Author | Fan Deng Reading · Flower orange
Anchor | Fan Deng Reading · Smell delight
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Good evening to all book lovers, welcome to the reading column "Encounter" produced by Fan Deng Reading.
Today, I would like to share with you a wonderful novel - Yu Hua's "Xu Sanguan Selling Blood".
It depicts life in tribulation with broad warmth, and shows people's desire to survive in the face of bad luck with a fierce story.
Life can be low to dust, but the heart can live in heaven.
Some people say that after reading Yu Hua's novel, I feel that what flows in his bones is not blood, but ice ballast.
Yu Hua, a doctor by birth, has written about 29 people "dying" in 8 novels, but he has "benevolently" treated a character and arranged a full life for him.
He is Xu Sanguan in "Xu Sanguan Selling Blood".
In the book, In order to survive, Xu Sanguan sold blood a total of 11 times.
He has carried the ordinary sufferings that the world must endure, and he has also tasted the strange shame and humiliation that ordinary people cannot bear, and he has trekked hard in the thorny and difficult daily life.
Feng Lun said: "Life is in the world, difficulty is the norm, if you want to survive, you have to be able to bear it." ”
Xu Sanguan came all the way, bitter more than sweet, but he gritted his teeth and carried it with blood, and he forced the mud into a smooth road.
The tougher a person's soul is, the more it can be favored by fate.
The greatest ability of adults is to make themselves able to bear things.
Those who carry things can cross the barriers in their hearts
The biggest pain in the first half of Xu Sanguan's life was that his favorite son, Yile, was not his own.
He is honest and dutiful, and only believes in his wife Xu Yulan.
It wasn't until Xu Yulan cried and said an unbearable past that Xu Sanguan woke up like a dream: it turned out that he had actually become a "turtle" and had raised a son for others for 9 years...
Xu Sanguan was angry and sad, and asked Yile to go to find his biological father, He Xiaoyong, but He Xiaoyong refused to recognize Yile.
After Yile returned, Xu Sanguan became more depressed.
He loves Yile, but he has to pretend not to love, because as if he is friendly to Yile, he pours salt on the humiliating wound of his "turtle", which makes his heart miserable every day.
Xu Sanguan began to deliberately be biased, taking his relatives to the restaurant to eat a piece of 71 bowl of noodles, and only buying 50 cents of baked sweet potatoes for Yile.
But turning around, Xu Sanguan saw that Yile was sad and sad, and immediately took him to the same restaurant to eat the same noodles.
Later, He Xiaoyong had an accident and needed to kiss his son to "call the soul".
Xu Sanguan desperately tried to stop at first, but he was worried about not saving his father's conscience, and Yile did not do a good job, and even coaxed him to hurry up.
Yi Le was reluctant to shout until Xu Sanguan came and cried.
The "Calling Soul" did not save He Xiaoyong, but it saved Xu Sanguan.
He finally figured it out: even if he wasn't his son, he could continue to love Yile.
In the Secret History of Filial Piety, Nurhaci says:
"There are many kinds of wars, and battles on the battlefield are certainly difficult to fight; but the battles in people's hearts are even more difficult to fight."
In the heart of every adult, there was once a shura field.
In the face of betrayal, you will be angry, you will be afraid when you are ridiculed, you will be wronged when misunderstood, and you will be sad when you are ignored.
People who can carry things will try to reconcile their hearts with reality, and will still work hard to live after recognizing the cruelty of the truth.
The person who carries the burden can catch the difficulties of the family
Xu Sanguan's home was once in trouble because of Yile's impulses.
Yi Le smashed the head of Fang Blacksmith's son with a stone, and the other party luckily survived, but this medical expense was not a small amount for Xu Sanguan and his wife, who were tight on the other side.
Considering that Yile still had a biological father, he instigated Xu Yulan to go to He Xiaoyong for money.
But He Xiaoyong not only refused to pay, but also humiliated Xu Yulan.
The blacksmith did not wait for the medical expenses, so he brought someone to raid the house.
Xu Sanguan saw that his home, which had taken a whole decade to form, was instantly left with four walls, and he couldn't help but feel sad and cry.
But he still had three sons to raise, and he couldn't let the children eat without a table.
So he went to sell the blood for the second time in his life, and gave all the thirty-five yuan of blood to the carpenter.
When Xu Yulan knew how Xu Sanguan had raised money, she couldn't help but cry bitterly.
Xu Sanguan's responsibility made him incompetent in the face of difficulties and became omnipotent.
But the Xu family's disaster did not end there.
During the special period, Xu Yulan was slandered and destroyed mentally and physically.
The sons were implicated and did not even dare to speak to her.
Xu Sanguan also tasted the white eyes, but he still struggled to defend Xu Yulan, and secretly gave her braised meat under the white rice.
In order to let his sons understand Xu Yulan, he even turned over his most embarrassing past and told them about it.
He propped up his equally broken wings, just to shield Xu Yulan from the wind and rain in the center of the whirlpool.
Montegni said:
"The hassle of managing a family is no less than governing a country."
Home, a simple single word, but to experience a lot of disturbances, inevitable wind and rain.
When the storm strikes, if someone can block the wind outside and catch the difficulty of catching the family, a home is not easy to collapse.
On the contrary, the years are quiet and the father is kind and filial, and the storms and waves are scattered, and such a family will eventually be scattered in the tribulations.
For those who can carry things, suffering will only make him and his family hug each other more tightly and warm each other.
He who carries things can carry the burden of life
In Xu Sanguan's simple values, even if life is not easy, we must let our wives and children live a decent life.
The silk factory where Xu Sanguan works will issue a pair of white gloves woven every month, but he only changes them once every three years.
Although the gloves were in tatters, he still had to save the new one and go home to Give It to Xu Yulan.
Xu Yulan will knit sweaters for herself and her son with the removed glove thread, which makes them feel dignified.
But life is always one level after another, and in the blink of an eye, the years of disaster and famine have come.
There was only polenta at home, but the child was still growing up, and his stomach was grumbling with hunger.
Xu Sanguan thought about it again and again, and went to the hospital again. This was the fourth time he had sold blood, and with the money from the sale of blood, he took his family down to the restaurant.
Later, as the children grew older, Xu Sanguan had more things to worry about.
After graduating from the second son's Erle Middle School, he responded to the call of the state to support rural construction. Once, the captain of the production team of Erle came into town to come to their house for dinner.
At that time, the Xu family only had two yuan left, but if the captain was not well entertained, Erle's life would definitely be difficult.
Thinking of this, Xu Sanguan skillfully poured seven bowls of water into his stomach, did not say a word, and went to sell blood again.
According to hospital regulations, blood can only be sold once every three months. But Xu Sanguan had only arrived a month ago, and the bloody head scolded him for asking for money or death, but he was just silent.
After arriving home, Xu Yulan used the money from the blood sale to buy a table of fish, meat, tobacco and wine, and the captain was very happy, and did not pull Xu Sanguan as a companion.
Xu Sanguan had just sold blood and was weak, and he saw that his blood friend was dying because of cerebral hemorrhage, and he did not dare to drink. But in order to make the captain happy, he still poured down one cup after another until he was drunk and unconscious.
Xu Sanguan is not a capable man, and in the face of life, he is often helpless.
The way he coped was very primitive, that is, with his flesh and blood body, he wandered again and again on the verge of losing his life.
But in any case, he tried to make his wife and children live a decent life, so that they did not lose hope in life when they were hungry and cold.
In front of life, we have all been such clowns, using various ugly gestures to cope with the difficulties of life.
Some people were overwhelmed and withdrew; some people fought back, and the scenery counterattacked.
But most of the time, like Xu Sanguan, we clumsily see tricks and tricks at life until life creeps under our feet.
As Barkin said:
"I, like all the rest, live in this world to conquer life."
No one in this world has an easy life.
The greatest decency of adults is to take the road ahead and protect the well-being of their families.
We shoulder the burden of life in order to make it easy for the people we love to move forward.
Write at the end
Yu Hua once said:
"Among the young generation in China, there are many excellent people, but there are very few people who can bear things."
However, he gave the quality of "being able to carry things" to Xu Sanguan, who was not excellent in his pen.
This may be a hidden meaning: a person can not be excellent, but can not bear things.
After all, you and I live in this world, who is not stumbling, who has not been scaled all over the body?
In the adult world, there is no easy word.
In the face of the test of fate, we have no escape, we can only do our best to carry.
May you and I both have the luck not to be bothered by troubles, and if not, please load up on the talent of carrying things.
At the end, we will finally see the clouds disappear and the rain pass over the sky.
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Author | Flower orange
Column Director | Come slowly
Typography | Zheng to the north
Image | The picture of this article comes from the official stills of "Xu Sanguan", which was invaded and deleted
Music | Three inches of paradise