"Home and love are always false propositions, and I only hope you will love me again."
Every giving personality has traces to follow, and the shadow from the childhood lack of love in the original family not only projects Fassbinder's own experience, but also reflects the current situation of most people.
For every sensitive and lacking paying personality group, the film only unveils the tip of the iceberg, and reality is the most cruel horror.
"I Only Hope You Love Me" is a film about the male protagonist of the paying personality, who longs for love, but does not get a little charity when he pays. In the end, the story of the man being tortured and going astray.
And this film is like showing the scars naked in front of the public, it is so real and direct to the heart.
There is no reciprocal love, only a lonely heart and a cold soul
Pete, who lacked love as a child, always wanted to prove himself to his parents, and the first thing he had to do after work was to build a house for his parents.
Because of Pete's deeds, the neighbors are praising him as a filial child: look at how filial he is, (in his heart: he seems to be worthless except filial piety)
In addition to the inconsistencies in the neighbors, Pete's parents are the same, he hates this so-called son, and even feels that Pete's behavior is false, in their eyes Pete's filial piety is far less than a stranger's praise,
When love doesn't receive feedback, it seems to lay the groundwork for Pete's tragic life.
Every love sinks into the sea, and the indifference of his family also leads Pitt to go to the big city of Munich, and because of Pete's kindness, he also meets his current wife Erica.
A loveless person is clumsy when it comes to starting a new family, and he will give all his love
In order to let his wife live a stable life, Pete went astray of taking out loans to buy a house, and unconsciously, Pete became a slave to money.
As when she was a child, Pete expressed her love by sending a large bouquet of flowers, romantic to death, but what the wife did not expect was that the happier she was now, the more miserable her husband would be.
In the life of the big city, the little people have to fill the gaps in their lives with money, and a loan is filled countless times, just like a bottomless pit, how can not be compounded.
The cruelty of reality forces Bee Pitt down the path of crime, and the moment he picks up the phone and frantically smashes it at the bar owner, the kind Pete who wants to live hard can't go back.
In the film, the scene of the most frightening is that Pete smashed the bar owner to death, but it was his father who fell to the ground.
The male protagonist Pete is like a shadow of Fassbinder, his childhood has been living in the dark, when pete's definition of love is to bring others a bouquet of colorful flowers when they meet.
But when her mother found out, she did not understand what her son had done, but instead scolded him as a bad boy who could only steal things, and her mother beat him badly, while her father treated him coldly.
Young Pete still can't understand the meaning of stealing, but wonders that I gave my mother love in exchange for her mother's anger, while her father, whom she respected most, ignored herself.
And he killed the boss who looked like his father, in fact, he was replacing his childhood self, in fact, he killed the imaginary father, in Pete's heart, he longed for the love of his parents, and he was more eager to get the attention of his father.
He had always wanted to prove himself to his father, but after his mother's beating, his father's disregard also planted the seeds of hatred in his young age, and he was afraid that he was a useless waste in his father's eyes, but his father's indifference accelerated the malice in his heart.
When a person does not feel love at all, then his heart will be filled with hatred.
Pete is a wounded child, and in this family he thinks he can get love if he gives, but what he doesn't know is that his parents won't love because they never got love either.
Young children can only get love in other ways, and malice becomes the source of Pitt's survival. If a person suppresses it for too long and too long, the moment it erupts will burn out.
In Fassbinder's work, love is not redemption, but a glorified exploitation between people, both sides oppress each other with love, And Pete's love is too humble, so low that it is low to the dust, and the dwarf disappears.
It is a way of begging in exchange for a little love from parents, wives, and friends, but in exchange for it is always cold, endless indifference. I think in the long lonely wait, people will go crazy, Pete finally failed to change himself, a lifetime of living in the shadow of his parents, became a paranoid, indifferent self.
"I just want you to love me", what a sentimental statement. It is ridiculous that such a small request cannot be done for Pete's parents, who gave Pete life, but could not give even a shred of love to their children.
Living under such a deformed family, Pete eventually lived a nasty life----- became his parents.
How pathetic it is to love incompetence, to love but not to, to be loved but not to be loved, to constantly suppress oneself so that others can see themselves, to try to exist, and to be crushed in a loveless world after all.
In the end, Pete, who was imprisoned by The Bell, did not get anyone's attention, and thinking back on that line still makes me feel suffocated: "In the two weeks he built a house for his parents, his parents loved him for two weeks", just these two weeks, but enough to heal Pete's life.
Love is not a trade, love for love can not be exchanged, an exploitative parent shapes a generous child, and in the end he does not know what love is and what is self.
"It is unrealistic to maintain illusory love only by ignorance, I think instead of extravagantly courting, it is better to love yourself, there is only one me in this world, when others can't give love, you can boldly love yourself." 」
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