Her life became a prosperous punishment.
On July 17, 1964, Lin Dai died.
He was only 30 years old.
She is a four-time Asian film queen, the dream lover of countless fans, but she died early by committing suicide.
The way to die is absurd and sad.
That day, she was scolded on the set and desperate to return home.
After returning home, he had a grudge with her husband Long Ropexun.
All kinds of emotions were overwhelming, she couldn't control herself and began to hysterical.
Dragon Rope threw away.
The children on the side cried.
She scolded the babysitter for taking the baby away.
After that, the home was empty.
She sat and thought of all the things and felt like leaving.
She walked to the kitchen and turned on the gas.
Then he collapsed on the bed, smelled of gas, and poured a bottle of sleeping pills into his mouth.
She didn't really want to die.
She just hopes that death will arouse everyone's attention again.
With her last consciousness, she wrote a suicide note, the content of which turned out to be survival:
"If you really want to save me, please don't send me to a public hospital, because then all the newspapers in Hong Kong will be published like a joke!" Only one personal doctor can be found, thank you. ”
Her tone was like a very coquettish child.
It's just that the means of coquettishness are to threaten life.
But what she didn't expect was that after Long Rope Hoon returned home, she had lost her breath.
Her life stayed at the brightest 30 years old.
In 1962, she just won the fourth "Asian Film Queen" trophy and successfully won the throne.
In 1963, she had just given birth to her son.
In 1964, she said goodbye to the world in a poignant way.
Lin Dai's personality is divided.
In the eyes of outsiders, she is unseen and arrogant.
His father, Cheng Siyuan, is a celebrity in political circles.
She is a little princess, she has lived a luxurious life since she was a child, she has a car to travel in and out, she studies in a prestigious school, and she interacts with dignitaries.
She is handsome and has a sweet mouth, and has been favored by adults, especially official wives, since she was a child.
They often took the young Lin Dai to various balls, and they were used to seeing all kinds of colors, and Lin Dai's personality became more and more arrogant.
Cheng Siyuan later mentioned Lin Dai's personality in his memoirs: "Standing tall in it, very proud... From an early age, he developed a spirit of 'seeing everything'. ”
Too much self is her most prominent personality symbol.
However, Lin Dai's opposite is empty and loveless.
Since she was born, her father has traveled to Europe to study.
Since childhood, although she has seen all the luxury, she has never received her father's love.
After returning from Europe, his father disliked his mother's thinking and made a new girlfriend abroad, so he hurriedly divorced again.
Lin Dai is young, but has already experienced two forced separations.
Before she could learn what "father" was, she first learned what "separation" and "brokenness" meant.
After her parents divorced, Lin Dai's material life did not change much.
The house is still the same house, and my father also pays living expenses on time every month, which is enough to maintain the previous standard of living.
But her heart was broken.
Later in life, she repeatedly tried to get close to her father, but the two inevitably grew further and further apart.
She was empty.
Insecurity.
Arrogance is nothing more than her cover color.
In 1958, Lin Dai went to study in the United States and was interviewed by "Voice of America".
Lin Dai's beauty shocked the world.
The New York Times even commented: "One Lindy is worth a handful of Marilyn Monroe." ”
At that time, everyone said that Lin Dai was the oriental Marilyn Monroe.
But her career did not go smoothly from the beginning.
At that time, she had an enlarged photo, which was hung at the door of the photo studio and was glanced at by Yuan Yangan, the owner of Great Wall Film Company.
She got the opportunity to audition and became an actor under Great Wall Pictures.
But because of his arrogance, he did not act as the protagonist, so he never made a play after entering the Great Wall movie.
It was not until 1952, under the recommendation of her predecessor Yan Jun, that she switched to Yonghua Film Company, and her career saw a turnaround.
"Cuicui" is Lin Dai's debut novel.
Yan Jun's guidance gave her a great sense of security.
She interprets the spirituality of Emerald very relaxed.
At that time, although her acting skills were jerky, she already had a personal style.
Pictured: "Cuicui" stills
What really brought Lin Dai onto the international stage was "Golden Lotus".
She is a very gifted person.
Even director Li Hanxiang said: "The first time I saw Lin Dai, I knew that she would be a big man in the entertainment industry in the future." ”
So, she won the role of the female one of "Golden Lotus".
Perfect script + big name director + superb actors, let this work rush out of China and go to the world.
And Lin Dai also won her first "Asian Film Queen" trophy with this work.
Lin Dai's award was not only a personal honor, but also brought vitality to the plight of the Chinese film industry at that time.
After that, Lin Dai's career was helped.
She won the "Asian Film Queen" 4 times in a row, becoming a "film miracle" at that time and an irreproducible international superstar.
At only 27 years old, she has already reaped a double harvest in love and career, and has lived the most successful life model.
However, the heights are cold.
Fame gave her a sense of accomplishment, but it also sent her into panic.
She is wary of every up-and-coming star, especially actresses who may replace her.
She is extremely aggressive, like a hedgehog, tightly guarding her throne.
But she is too arrogant to know how to be smooth in the world.
She couldn't even hide her jealousy and was always openly cynical.
As a result, she became a marginal person in the entertainment industry.
As they get older, they are gradually replaced by those who rise up.
This turnover filled her heart with a sense of abandonment.
Just as her father had abandoned her.
"Sense of abandonment" is the most important term throughout Lin Dai's life.
From an early age, she felt like an outcast.
When I grew up, standing on top of thousands of people, the first word that came to mind subconsciously was still "loss".
This mindset makes it difficult for her to manage any long-term relationship.
In Lin Dai's short life, she has had scandals with many people, but she has only admitted two paragraphs.
The first paragraph is with the initiator Yan Jun.
Yan Jun is 17 years older than Lin Dai.
For Lin Dai, who has just debuted, he has a fatal attraction, whether it is social status or talent.
And most importantly, like "father".
Before Yan Jun and Lin Dai fell in love, they were already a screen couple with popular actress Li Lihua.
But Yan Jun fell in love with Lin Dai at first sight, who was young and beautiful, and took the opportunity to "make her popular" and quietly entered her world.
In the end, the two fell in love without accident.
Photo: Yan Jun & Lin Dai
However, when love shines into reality, the magic of passion gradually fades.
Yan Jun and Lin Dai are not people from the same world.
Yan Jun has been in the world for many years, and there is no romance for a long time, and even in Lin Dai's opinion, he is very philistine and selfish.
And Lin Dai's extravagance and vexatious behavior have become the peak of frequent quarrels between the two.
After an argument, Lin Dai collapsed.
A sense of abandonment flooded my mind.
She decided to take the lead and broke up with Yan Jun.
At that time, the duo dominated the entertainment industry, and their careers were golden opportunities.
But Lin Dai didn't care, she only knew that she must not let Yan Jun abandon her first.
Photo: Yan Jun & Li Lihua
A few years later, Yan Jun and Li Lihua married together.
The news of their marriage reached Lin Dai's ears, and Lin Dai reacted violently.
At that time, her career began to decline and she was in a window of emptiness.
She firmly believes that she has lost after all.
In her eyes, feelings are more like a competition.
She left, not because she didn't love, but because she didn't want to lose.
Even after breaking up with Yan Jun, she still pays attention to his news.
She wanted to have a better life than him.
Her life has also been subject to the psychological trap of "winning over Yan Jun".
Later, at the suggestion of her father, she left the United States to study.
At this time, she meets Dragon Rope Hoon.
Long Rope Hoon is a celebrity, and his father is Long Yun, the leader of the Dian warlords.
When he was in the United States, Long Rope Hoon attended the same school as Lin Dai.
The same Chinese identity made the relationship between the two quickly warm.
Long Rope is talented, famous in Chinese circles, and very romantic, very good at making Lin Dai happy.
Shortly after returning from the United States, the two flashed marriage.
Lin Dai held a winning mentality and entered marriage.
But she did not have the ability to run a marriage.
After marriage, Long Ropexun's son's personality was gradually exposed, he was keen on entertainment, frivolous and arrogant, and amorous.
But Lin Dai only felt that there was no way back.
Even if the marriage is unhappy, she cannot lose.
In the eyes of the outside world, they are talented girls, and they are only envious of mandarin ducks and ducks.
Therefore, Lin Dai constantly spurred Long Xianxun to be motivated, and even asked him to cooperate with her and act in love drama in front of people.
But closing the door, the two were relatively speechless.
When Lin Dai was pregnant, the relationship between the two had actually reached a freezing point.
But they all thought that children could transform the family.
Unexpectedly, after the arrival of the child, the relationship between the two was even worse.
Lin Dai's body is not as good as before, and she can no longer film as intensely as before, coupled with her image of being married and having children, she has lost many fans.
The company also took another new person and left her hanging.
For Lin Dai, career is the biggest fulcrum of life.
After losing her career support, Lin Dai became more sensitive.
She argues with Ryu Rope-hoon all day, questioning his every move and doubting his relationship with every member of the opposite sex.
The fierce collision made Long Rope Hoon exhausted.
He began to stay up at night.
In the end, the two spoke out about the divorce.
That day was when Lin Dai committed suicide for the last time.
Lin Dai had attempted suicide twice before her last suicide.
The first time was at the beginning of his debut.
At that time, she signed a contract not long ago, because of her high spirit, she did not shoot if she was not the protagonist, so she became a marginal person in the company.
She had nothing to do all day long, and was also written as a "paper star" by newspapers and magazines, mocking her for only standing and laughing, and not acting at all.
Lin Dai, who was depressed, impulsively swallowed half a bottle of sleeping pills.
Fortunately, she was discovered by her mother in time, sent to the hospital for gastric lavage, and also recovered her life.
Later, Yan Jun came to visit her and angrily denounced her as "the stupidest person in the world." ”
She scolded and beat her.
Yan Jun couldn't watch his sweetheart suffer so much, so he promised to make her popular.
At that time, Yan Jun's contract with Great Wall Pictures had expired.
He wants to take Lin Dai to Yonghua Film and let Lin Dai complete the dream of the heroine.
When he arrived in Yonghua, Yan Jun used his fame to get the shooting opportunity of "Wushan Meng".
Lin Dai was originally the heroine.
But later, the producer insisted on letting Li Lihua sit upright, and Yan Jun had no choice but to compromise.
After Lin Dai learned about it, she cried and made a fuss, angrily calling Yan Jun a liar.
Yan Jun was beaten and scolded, and only left for a while, and Lin Dai swallowed medicine to commit suicide.
Her suicidal behavior was all sloppy.
She is like a child who wants sugar, throwing and rolling, and even hurting herself in order to achieve her goal.
And this purpose is not to be abandoned.
However, she did not expect that the effectiveness of "wolf is coming" is effective.
So for Yan Jun.
The same is true for Dragon Rope Hoon.
But unfortunately, Yan Jun still had a chance to escape.
Dragon Rope Hoon is gone.
Lin Dai's death had a great influence.
For all walks of life, Lin Dai is an irreproducible treasure of an era.
Run Run Shaw, who has been in the film industry for many years, couldn't help but choke up when he heard the news of Lin Dai's death: "A generation of talented actresses like Miss Lin, she ended her life like this." It's a shame—it's a shame—"
Yishu even wrote Lin Dai into "He is Lonelier Than Fireworks", which has a dialogue that accurately portrays Lin Dai's heart.
"Did she kill herself?"
"No," he said, "absolutely not." ”
"Then she died of a broken heart."
Lin Dai's death must be due to heartbreak.
She was heartbroken by being abandoned by her husband, her career, her father, and the world.
However, she did not know that it was herself who abandoned her first.
She regarded herself as a mustard, no matter how much she achieved and loved, she could not fill the panic in her heart.
But her wish came true.
Lin Dai threatened with death, hoping to make Long Ropexun loyal and protective for the rest of his life.
After Lin Dai's death, Long Rope Hoon did it.
He is controversial and accused, enduring both external pressure and self-condemnation.
He sealed off Lin Dai's room and did not allow anyone to enter.
After that, he never married and died alone.
Pictured: Lindai's room
In 2007, Long Rope passed away.
After he left, Lin Dai's room was finally opened.
After their daughter Feng Baobao entered, she covered her face and sobbed: "It's still the same old way..."
It turned out that over the years, Long Rope Hoon had been taking good care of this room, trying to keep it as it was before Lin Dai died.
He really loves Lindey.
But they were all too young back then, and before they could learn to cherish it, Lin Dai ended himself with death and ended Long Xianxun's happiness.
They could have been together until old age.
However, the hollowness in Lin Dai's heart did not allow it.
After all, she is too afraid, afraid of the evaluation of others, afraid of being abandoned, even if the glory is added, she cannot overcome the mentality of being low to dust.
Her life became a prosperous punishment.
To oneself is the delay of internal and external suffering.
To the world, it is a temporary regret.
Yu loved her deeply, it was a sigh that would not be extinguished for a lifetime.