Time is always so mysterious and unpredictable. Seven months pregnant, I felt the kicking of the fetus in my womb, and my heart was full of mother's happiness and expectation. But one night, when I inadvertently scrolled through my phone, an unfamiliar message flashed on the screen, like a bolt from the blue.
The message came from an unfamiliar number, but the content was shocking. "It's still the same place tonight, see you there." At first, I thought it was a mistake, but when I looked closely, the content of the text message seemed so intimate and meaningful, which aroused my inner unease.
That night, I held back the panic in my heart and waited for my husband to come home. In the face of him, I did not ask him directly, but tentatively asked him about his work. His answer seemed to be flawless, but my doubts grew stronger.
A few days later, I found an excuse to go out alone and followed my husband to what he called "overtime" location. Standing in the distance, I saw him and my girlfriend walking out of a restaurant arm in arm. They talked and laughed, as if there were only two of them in the world.
At that moment, it was as if the world had collapsed. My heart was beating faster and tears were pouring out of my eyes. I couldn't believe that all this was true, that the best friend who had always been by my side, the man who had promised to spend my life with me, was so close behind my back.
I stood still, not knowing what to do with them. When I got home, I stayed up all night, replaying their smiles and intimate movements in my head. I tried to look for any clues, to remember if they had ever been out of the ordinary, but everything seemed to be too hidden.
In the days that followed, I became more and more sensitive, and every look, every word, made me feel like they were talking in secret. Finally, I decided to face reality and have a showdown with my husband.
It was a weekend night, and I mustered up the courage to ask him, "What is the relationship between you and her?" His face instantly turned pale, and his eyes showed panic. He began to plead, saying that it was just a concern between friends, but I could no longer believe any of his words.
My best friend also quickly found out about our conversation, and she took the initiative to come to me and try to explain that everything was a misunderstanding. But her every word was like a sharp sword, piercing my heart. I confronted her, "How can you do this to me?" Aren't we best friends? She was speechless, just kept her head down, not daring to look me in the eye.
In this dispute, I felt loneliness and despair like never before. The betrayal of my friends and partners made me suspicious of the whole world. I didn't know how to continue this marriage, and I couldn't trust anyone anymore.
I began to reflect on myself if I had made a mistake in the relationship. Perhaps because of the pregnancy, I paid less attention to my husband and ignored his needs. But that doesn't justify his betrayal. In any case, betrayal is always unforgivable.
In the dead of night, I lay in bed, feeling the movement of the fetus in my womb, and my heart was full of mixed feelings. I thought about divorce, but I was afraid that my children would not have a complete home. I also thought about forgiveness, but whenever I think about their betrayal, my heart hurts so much that I can't breathe.
I found a psychiatrist and hoped to get some help from a professional point of view. In the process of confiding again and again, I gradually found a little bit of myself. I realized that no matter how others treated me, I should love and cherish myself.
A few months later, the child was born. Looking at the baby in swaddling clothes, my heart welled up with infinite love and responsibility. The child is innocent and I have to give him the best life possible.
I had a deep conversation with my husband, and he expressed his willingness to take responsibility for his mistakes and regain my trust. We decided to be apart for a while, and we each calmly thought about the way forward.
My girlfriend disappeared from my life completely. Although she was my closest person, her betrayal made it impossible for me to trust her anymore. I chose a new circle of friends and started to get to know everyone in my life again.
Time is the best healer. After a period of self-adjustment, I gradually came out of the shadows. Although the scars in my heart are still there, I have learned to better protect myself and cherish what is in front of me.
Now, my life is back on track. My child grew up healthily and I found new interests and hobbies. Although marriage is still challenging, I believe that as long as we are honest with each other, we can always find a solution to the problem.
No storm in life can break a strong heart. No matter how bumpy the road ahead, I will move forward with courage because I know that only by loving myself can I love others better.