【White Night Talk】On the night of Dota winning gold, I reconciled with the memories of the past

In the late evening of October 2, Beijing time, the Dota final of the 19th Asian Games e-sports event in Hangzhou ended at the Hangzhou E-sports Center, and the Chinese team defeated the Mongolian team 2-1 and won the Dota event championship of this Asian Games, winning the 147th gold for the Chinese team of the Asian Games.

Almost a year after the end of the 2022 Dota 2 International Tournament (Ti11), I feel that the world is fading.

The picture of life gradually resembles an overexposed photo, with contours, but not clear. I can't have any kind of experience and expectation of Dota 2: I don't watch games, I don't consume, and I occasionally go online in the middle of the night.

Last year, too, around this time, I wrote Maybe Come Back in a White Night Talk. One veteran after another has withdrawn from the ring, maybe they will come back, but no one can make very specific expectations. Maybe, too, is just one possibility.

This situation is even gradually spreading to other games. Maybe it's the age that Dazuo bought a basket, but every time you want to do it, but it tastes like chewing wax, just think about it.

This is probably what everyone often calls PTSD.

Recently, the situation with this has improved. After I entered the PTCG, I diligently got up every day and went to the dojo, where there were many good friends who could meet, and everyone played the same game together, fought and discussed until late at night. I haven't started the game I've been playing for almost fifteen years for months.

It's a happy day, just like me when I was in college when I was distracted playing DOTA — until a long-dormant group exploded into the Asian Games Dota project discussion.

In the list of players who played, several familiar faces were listed. This time, their ID is no longer those fancy characters, but boxy kanji, the real name of their Chinese.

It's them, what are they doing this year?

Ame retired and started a live broadcast, talking about love, youth and coldness retreated a little on his face; Maybe opted to come back in her last DPC season and I never imagined that the day of "Maybe Come Back" would come again, and, so soon.

Some small fires, once rekindled, are difficult to simply extinguish. It's an Asia-wide race, but I think we really need a win.

Before the start of the fight, all the brothers who understand passionately opened the microphone and expressed their opinions. As a seeded team, after defeating Malaysia with Mo Yan in the semifinals, it can basically be considered that they have won the gold medal. After all, several other teams didn't. There are also terriers, "Beware of Mongolian orders!" ”

Some people also raised concerns, hearing that the Mongolian team was an integrated team that trained in the Southeast Asian DPC A League despite high delays, and gave up the Ti pre-selection for the Asian Games, which was completely prepared.

"I'm afraid that I didn't take off the gravity suit and directly open the tenfold realm king fist mode offline."

However, it is more of a light joke. After winning Malay, many people opened champagne in advance. But no one expected that a word would become a saying. The final crushing game that I thought before the game turned out to be a battle.

It's all terrifyingly familiar.

In the short BO3 match, the disadvantage on the line, the mid-term iQue was generally caught, and the upper high belt shield handed over two lives... The familiar plot constantly reminds people of the suffocation and nightmares that have lasted for many years. The feeling of not being able to breathe, just a little bit of it, came back to my heart.

At the endgame, many players swiped their mobile phones while watching the live broadcast, hoping that the brothers on the front line would bring the news of a definite victory. The glass screen kept sliding up and down, almost croaking out of Mars. The delay between the 10-minute live broadcast and the scene seems to be so far away.

The economy is 1W behind, the difference is almost 10 heads, the pierced heights, and the sword of Damocles hanging over the heads of each audience does not know exactly when it will fall.

30 minutes, 40 minutes, Roshan rotates from generation to generation, and both sides are waiting for an opportunity. Finally, China waited for this opportunity to turn around.

In the 46th minute, the Mongol team made a major mistake in the team battle, and at the moment when Dayou was high and almost victorious, Ame's phantom assassin threw a dagger with the special effect of a berserk tomahawk at the line, which happened to splash into the enemy group's tide control. The tide where the jumping knife was broken was empty, which in turn helped the Chinese team play a 1-for-5. A wave pulls the economy back and has room to continue pulling.

Then there's the breath-taking disadvantage catchback. The Chinese team's twin batteries finally took shape with the support of the Phantom Assassin and the Axe King, and for 65 minutes, Zhao Gongzi's flower fairy stood under the opponent's world tree, constantly spitting dazzling fireworks from other worlds.

Won.

After a short silence, there was a tide of joy in the circle of friends. Everyone was congratulating on the victory and telling about the cure for PTSD, which had spread for years. This has become a collective reconciliation with oneself.

National honor, these four words are never easy. How many people's efforts and blood and tears have been put in. As the world's most cohesive and nationally identified Dota community, CNDOTA's pride has met its darkest moments over the past few years.

The significance of this gold medal to Chinese players has long become something more integrated into flesh and blood in the long age of this game. Their victory is more than just an honor. It has long had to be a breath against the spine.

Even if there is a voice that says, how to win a Mongolia is so difficult, is there no shame?

There is no shame if you win - there is no shame if you win.

E-sports, there is no shame in winning with dignity and integrity.

A spark can set fire to the plain. I can almost imagine what the players and players would have endured if this game had been lost.

Anyway, we are champions. And my PTSD has been better than half over the years, and as for the remaining half, it depends on when the Polish stupid donkey will resurrect Jack.

When the award was presented, Ame stood on the stage of the champion. There seemed to be a little bit of innocence in his debut again. Hang up the gold medal, pick it up and examine it carefully; Take the bouquet and smell it.

I am a "Jimei", although I have never expressed anything about him in public. Ame's face is slightly rounded, and her appearance is still outstanding. At first, I had many affectionate names for him, keeping the hard-to-get TO license next to the computer and watching it all the time. After TI11, I referred to him as "the man".

Now, he is just a retired Wang Chunyu player who lives a slow life.

I turned on all the social apps I could and watched people cheer. The world that turns into a pastel color is bright again, just like Pantone's color card, you can find all the colors you want.

At Ti9, Ame and Maybe stood next to the white wall separated on either side. This time, it was the Lu Yao player in red and Wang Chunyu player who gave high fives, and the rich and low-key red was also rippling.

"Why don't we start all over again." Someone put small print next to this frame.

Do you see this round gold medal, doesn't it look like that round shield?