Li Yinxin, who was born in a Three-Star family in South Korea.
In 1979, when Lee Kin-hee's youngest daughter Lee Yin-xin was born, it was the time when Samsung Group's career was booming, so Lee Kin-hee has always regarded his beloved daughter as a lucky star.
Li Yinxin (second row far right) family portrait
As the saying goes, "A dragon gives birth to nine sons, each of which is different." As the head of the Samsung Group, Lee Kin Hee is the same, he is bound to cultivate a capable and worthy heir, and the first three sons and daughters are not worthy of expectations, successively in the Samsung Group, each has its own success, together to lead and promote the huge business empire of Samsung.
Li Jianxi, who has a daughter again, did not let the little girl Li Yinxin learn too many rules and participate in the internal management of the enterprise like her brothers and sisters, he just wanted her to grow up healthy and happy.
Li Yinxin's personality is innocent, lively and cheerful, and what she likes, her father does his best to satisfy her.
Therefore, Li Yinxin has been like a lark flying under the sunny sun from childhood to adulthood, free and carefree.
Li Yinxin
On the occasion of her 20-year-of-age ceremony, Lee gave Lee Yoon-hee a gift of $190 million in group stock, making lee one of the richest women in South Korea.
After graduating from Ewha Women's University in Seoul, South Korea, Lee earned a bachelor's degree in French and French literature, and after that, Li Yinxin did not go into the family business to give a job.
After all, as a little princess with a prominent family, her life is only responsible for maximizing happiness.
In South Korea, every girl is envious of her, Li Yinxin's family is rich, not to mention, the key is that her father spoiled her beyond measure, and many things are arranged for people to handle for her.
For wealth and status, happiness and happiness, there is no need to work hard, and for all those who have it, she no longer has to struggle like an ordinary person.
Li Yinxin (far right in the first row) family portrait
But Li Yinxin, who is in an over-protective and top-level luxury life, has gradually become confused and confused about life.
In addition, when she is sought after by the public, she also continues to encounter online violence.
At that time, she was obsessed with racing.
She tries to touch and meet the challenges of another dimension of life in the midst of fast and furious.
But she did not expect that this would make her life quiet and calm, and the waves crashed on the shore.
She fully appreciated the magnificent splash of the waves, and she was also wrapped up in the abyss.
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One day in 2003, Li Yinxin ran to the Seoul Circuit to vent her resentment of being attacked for no reason on the Internet.
In order to eliminate the block in her chest, she chose a difficult track.
The most dangerous part of this track is that it needs to go through a sharp turn at a 45-degree angle, and if it is not well controlled, it will hit the guardrail, and the consequences are unimaginable.
Li Yinxin, who has always been stubborn, misestimated his own technology, and as a result, repeated many times, he failed to achieve his wishes.
Li Yinxin, who was sitting in the car, was extremely depressed.
Then a tall boy came up to her and solemnly reminded her:
"You don't listen carefully to the navigation, you don't trust it from the bottom of your heart, so you don't always grasp the 0.5 second turn. This young lady, I am your word, either substitution or give your life to the navigator! ”
Hearing this, Li Yinxin, who has always been wayward, was not angry, but instead said with disgust: "Then you teach me." ”
As a result, the boy opened the car door, skillfully moved, and led her through this difficult track.
Li Yinxin, who got off the car, was like a deer crashing.
This throbbing does not come from a thrilling track, but from Zhao Wenyu.
Due to her father's strict protection, she did not have much contact with the outside world. And this is the first time in her 24 years of life that she has strongly felt a huge shock wave from the male world.
Li Yinxin (far right) and friends
After the race, the two went to coffee together.
Before leaving, Li Yinxin also said: "Thank you for your coffee, this should be the best coffee I have ever drunk in my life." And gave his mobile phone number to Zhao Wenyu, who had only met once.
She couldn't be sure if Zhao Wenyu would call her, so she was in a state of anticipation and anxiety all day.
That night, when Zhao Wenyu called Li Yinxin, the three-star princess was immediately happy and cheered.
Zhao Wenyu is handsome and extraordinary, and treats people politely, and in the process of communicating with him, Li Yinxin is like a spring breeze.
But Zhao Wenyu was only born in an ordinary family, completed an MBA by work-study, and later worked as an investment consultant at a foreign trade finance company in Seoul.
He is also a racing enthusiast, so he has more common language in his communication with Li Yinxin.
Li Yinxin (far left), Li Xuxian, and Li Fuzhen
Born in a rich and enemy chaebol family, Li Yinxin has always wanted to get the wind, ask for rain and rain, BMW fragrant cars, brocade and jade food, and has always been praised by the stars, never lacking in honor, the only fly in the ointment is that it seems to owe her a love that makes her feel excited and happy.
Therefore, in the later days, the two people came and went frequently, from secret feelings to clear hearts; they also quickly sublimated from the initial friendship to lovers.
Although the identities of the two are very different, in Li Yinxin's view, love is always greater than everything, she does not care what family, what job, what identity, she shielded out many unfavorable factors, automatically shrouded him with a round of love halo.
Although the two have been dating in a low profile, the Samsung little princess, whose every move is almost placed under the flash, has no love freedom like ordinary people.
In 2005, a dating photo of Lee Yoon-shin and Cho Moon-yu was exposed by South Korea's Women's Weekly.
The media with miraculous powers followed the vine and found out Zhao Wenyu's background. As a result, the princess of the Samsung Group actually went away with the news of falling in love with a poor boy, and caused a heated discussion in South Korea.
People are keen on the story of miss Qianjin falling in love with a poor student in ancient times, but in the eyes of contemporary people who are good at weighing the pros and cons, this is obviously not a love combination that conforms to the logic of practical interests.
When many viewers are relishing this "wrong door" drama, in Li Yinxin's home, it has caused an uproar.
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Li Yinxin's father, Li Jianxi, had been kept in the dark before, and when he knew that his little daughter, whom he regarded as a pearl in his hand, had secretly talked about a two-year relationship with a clerk with a mediocre family behind his back, he was furious.
The reason why Li Jianxi was angry was not only because of the huge difference between Zhao Wenyu and his daughter's class, but also because of the previous lessons of the eldest daughter.
Li Fuzhen
The eldest daughter, Li Fuzhen, has an MBA degree from MIT, with excellent temperament and extraordinary ability, but in the end she has a crush on a bodyguard Ren Youzai, who is from a humble origin and owes both moral integrity and ability, and marries the other party despite the strong opposition of the family.
As a result, after marriage, Ren Youzai not only did not learn any techniques and squandered excessively, but also became an alcoholic, and even abused Li Fuzhen when she was pregnant.
In 2014, Li Fuzhen finally couldn't bear it anymore and decided to appeal for divorce from him.
Unexpectedly, the rogue Ren Youzai actually opened his mouth and demanded a sky-high settlement of 1.2 trillion won (about 7.2 billion yuan).
Li Fuzhen and Ren Youzai wedding photos
Lee Fu-jin naturally refused, and after years of litigation, the amount of compensation was reduced from 1.2 trillion won to 14.1 billion won (83.7 million yuan), which ended the wretched marriage.
Li Jianxi, who was "bitten by a snake for ten years, was afraid of the well rope for ten years" will never let his young daughter repeat the same mistake.
Therefore, without his daughter's knowledge, Li Jianxi sent someone to find Zhao Wenyu and ask him to break up with his daughter.
Mr lee
The chips are a break-up fee of 1 billion won.
Although Zhao Wenyu was born in a cold door, he did not move in the face of the temptation of money, although he also loved Li Yinxin deeply, but he also soberly realized that the natural barrier between himself and Li Yinxin could not be crossed at all, and he could not go to the end with Li Yinxin.
At the same time, because Li Jianxi was still looking for someone to track and monitor Zhao Wenyu, he was wary of meeting with Li Yinxin again all day.
In the end, Zhao Wenyu, who was overwhelmed, went to the United States and severed ties with Li Yinxin.
But Li Yinxin, who had been intoxicated in love before, did not know all this, she did not know that her father and boyfriend had met, nor did she know that her boyfriend had gone abroad, but she could not contact Zhao Wenyu for several days, which made her anxious.
Until one day, Zhao Wenyu suddenly called Li Yinxin, and on the phone, he said the words indifferently: "You forgot me." ”
It dawned on her that it was her father who had done it.
On the one hand, her father's strong opposition, on the other hand, her love for her boyfriend is like the sea.
Standing on the wrong side of life and feelings, where to go? Li Yinxin thought of the marriage of the two sisters.
The eldest sister Li Fuzhen met someone unladylike, and the true feelings were wrongly paid until the tragic end.
In 2000, the second sister, Lee Su-hyun, married Kim Jae-yeol, the second son of Kim Byung-wan, former president of South Korea's East Asia Daily, and the two had four children after marriage.
Kim Jae-yeol Lee Su-hyun and his wife
Although she saw the endgame of her life caused by the unequal door from her eldest sister, Li Yinxin did not think that the unfortunate marriage encountered by the eldest sister would be reproduced to herself. She also did not want to be like her second sister, as a pawn at the mercy of her father, to become a victim of the family's interests.
The huge resistance from the outside world and family, instead of making her stop the loss in time, made her fall deeper and deeper, and she could not stop.
She always believed in Zhao Wenyu, trusted her intuition, and believed that he was the one who could protect her for the rest of her life.
Therefore, Li Yinxin was not willing to break off relations with Zhao Wenyu in this way and did not see him for the rest of his life. Because her feelings for him have long been overwhelmed.
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Early the next morning after receiving Zhao Wenyu's call, Li Yinxin bought a plane ticket, flew to the United States, and used all her connections to start looking for Zhao Wenyu. Finally, he was found in an apartment.
Li Yinxin's first words when she saw Zhao Wenyu were:
"I'm willing to give up everything I have now, just be with you."
Zhao Wenyu looked at Li Yinxin's pained and tearful appearance, and was deeply moved by Li Yinxin's deep love for him, but he could not bear to let his beloved woman bet for herself and abandon everything.
But he didn't know that when a woman decided to go to the soup for love, she could ignore anything else.
Li Yinxin (the far right in the second row) attends the wedding of her sister Li Fuzhen
Li Yinxin first ran back to China and begged her father to let her study in the United States. Li Jianxi agreed under the influence of his daughter, but the only requirement was that Li Yinxin have to accept the blind date arranged by the family after returning to China.
In order to leave, Li Yinxin naturally accepted her father's request. In fact, she did this only as a strategy to slow down the army, in addition to wanting to go to the United States to accompany Zhao Wenyu, she also tried to hide her family's flash marriage.
When she excitedly shared the idea of flash marriage with Zhao Wenyu, she was rejected by Zhao Wenyu.
For Li Yinxin, cutting first and playing later, turning the wood into a boat is the best way for her to live with Zhao Wenyu forever, but in the eyes of the other party, it is nothing less than absurd and unwise.
Her father's refusal, her boyfriend's refusal, coupled with the loneliness and sorrow in a foreign country, and endless thoughts, made Li Yinxin live a very depressed life every day, unable to sleep all night, and wash her face with tears all day. She ended up going to the hospital and was diagnosed with depression.
Li Yinxin social platform content
However, the drugs used could not be immediately effective, not to mention that Li Yinxin, who was already in a state of severe depression at the time, had gradually lost the will to survive.
Once she seemed to be struggling on the vast sea, the waves were rough, the reefs were lined up, and she struggled to cross until she exhausted the last bit of strength... One night, she saw people coming and going on the street, and the neon was shining, but she suddenly felt that in this vast human world, she had no love.
People think she owns the whole world, but in reality, what she craves the most will never be available.
Suddenly one day, Zhao Wenyu took the initiative to come to the apartment to find Li Yinxin.
Li Yinxin thought he finally wanted to marry himself.
But he said: "I will not register for marriage without permission, you have to take good care of yourself." ”
Leave when you're done.
That night, Li Yinxin, who was completely in despair, could not sleep peacefully.
At three o'clock in the morning, she changed into her favorite chinese clothes, then cut the unimpeded white telephone line and hanged herself.
The Times reported on Li Yinxin's self-hanging
Before committing suicide, she wrote this sentence on the racing helmet that Zhao Wenyu once used:
"Wen Yu, thank you! From now on, you don't have to worry anymore, you're free! ”
Her life was forever fixed at the age of 26.
She left a confession in her suicide note:
"Although love makes people despair, I have no regrets, and what killed me is precisely the most beautiful and charming thing in this world." 」
Some people say that time will melt all the sharpness.
But I suppose, not all the pain.
Some of the pain will drift away with time, and some will be buried in the barren hills of time, year after year, and the spring breeze will blow again.
For Li Yinxin, the pain that belongs to her is the latter.
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But from Li Yinxin's suicide incident, what we can see is not only love and not, but many musts in the world; it is not just the must of the rich, but the universal inability of human nature.
The Buddhist family has clouds, and people have seven sufferings, birth, old age, illness, death, resentment, love and separation, and cannot be sought.
General de Gaulle
For example, the French president, General de Gaulle, was the founder of the French Fifth Republic and a great father.
In January 1928, when Madame de Gaulle was about to give birth, she unfortunately suffered a car accident and was rescued by doctors in time.
Soon, daughter Anna was born. Unfortunately, due to Madame de Gaulle taking a large number of drugs during the treatment, little Anna was born as a congenitally mentally handicapped child.
When World War II broke out, de Gaulle went into exile and fought hundreds of battles. But he kept Anna with him.
After the end of World War II, de Gaulle was in the spotlight for his outstanding performance during the war, and the news media wanted to take pictures of de Gaulle's family or dig up some secret anecdotes.
General de Gaulle's family played in the courtyard
In order to protect Anna, he did everything he could to avoid letting Anna appear in the camera or in the newspaper. As a father, he would never allow anyone to inflict possible harm on his daughter.
De Gaulle once said: "As long as Anna can be as happy as any other child, we are willing to give up everything, health, property, promotion and future, everything." ”
But on Anna's 20th birthday, she was unfortunately killed by hepatitis.
On 9 November 1970, General de Gaulle died suddenly of a heart attack, and his will read:
"My grave must be where my daughter Anna is buried. The tombstone reads only: Charles de Gaulle. ”
De Gaulle's tombstone in Colombe Cemetery
Before he died, he once expressed his heart: Although I am a president, I have not had a happy day.
In 2019, Cai Lei, former vice president of JD.com and a representative of domestic finance and taxation circles and innovation and entrepreneurship, was diagnosed with the rare disease ALS (frostbite).
Cai Lei
Frostbite, a motor neurone disease, is known as one of the "Five Terminal Diseases of Mankind". There is no cure so far, and in general, patients will gradually lose their ability to act within 2 to 5 years and will reach the end of their lives in respiratory failure.
But just over 40 years old, he had to leave the field halfway, which made Cai Lei, who has always refused to accept defeat, unwilling.
He wanted to do something for the group of frostbite and to overcome the disease, so he established the world's largest single database of private volume, and he also established a fund of hundreds of millions of yuan to jointly promote the research and development of six or seven drug pipelines and establish a large-scale animal experiment base.
He suffered from illness, but like Don Quixote, he fought against the "windmill" of stubborn disease, even though he was struggling, his hopes were slim.
Cai Lei drank water with the help of his assistant
Today, Cai Lei has made a will, "He has clearly planned the protection of each relative, and even wrote a "guide", including teaching his son how to fall in love when he grows up." ”
"He wanted to hug his son, but now, his strength doesn't allow it."
In fact, this midfield battle has already won or lost.
Some people have decided the end of their lives, but some are still struggling to find answers.
After studying late the other day, in the darkness at the end of the school hallway, I saw a thin and familiar figure standing by the window, his shoulders seemingly trembling.
I walked over and found that it was a boy from another class that I had taught, a boy who usually looked like an angel in my eyes, and his eyes were full of tears at the moment he raised his head.
"What happened?" Can you talk to the teacher? ”
"Teacher, my mom and dad are divorced, and I just want them to be together forever."
"Mom and Dad are divorced, but they still love you."
"Teacher, this is different, I just want a complete home, just like other students."
However, I want to tell him that as human beings, we can have the same happiness, and we may eventually lose the same happiness.
Because there are two major dilemmas that people always have to face, one is that they have not gained, and the other is that they have lost.
Like Li Yinxin, who was born in the land of wealth and nobility, she only drew from the love of an ordinary person;
Like the powerful General de Gaulle, he hoped that his beloved daughter would be as healthy as a normal child, and would not have to bear the sadness of "a white-haired man sending a black-haired man";
Like Cai Lei, who has made a lot of achievements in his career, he is eager to overcome the terminal illness as soon as possible, to spend more time with his wife and children, and to see the sunshine of the world for a few more years;
Like that 17-year-old boy, I just want Mom and Dad to be together forever.
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Nobel prize winner Eugene O'Neill once used this line to describe the fatalism and tragedy of life in the drama work "Brown the Great God":
"We are born broken, and we use our lives to mend."
Whether it is a rich or nobleman, or a common man, it seems that they must try to find the meaning of living in the midst of a thousand holes.
Therefore, on the earth of life, repair the wet feathers, repair the collapsed house, repair the soul of the ten thousand arrows piercing the heart, let her fly over the mountains and lakes, fly over the moonlight and time in the thorns of fate, as if she could always sing and sing like this... Text/Qingqing, Chen Chi