My aunt was very kind to my brother-in-law, and she cooked a big table of dishes for us. While she served us food, she did not forget to persuade me to find a companion quickly. I smiled and didn't say anything. My cousin sat across from me with his pockets tied, and although he had a red scarf tied, he kept his head down and kept him silent. This meeting was also a shock to him.
My aunt brought a bowl of steaming soup and asked urgently, "Does anyone else want it?" I hurriedly waved my hand, "No, no, it's okay." Quickly changed the topic.
When my cousin got home, I called him and we talked a lot. The more we talked, the more we felt as if the distance between us had narrowed a little closer. Because of this meeting, we seem to have found clues to reconnect with each other.
My aunt then turned to family matters, and she mentioned that my cousin had been a little sullen lately, and asked me if I had talked to him about anything. I was a little hesitant, but I still talked about my cousin's work problem, hoping to get my aunt's support and advice. My aunt was a little anxious when she heard this, and she advised me to encourage my cousin more, saying that everyone in the family hoped that he could live a good life. Listening to my aunt's words, I felt a little entangled in my heart, and felt that I had not fulfilled my responsibilities as an older brother.
My cousin's mood has always been very low, and I advised him to go out and see the wonders of the world, but he was always noncommittal. I know that there are some things in my heart, maybe I can only rely on him to face them gradually and heal them slowly. On this day, I decided to ask my cousin out for a walk, put down what I was doing, and give each other a chance to talk.
We came to a scenic hillside in our hometown, stood in the wind, and looked at the village in the distance. When my cousin finally spoke, he said that he had been feeling lost in life lately, not knowing what he was going to do in the future, and not knowing the direction of his life. His words were full of helplessness and frustration, and I fell silent. This time we met, we seemed to have found clues to reconnect with each other, but it also caused deeper contradictions and problems.
Looking up at his cousin, he seemed to be tired. I'm a little distressed. We have spent a long time together, and we don't care if we have a common topic or not, we just enjoy this family relationship.
Before I knew it, my cousin and I stayed at my aunt's house all day. It's been a long time since I've been so close. My aunt smiled and said, "It's good that you're so happy, isn't that what I've always wanted to see?" and we all nodded. A touch of emotion rose in my heart.
When I got home, my cousin called: "Today was a great day. I smiled, feeling the warmth behind those words.
Being happy also means having a deeper concern. In the day-to-day work and life, the churning thoughts have to return to this happy day from time to time, and this beauty of the past seems to become a clue to reconnect between us.
However, in the days that followed, something happened in my home, which left me a little at a loss. Hearing my confused voice, my aunt began to say with concern, "Is there anyone else who wants it?" This time, I didn't feel good to confide in my aunt, so I could only suppress my worries in my heart.
My cousin sensed what was on my mind, and he asked on the phone why. I tactfully talked about the past, and my cousin fell silent after hearing it. I was a little disappointed by his silence, and the encouragement and support I had been expecting seemed to be out of reach at this moment.
This contradiction makes me feel a little uncomfortable. As time passed, I pondered quietly, not knowing how to solve this problem. Although I looked forward to my cousin's help, I felt that I had no right to ask for his support. Being in such a dilemma made me struggle a little.
But I believe that the emotional entanglement between family members will eventually be resolved. May we get through this conflict together, and after reconnecting, we will feel a more solid family bond.
Although I was happy to be in touch with my cousin again, I noticed that he seemed to have something on his mind. Every time he mentions work or life, he always perfunctory and avoids the important. I knew he was facing some challenges at work, but he didn't want to confide in me, and I didn't want to ask too much. My aunt was also aware of my cousin's condition, and she often mentioned my cousin's condition in front of me, hoping that I could help him.
This kind of contradictory knot slowly developed in my heart, and I wanted to help my cousin solve his problems, but I didn't know where to start. At the same time, I was also facing my own problems, I was exhausted by the huge pressure of work, and I longed to find a shoulder to talk to, but I didn't want to show weakness in front of my family.
Once, while my family was sitting around for dinner, all of a sudden, my aunt coldly mentioned my previous relationship problems. She asked sharply, "Didn't you say you were looking for a partner, why haven't you seen it yet?" I smiled awkwardly and didn't speak. Suddenly, I felt a sense of powerlessness: I seemed to be the focus of all the conflicts in my family.
Over the next few days, I was exhausted by the rush of work and inner turmoil, and I subconsciously began to avoid my family and even made some excuses not to return home. In the process, I tried to calm my emotions, but I found myself caught up in a conflict with my family that I couldn't get rid of.
This life went on for a while, and I felt very anxious. I knew I couldn't run away anymore, I needed to face up to the problems between myself and my family, and it was a responsibility I couldn't escape. But I don't know how to deal with it.
Soon, the Spring Festival arrived. Our family got together, and my aunt specially prepared a sumptuous Chinese New Year's Eve dinner. Everyone sat around the table, laughing and laughing, as usual. However, the small friction of the year still quietly surfaced in everyone's minds.
That night, the family sat in the living room and chatted. My aunt suddenly asked me about my relationship, and unsurprisingly mentioned the blind date. I smiled disapprovingly, only to see my cousin's face change slightly. He collected his emotions and got up and walked to the balcony to smoke.
I don't know why my cousin reacted the way he did, maybe because he hadn't experienced emotional problems yet. At this time, my aunt began to complain that I was unwilling to face the relationship problem positively.
"Don't force him," I reminded my aunt, "and you can't force it on emotional matters." Besides, didn't I keep saying that I'm not ready?"
"Oh, with your character, how can there be results?" said my aunt was a little angry.
At this time, my cousin suddenly came over, looked at me and said, "It's not that he doesn't want to, it's that I don't want to." ”
"Huh, do you have someone you like?" I was surprised, because my cousin had always been a very introvert.
The cousin frowned and was silent for a long time, but finally did not say anything.
I felt a little sad and frustrated because I didn't know what my cousin had been through. My aunt was also a little angry, but in the end she didn't say anything.
We finished the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner in silence. It was late at night, and everyone dispersed.
This night, my conversation with my cousin made me feel a little sad and confused. Unconsciously, the relationship that was thought to be reconciled seems to have cracks again. I began to wonder if there were more emotions and problems hidden in between.
Soon, the New Year came. My cousin's child has found a good job, and the family is happy. I called my cousin and wanted to invite them over for the Chinese New Year. I vaguely heard his hesitation on the phone, and he politely declined. I was puzzled, and the feeling of short-lived joy welling up in my heart was instantly shattered. When I talked to my aunt about it, her face was even more ugly.
On the evening of the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve, my aunt suddenly appeared. As soon as she entered the house, she pulled me aside and complained that my cousin was unwilling to bring the children for the New Year. I tried to explain, but she didn't seem to listen. My aunt suddenly cried, and she said a lot of things, maybe the words that she had suppressed in her heart for many years. My aunt's eyes made me feel that she was very aggrieved and helpless. My heart ached, and I knew that the current conflict might not be resolved so easily.
On the first day of the new year, I plan to talk to my cousin again about this. This time I took a deep breath and was honest. My cousin looked at me with a haze in his eyes. However, I know that if I don't make it clear this time, the contradiction will only get deeper and deeper. We talked for a long time. Finally, the cousin nodded and agreed. It was a relief for me.
Home always has all kinds of contradictions. It's like a big net, sometimes it is tightened, and sometimes it is relaxed. The entanglement between family members may be the most real existence of the family. May the contradictions between us be gradually understood and resolved.