Wang Yuyan: Don't fall into the eye of the needle

The article was first published in "Jin Yong's Women's Illustrated Book"

Text/Liushen Leilei

Wang Yuyan belongs to the kind of life that falls into the eye of the needle. Talking to her, you can't leave your cousin in three sentences.

Duan Yu and her had just met for a short time, and they quickly saw through this girl: "If you want her to talk to me willingly, the only way to talk to her about Murong Gongzi is to talk to her, and besides that, she won't care about anything." Duan Yu was stunned, but he looked at people accurately. He can tell who is rich and who is shallow.

Normal people talk to Wang Yuyan, and they will die in a few minutes. You talk to her about anything other than her cousin, and she won't be interested. She talks to you about your cousin, and of course you're not interested, so we don't have to talk.

So no one spoke to her. Zhao Min, Huang Rong and other heroines have many people to communicate and talk to them, even Xiaolongnu is so lonely, and there are also New Year's friends like Zhou Botong and Master Yideng to speak. Wang Yuyan had no one to talk to her. Everyone felt that they had nothing to say to her. Mother had nothing to say to her; Ah Zhu and Ah Bi had nothing to say to her; The mother-in-law at home had nothing to say to her; The cousin had nothing to say to her; Several retainers, such as Deng Baichuan, Gongye Qian, Bao Wei, etc., had nothing to say to her.

There is only one Duan Yu, for obvious purposes, who will deliberately have nothing to say to her, and no one else has anything to say to her. She looks so beautiful, there is no second suitor in the whole book except Duan Yu. In fact, Duan Yu's infatuation with her is also a jade statue complex, otherwise it is really difficult to say. Duan Yu himself is also a person with a very rich heart and a wide range of interests, even if he is infatuated with Wang Yuyan for a while, how long can he last? Unthinkable. Even if he marries Wang Yuyan, it is estimated that after three days of enthusiasm, Duan Yu would rather go to Zhu Danchen, Zhong Ling, Huangmei Seng and others to talk to every day, and have nothing to say to Wang Yuyan.

Life is only the size of a needle's eye, and it is easy to embolize and suffocate. When her cousin abandoned her and went to marry the princess of Xixia, she had no choice but to jump into the well. In fact, there is only one wellhead left in her life for a long time. If Ah Zi's life is a tragedy, and Duan Yu's life is a comedy, then Wang Yuyan's life is a mime, with no voice and no shadow, just guarding a well and living silently.

Wang Yuyan is in this state, which has a lot to do with her family. Her mother, Madame Wang, is a strong and stupid controller. She took her daughter to live in the "Mantuo Villa", the name of this villa is very beautiful, but in fact it is the most eerie and terrifying place in "Tianlong Babu", all the planting, furnishings, and arrangements are for the man Duan Zhengchun, and all the pretentiousness and tossing of Mrs. Wang here are also for Duan Zhengchun, it seems to be an altar, and the only deity enshrined is Duan Zhengchun. Mrs. Wang constantly arrested, killed, and sacrificed people in the villa, and called it to eliminate scumbags, but in fact, it was all blood food offered to Duan Zhengchun.

This mother lived like a fanatical and evil believer, except for worshipping idols, she did not have a trace of warmth and patience for her daughter, did not care about her growth, and imposed extreme high-pressure imprisonment on her daughter.

And then there's a cousin. 's mother and cousin, the only two people in her life, jointly shaped Wang Yuyan. Both of these people are high-pressure, vitriol, unbridled, and very difficult to please. They are like planers and files, removing all of Wang Yuyan's personality and edges and corners early, making her a puppet hanging on the corner of the eaves and swinging in the wind. In order to please the two, she learns to hide herself whenever and wherever she wants, pretending at all times, such as on the one hand she has to hide her interests, and on the other hand she has to hide her disinterest - in front of her mother, she has to hide her interest in her cousin; In front of her cousin, she had to hide her disinterest in politics and martial arts.

You will find that Wang Yuyan has a characteristic, that is, she has never opened herself, and you don't know if her emptiness, boredom, and poverty are like this by the beginning, or later.

For example, you don't know if she's smart or stupid. Huang Rong is smart, Lu Wushuang is stupid, and Xiaolongnu is natural, they all live like themselves, but Wang Yuyan can't see it.

The girl didn't seem stupid, but she didn't seem to be very smart. said that she is not stupid, because she can memorize a large number of martial arts classics by pure self-study, and she can give advice to anyone who watches a fight, but she has no wisdom in other things, and when she encounters an emergency, she will only "lose her face", and then be arrested. It is estimated that he has lived to this day, the top three liberal arts in the college entrance examination, and there is a set of rote memorization, but most of them are not very smart, and the college entrance examination is the pinnacle of life.

You don't know if she has any hobbies. She also seems to like to play the piano and write and raise small animals, but she likes it so shallowly, it feels perfunctory and not distracted, and these "interests" are as untrustworthy as the hobbies in the celebrity profile, and they are made up for the purpose of filling out forms.

You don't know if she was once young and rebellious in her heart, or if she has always been docile and peaceful; I don't know if she'll lose her temper, be willful, or never will; I don't know if she's ever been curious about the outside world, or if she's never been curious; I don't know if she doubted and was tired of living her life, or if she never doubted; I don't know if she has ever expected to communicate and communicate with people, or if she never expected it; I don't know if she has longed to achieve herself, live her own value, and have her own stage, or if she doesn't have this idea at all.

Because she has been folded for too long, she has never opened her true self, and gradually her true temperament and false temperament have become one, becoming half-true and half-false, you see that she always feels like through frosted glass, vague and unclear.

A person's growth is nothing more than learning to face three things, facing temptation, facing grievances, and facing obsessions. On the other hand, these three things are actually the deepest imprint we have ever lived, and the most unforgettable things when we look back on our youth. When you think back to your sixteen or seventeen years old, is the most memorable memory of the hottest temptation you faced, the biggest grievance you have ever suffered, and the deepest obsession you have ever had?

Wang Yuyan was unfortunate: her mother told her, you can't have desires; The cousin said to her, you should not be wronged. Both were brutally obliterated. Wang Yuyan had no choice but to hide the only thing left - obsession - deep in her heart, and used her unreasonable and unhesitating obsession with her cousin to prove that she was alive and truly alive.

Fortunately, she still has this obsession, just imagine, standing in the cold window, if this point in her heart is removed, then what is left of this girl?