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Text | Sister Yi (Zhou Guiyi) Ye Ziyao
Recently, I paid attention to a drama, "Crocodile".
is Mo Yan's first drama, and there is a favorite actor Deng Cuiwen.
This is the first time she has stood on the stage of a mainland drama. and old drama bones Zhao Wenxuan and Zhang Kaili, on the same stage.
The character played by Deng Cuiwen is a woman named "Thin Horse".
The name comes from her origin, which means a girl from a poor family and good looks, and was traded as a commodity in the Ming and Qing dynasties. Becoming a Qinglou woman or a rich concubine is their most likely fate.
In the drama "Crocodile", Deng Cuiwen walks between two men. One is a corrupt official, and the other is a young secretary of a corrupt official.
Under the same roof, being able to find a way to win the favor of two men is not only a task that can be completed by being young and beautiful, but a high-energy survival game.
She needs to show her admiration for those in power and know how to be coquettish; In front of the "subordinates", a certain desire for control is naturally released in the amorous nature of a mature woman.
As a "little three", she tried fame and love, but she couldn't get it; Raised, deceived, never really seen.
It takes ten years to see the true face of a man and understand how human greed is like a growing crocodile, devouring people.
Tang said it would take longer for her to become a "skinny horse."
In reality, she is more "big heroine", and she has to enter the character's mental journey and understand the survival rules of thin horses.
It is necessary to complete the performance in Mandarin, especially learn to use Mandarin to scold and quarrel.
In the past, there were the nine girls in "Women and Heroes: The Pride of the Righteous Sea", and the murderous and combative Rufei in "The Desire of the Golden Branch".
"Skinny Horse" is a subversive female character for Deng Cuiwen.
When she jumped down from the stage in a long red dress, at that moment, I really forgot that she was 58 years old.
Next year will be the 40th anniversary of her debut.
The bitterness of life and the bitterness of love, Deng Cuiwen has suffered it.
Now, the corners of the eyes leave traces of time, and the corners of the skirt fly freely in the air.
Deng Cuiwen's parents divorced when she was a child, and she grew up with her grandparents since she was a child.
While other people's children enjoyed a carefree childhood, she had already grown up and learned to take care of the family.
The abandoned daughter, goodbye to her parents, is not even qualified to shout mother.
She thought she had chosen to understand and accept.
When I was young, I wanted to escape, and it didn't matter what I was running away from, just running away.
In 1984, 18-year-old Deng Cuiwen entered the second artist training class of TVB, with classmates such as Shao Meiqi and Chen Tingwei.
Because of her resemblance to Weng Meiling, she made a smooth debut, and was re-praised by TVB and quickly became popular. In 1985, she starred in "Xue Rengui Zhengdong" for the first time, and signed a 5-year contract with TVB, and played many impressive roles in the past 5 years.
became popular when she debuted and became a first-line actress of TVB, but Deng Cuiwen chose to study abroad when she was being highly praised.
She sensed that she didn't want to be deprived of her life by a completely busy, passive announcement.
In those years, Deng Cuiwen would rather spend her savings for many years of filming, but also to seize back control of her life, and also use her experience to fill her inner "unworthy" heart void.
She has always known that "TVB can praise me, and you can praise others".
And he has been busy using money to fill the love he hasn't gotten.
When she came back from her studies, she found that she had no place in the entertainment industry for a long time. So Deng Cuiwen could only start from scratch, painstakingly honed her acting skills, and finally relied on her acting skills to achieve a counterattack, starring in "I Have a Date with Spring" Yao Xiaodie and other well-known roles.
In those years, she has been working silently, hoping to end this busyness and get some kind of freedom to go ashore through investment.
But at the age of 30, when he encountered the Hong Kong financial crisis, he lost almost everything and was in debt.
In those years, in order to make money for the building, Deng Cuiwen became a DJ, a host, singing and dancing, learning everything, and doing everything.
No need for agents and assistants, come alone.
She describes herself: "The horse is dead and walking. ”
"The horse dies and walks on the ground" is a Cantonese saying that literally means to go out on horseback, but unfortunately the horse dies, then get off the horse and walk by yourself.
This colloquial saying is used as a metaphor for the optimism of relying on one's own strength to move forward after losing the dominant conditions or relying on it.
Looking back, Deng Cuiwen said that the strongest thing about a person is not that he is rich, but that he is not afraid of not having money, and he can live no matter what.
"As long as I keep my life, I can start all over again."
In such a desperate situation, she once again contributed the popular "Golden Branch Desire" of the times.
The role of Rufei made her go out of Hong Kong and be well-known to mainland audiences.
"In "The Desire of the Golden Branch" 20 years ago, Concubine Ru was also a poor and hateful person like a thin horse.
At that time, after reading the script, Deng Cuiwen's first thought was not a power struggle, but that she felt that this character wanted 'love' very much.
She called the director and asked if the emperor's favorite was me? He immediately said that you think too much, there are 3,000 beauties in the harem, and there is no one who loves you the most.
Isn't that the most favored, she asked? He said, 'Yes, but I don't love you the most, don't think too much.' She's stupid.
Later, she figured it out: love is the most important support point for people, but if there is no love, then survival is the first. (From The Bund)
Outside of the work, she may have spent the first half of her life trying to figure it out.
58-year-old Deng Cuiwen is still unmarried and childless, she has experienced love and has also suffered disappointment.
When he debuted, he fell in love with Wan Ziliang, who was 9 years older, and died without a problem. When he loves it the most, Wan Ziliang is willing to kneel on the street, but it is easy to kneel and it is difficult to get along.
filmed "I Have a Date with Spring" and Jiang Hua fell in love because of the play.
The relationship was exposed, Jiang Hua was afraid of affecting his career, so he took his wife Mai Jiewen to hold a press conference, saying that Deng Cuiwen took the initiative to seduce a married man.
An "extramarital affair" pulled Deng Cuiwen to the bottom.
Regarding that period of time, Deng Cuiwen was very frank: "I don't hate him, but I am very disappointed emotionally." You have to review yourself, because in the end, whether you can be happy or not depends on yourself, and if you don't review it, you will make mistakes again in the future. ”
Falling in love with Jiang Hua is the only thing she regrets in her life.
Jiang Hua, who has become older, has posted videos in the past two years, started live broadcasts, and took his wife to karaoke in the live broadcast room.
Some netizens once left a message: I feel sorry for the unmarried Wen girl in her life.
I want to say, forget it.
The wrong person may not meet the right person, but he will definitely collide with the right life.
It's not that Deng Cuiwen doesn't get married, but time and experience make her see her life order more clearly.
58-year-old Deng Cuiwen will not look for love everywhere, in the face of more virtual things, she loves herself enough space and freedom.
"I've always felt like I didn't want to get married, and if I were a man, it would probably be better because society gives women too much responsibility to take care of the family. And I love freedom and work as an actor more, and it's very difficult to find a man who can accept and tolerate me. (from Style)
Seeing through the plight of women and the situation that women are more likely to be emotionally distressed, Deng Cuiwen chooses to respect feelings and live in the moment.
For example, the departure of the last "thin horse" in "Crocodile" is difficult, and the future is uncertain, but turning around is a kind of liberation.
At least, she was free.
Escape from the covetousness of love and endless desire.
A few years ago, Deng Cuiwen moved north to live in Beijing, and became a "North Drifter" when she was over 50 years old.
This year, Deng Cuiwen moved to Shanghai again, because Beijing is busier than Beijing, and Shanghai gives her more sense of life.
When she is not working, she can go to the drama and watch exhibitions alone, and the people around her have a strong sense of boundaries, and there will be no anxiety about age and marriage.
Most of the contemporaries of the same age have retired and have no opportunities for filming.
58-year-old Deng Cuiwen can still have a job and new things to learn, she cherishes and enjoys it very much.
That's why she took over "Crocodile".
First, there are some attempts and challenges, and secondly, it is impossible to play a woman on the screen at this age in their thirties and forties, and the artistic presentation of the drama stage gives this possibility.
Looking at the first half of Deng Cuiwen's life, she was actually quite willful.
It is not the so-called "big heroine" who is rational first, she makes choices according to "instinct" at several important nodes in her life.
In her own words, it is at different stages and doing what she wants to do the most.
She admitted and paid the price.
It can be seen in Deng Cuiwen that a woman who does not complain, is responsible, and is willing to take responsibility for her own life will not live a bad life.
Even those things that are unattainable in life can be self-consistent.
You can live any day, and you can start all over again.
This spring, Li Ruotong, who has also experienced mountains and valleys, made a speech, "Me and Depression From "Love" to "Breakup".
Deng Cuiwen left a message:
Don't be afraid to face that terrible self, as long as we choose to survive, we have a lot of ways to go.
Well done.