Shen Congwen's works: Learning from reality

In recent years, some people have said that I do not understand "reality", do not understand reality, pursue "abstraction", and although courage is warm, it is boundless. In the era of Yang Mo's simultaneous advancement, it is inevitable that there is almost no return, so it is "outdated". This conclusion is good, ordinary and natural. Unfortunately, the "reality" that I understand is completely different from that of the intellectuals who have been raised in the greenhouses, and it is also different from what another kind of elements who come from small cities and think that they belong to the workers and peasants, so that not only is there a disconnect between the present and the so-called reality of ordinary people, that is, the pursuit of abstract methods, I am afraid that it is also out of touch with other aspects. Try to sort out the personal wandering outside of Yang Mo, and write a small article as an answer to the blame and hope placed on all unfamiliar visits and correspondence.

　　The first time I heard the word "reality" was twenty-five years ago. I was originally an uncompromising township elder, wandering around a piece of land in the twenty-eight counties of Chuanqian, Xiang'e. As far as the eyes and ears can see, it belongs to the personnel side, and both good and bad are bizarre. This kind of education is too absurd for a young man born in a modern city. However, if you compare it with many things that still exist in China, you will feel very ordinary again. At that time, it was precisely because of the gradual collapse of the good countryside that we saw, and it was only the stupidest scramble and killing made by the rule of the big and small armed forces, and the educational significance of a young man was a reality, a reality that mixed stupidity and depravity, and it was so terrible that Fang stepped out of the half-bandit and half-army unit. Unexpectedly, he crashed into the city of Beijing, which has 1.5 million citizens. The first time I met a relative, he asked me with great concern: "What did you come to Beijing for?" I replied innocently, "I'll look for ideals and read some books." "Well, read. What ideals do you have and how do you study? Did you know that there are 10,000 college students in Beijing at the moment, and after graduation, they have nothing to do, and they don't know what to do with their sad faces. The salary of the university professor is 100% off, only thirty-six yuan a month, or the arch is still a joint strike and hard and hard. Big and small nerds are either reading dead books or reading dead, where you are a boss in the country! "But how do I go on?" In six years, I have seen tens of thousands of innocent civilians killed at my feet, and I have learned nothing but to leave a stupid and cruel impression of those who are killed and those who kill! There are many intelligent people who are officials, and the more intelligent people are, the more they indulge in stupid temperament, and they seem to be on top of each other, taking all things as dogs. The silence of the slain dying is like a protest: "If you kill my flesh, I will rot your soul." The soul is an invisible thing, but it exists, and it will prove its existence in many other ways. This decay is contagious, so the officers, big and small, infect each other, more and more degenerate, more and more bad.

Can you imagine what it would be like for an organ to have three hundred employees with one hundred and fifty smoking guns? I couldn't stay any longer, so I ran out! ...... I want to come and read some books, half-work and half-reading, and read good books to save the country. This country is really hard to go down like this! “

　　So, in accordance with the principles of the literary movement and social movement put forward by the publications of "New Youth", "New Wave", "Transformation" and other publications at that time, I quoted some beautiful words that fascinated me, thinking that society must be rebuilt, that this work must be started by literary reconstruction, and that after the literary revolution, it can be used to ignite the feelings of this nation that have been weakened by power, and the rationality distorted by the oppression of wealth. Both must be liberated, and the new literature is extremely responsible. I also believe that human enthusiasm and justice will eventually rise, and that love can re-glue human relations, and that tomorrow's new literature must also be brave enough to bear. I want to confirm the meaning of life and the possibility of life by influencing society from the outside, or from the learning progress itself from the inside. Speaking and talking until he also felt that he did not know what to call it, Fang Belt stopped wishing in fact, and only a few words were enough. "I loathe the ugly reality that I came into contact with the fading good and the bad dominating everything. If I admit it and adapt to it, I can slowly rise to section chief, change to county magistrate, and become department chief. But I have left out of disgust. "As for literature, I don't punctuate yet!" I admit that I should start from this, and I am not ashamed at all. Because I believe what the newspaper says, a person who is willing to study diligently always has a way.

　　My relatives have a great sense of humor, and after hearing my ridiculous lyrical arguments, they fully understood my intentions, smiled at me with kindness, and said: "Good, good, you are here." People brought bows and arrows and crossbows into the mountains to hunt tigers and leopards, but you brought an unrealistic fantasy into the city of Beijing with your bare hands to make this deal. You weird countryman, it's so daring! With this bit of courage, you are qualified to come to beijing to live and learn everything and experience everything. But I have to tell you, since you have come for faith, do not lose faith! Because you have nothing but it! ”

　　I really lived there. Touch the side, the remaining seven dollars and six cents. The third year after the May Fourth Movement.

　　How do you learn from a new reality? First, in a small apartment with a damp moldy room, in the cold of minus twelve degrees, I learned the cold tolerance of not using a stove for the winter. Then there are three days and two days without eating, learning the endurance in the empty stomach. Secondly, from the situation of hunger and cold, hopelessness and helplessness, I learned to enter the library to explore the reading ability on my own. Then the second is to start with a pen, write day and night, send all the works to the newspapers and magazines, and learn the resistance and adaptability to work failure in the fruitless waiting. When the tests in all aspects inevitably made the mind a little chaotic, and when they really could not support it, they followed the small white cloth flag that was shaking in the hands of the recruiting committee members of the Feng family, and five or seven yellow-faced, hungry, and unacquainted compatriots, and turned around a few times near the overpass juggling shed, and a wave of sadness and confusion rose in their hearts. When it was almost time to fill out the volunteer book by name and pay for the meal, the words spoken by the relative suddenly echoed in his heart, "But don't forget the faith!" "This is my only old book, how can I forget it?" Still escaping from the chaotic emotions created by reality, he fixed a pair of hungry and dim eyes into the distance, and for some reason left the committee, the group of compatriots, turned back to my "narrow and moldy little fast", used air and sunshine as a confidant, and waited as usual. I remember the first time Mr. Yu Dafu came to my residence to see, in the mouth, and then in the article, with emotion, I was persuaded to steal something from my relatives, so that I could calmly live a year, I only smiled. So that he only sees my life and doesn't understand why I live like this. This is the first long way I went to the north to pursue abstraction, learn from reality, and start with about four years. Young people joyfully say "learning" and "struggle", but some people want to know what kind of learning and struggle this is!

　　In this season, Chinese society outside the individual represents the armed forces with the grand marshal, the patrol envoy, the overseer and the horse Ben. Representative Bunji has cabinet and below officials to convey.

On behalf of the people, there are the Senate and the House of Representatives to the township chief, and the representative knowledge has university professors to primary school teachers. The ideal of the samurai is to please a few more female dramatists and increase family fun.

　　Send people to join forces with big bandits or small warlords to inflate their strength. At the clan hall yamen, I will do a birthday swing hall meeting to increase my income and show my magnanimity. Secondly, he and powerful local soldiers fought with talented congressional literati in an attempt to stabilize or expand the situation. Whoever uses force all the way to the groom can also make a blessing to the people, and when he asks for firewood, he will frighten the county magistrate to go over the wall. As for the senior officials and the representative of the whole people, they are at the top of the sick social organization, and there are only three things to entertain and have fun: one is to visit the kiln, the second is to go to the restaurant, and the third is to listen to music. The highest ideal is to get a few little bitches and find a good cook. (The fifth son, Denko, was also originally received!) If you are also the representative of a certain warlord in Beijing, the residence will inevitably become a political club, you can sing Beijing opera, push the card nine, do as you want, Jing Zhaoyin and the police superintendent of the Beijing Division will never send someone to catch the bet. According to the newspaper records in the meeting, they only heard each other scolding, beat each other, and later went to court to sue each other. When the two factions of parliamentarians held a meeting, the seats were far apart, and the nerves were too excited to fight, so they followed the way of fighting on the "Fengshen Yanyi", while cursing and offering the copper ink cartridge magic weapon in their hands, far away, making an ink dripping. All the scenes are exactly like "Dream of the Red Chamber" naughty children smoking and learning, but only performing in the solemn parliament. In contrast, the civil rule faction in the conference naturally saw the constitutional covenant law propositions published in the newspapers. No theory is as concrete as reality, but what a reality! Under such a ruling institution, poverty is a universal fact. Therefore, to solve it is to proceed separately. Managing the municipal sale of city bricks, managing the sale of cypress trees in the temple, managing the palace and difficult to reimburse for stealing too many things, for the sake of saving trouble, Suo Xing set a fire to burn the main hall, which could not be verified. Until the head of the department of management education, he was not exempt from the vulgarity, and proposed the good books of the Beijing Normal Library to the bank for the monthly salary of the staff.

　　In short, all those who are kept in custody can be handled at will. That is, when he lived in Xiyuan, he also had a whimsical idea, and pried up the jute stones on the road near the Yuanmingyuan and sold them to the nearby schools to build houses on the walls. Selling and buying, of course, the government sold it down. A mess of rot, finally finished. But some of the new group that contributed to its collapse had already seen a sign that they had accidentally been stained with some poisonous bacteria. At that time, there was no good disinfection to prevent it, of course, there was a day of mutual infection.

Looking at the ideal from the perspective of reality, these four years can also be said to be in a metabolic struggle. The literary thought movement has shown its role, expanding the illusions and confidence of young students in social reconstruction. A group of that man's division, May Fourth has passed, and the low tide has followed. The bureaucracy adopts the most bureaucratic policy and ignores them, leaving the teaching staff in a desperate situation. But this is where the social turnaround is. Although the life of the professor is extremely difficult, the denial of reality is almost consistent. On the student side, among the enthusiastic pure molecules, there are elements that act in a vertical and horizontal social manner, and they are slightly different from May Fourth, that is, "diligence" and "activity" have been separated into two. Not learning and like a universal contagion glass (this seems to be small, the impact of development is not small!). Most of the May Fourth activists have become experts and scholars, and they have always been positive and responsible for social progress. The achievements of the activists of March 18, most of them, are not easy to describe. Many who have studied literature at that time have shelved the pen of study, and have been active in various realities, contacting this, dealing with that, welcoming the living, commemorating the dead, holding meetings, fighting,—— all of this is called the struggle in the process of revolution, the strange mixture of solemnity and obscenity, and if everything is inevitable, it will not be an activity. Ask "Why is this happening?" The acquaintance said, "This is called politics." Political science powers first. If you get power, you will be the great statesman of tomorrow." At this point, I, a countryman, am confused. The first is that the efforts of the literary scholars are not expected to be here and not the other. The second is what these people can do for the country if they come to power in the future? Some of whom I knew well, saw me stay at the greasy table all day long, thinking that staying like this was not suicide and was bound to go crazy, and from their mouths I heard reality for the second time. Demonstrate the abstract pursuit of realistic ways.

　　"Dude, no need to write articles. You really don't know reality, net nerds daydreaming, dreams produce great works, where will there be results? It is better to join our group, have food to eat, have something to do, and be okay in the future - as long as you want, nothing is difficult. ”

　　"I'm not here to eat and do things!"

　　"Then why? Is it true that drinking the north wind and basking in the sun can survive? When you owe too much to the apartment for food, you can only go back to your residence in the middle of the night, and you owe the restaurant three or five yuan for dinner, so you can't walk through the door, can a person live so long-term and without interest? I ask you. ”

　　"To prove faith and hope, I can."

　　"Faith and hope, what a moving term, but how empty! You just stuck to this empty term and dragged it down, thinking that the world would suddenly get better one day? Brother, things are not so simple in the world, and what you believe in and hope for can only be achieved by revolution. The revolution is to overthrow a present, for better or worse, regardless of the means used, in any way. This is a reality. If you contribute to this, you will be able to become a committee member and minister in the future, and any ideal can be realized slowly. If you don't participate, you will have to be a contributor, write a small article of three cents and five thousand words, and live this strange and cold day. ”

　　"When you say faith and hope, they are just plain empty terms, which is not true for me. It will at least prove that a person, by conviction and ambition, can make a tangible contribution to society. "You don't have to address me, I have to go." I still have many things to do! At four o'clock I will attend the hometown meeting, at five o'clock I will attend the love freedom seminar, and at eight o'clock I will ... Dude, you still write your masterpiece, I'm leaving. ”

Time passed and the "revolution" succeeded. Reality has completely faded the green dreams of some people's youth. Many of my acquaintances really became committee members out of thin air, married school flowers, went abroad and returned to China, quit from being writers, and became small dignitaries with polished handbags. But it also seems to confirm that I, the countryman, am not very wrong. Of course, there must be people to be officials, people to do things, hang up a writer's sign, carry out activities everywhere, meet all day to eat snacks, and it is even more important to bow their heads and engage in work. Adhering to the solemn principles put forward by the New Literary Movement, it is particularly important to persevere in experimenting with the viewpoint of "tool reconstruction" and to use literature more far-reachingly than propaganda materials from the viewpoint of "tool reuse". The revolution is coming, as expected, and as it is about accelerating.

　　In the course of this reality, the unfortunate become the ancients, and the lucky ones become the viables. Literary achievement is to leave thirty or fifty small poems, or three or five novels, to decorate the identity of the writer. As for me, as a certain brother said, I am completely out of date. Because the revolution came, the contributors who had written from Sanmao to Mon yuan were also stripped of their identity, so they had to go to the Xiangshan Kindergarten to work as a small clerk. But I didn't care, I just felt that I had just completed the first stage of the road, not only to have a good contact with this new reality, to understand the new reality, and when all noble ideals pass through reality, the decomposition and collapse formed were not clear and clear, and it was my responsibility to retain the reality of this point of narration, thinking that it would be a reference for tomorrow's tragedy correction.

　　In the midst of the success of the revolution, when the living were busy with the struggle for power, it was also the first time that literary works and commercial capital were formally combined, stimulating society with a new way of distributing commodities, and realpolitik and abstract literature also had a strange and subtle connection. If I want to live and continue to work, I have to have a little relationship between work and new business. I had to start on the second step, so I moved to a bigger and more realistic city, Shanghai. The merchants, society, and writers in Shanghai gave me another lesson, a new test, a new experience.

　　The situation was that a writer always had to have something to do with something, or politics, or with bookstores—or to believe, or to admit— that the way out of the article was not much of a problem. If you still only write in an "old Beijing school" way, and write to find a patron by free submission, of course, there is no way out. Moreover, the special protective nature of modern politics has been infected among writers, so a kind of realistic struggle is popularized, all based on small gangs, and small grievances are formed by isolation, and confrontations are fought. Or merge with commercial technology, according to the needs, exchange advice, flaunt the same way, in an attempt to monopolize the market. Or create rumors on the news of the literary world, overturn dissidents, and try to take advantage of the moment. In the context of the reality of this uncertainty of change and uncertainty, human experiments are naturally intensified by it. In order to adapt to the environment, it is more necessary to be sharp-eyed and fast, and to be able to ignore this. There were those who cursed each other yesterday and shook hands and talked happily today. There was a majestic discussion just published today, and everyone was worried about his safety, but the next day he had become some old man. There is also a side that also operates as a dance studio manager, a casino keeper, very good at it, and on the other hand, he also writes love poems with green fountain pens and revolutionary poems with red water pens. ...... In short, there are all kinds of strange things and everything. Literature, by these people, is nothing more than a tool or decoration for development and survival. If it is only a tool or a decoration, it is lively and not serious, and nature sows some evil seeds that will affect the future of society. It is a pity that some young friends who are ready to write, accustomed to this atmosphere, can not but learn to write while learning to send funerals and birthdays. At that time, individuals wrote with a sincere and cautious attitude, and there was no shortage of people whose achievements were enough to see themselves. But as soon as you arrive at the group, it is inevitably empty. The more powerful the group is, the more empty the sector becomes.

The cultural movement has changed from individual free competition to a competition for the power and money of party groups or booksellers, and the bosses have printed popular literature yesterday for the purpose of competing for business, and tomorrow they will advocate the education of children and women. For writers, the principle of not spending money is always based on the principle of reducing the cost of goods, which is in line with the principles of economics. However, for the sake of business, each book printed out can still see a large advertisement appears, which does not stimulate the author, thinking that there is always a reader who can't get money. As for politics, there are both the kind of people who use the names of writers as members of the committee, and of course literature, so that one day, at the literary night meeting in the capital, the number of writers attending is four or five hundred. And there are a lot of women writers. Afterwards, the newspaper also vividly recounted the various things in this night meeting, thinking that both the person and the beautiful wife were present, which increased the happy and progressive air of the night party. One of the dignitaries is actually an old friend who lived with me in a small apartment in Beiping, has been a writer for more than ten years, and has not yet printed a small collection. That is, to sue me for being an activist for politics, that is, power. After the night meeting, the four hundred writers who usually appeared in this "magic hand laying eggs" seemed to have suddenly disappeared, and they had never heard of any works reported again. What does this reality symbolize, is the hilarity a step forward, or a slight hope of progress? Reality is not terrible for some people, but it is really bad for the younger generation. It turns out that a new kind of corruption has spread to this sector, and everything is like a drama, embellishing politics. No wonder the term "literature is propaganda" doesn't feel strange to anyone. ...... The villagers felt that they had seen enough and learned enough in Shanghai in the past three years, so they returned to Beiping and disappeared again into the crowd of 1.5 million citizens. I understand that I have only completed the second part of the road, and there is still a new long lonely trek to be completed slowly. Compared with the business and politics of Shanghai and Nanjing, the former may also supervise me, encourage me, climb to a new peak, get close to nature, and understand life.

　　I thought that the writer was not precious, but the valuable one should be that he could produce works. The work may not be as valuable as it is, but his achievements or enough to set a higher standard for the new literary movement, to create some progressive facts: on the one hand, it is enough to stimulate more writers, have the courage to make all kinds of new efforts and adventures, and on the other hand, it is enough to infiltrate the work into the grandeur and depth of feelings, which can cause a general and good impact on the reader.

　　Therefore, of course, a writer cannot have the identity of a writer alone, that is, use this identity to become a cleaner of realpolitik, or a social flower of ordinary society. It is necessary to engage in scientific or literary and historical work in general, to engage in a long period of silence and devotion, and to have the same record of exemplary qualifications in a rigorous and persistent attitude and in outstanding achievements. There are many careers or occupational departments, and those who do not forget the way out and do not forget the utilitarian, can get more and more convenient opportunities in other departments, do not have to engage in literature, do not have to be a writer. The politically responsible cannot support the normal development of this sector, so they have to abandon it, just as they have abandoned schooling, and leave it to the liberals to develop freely under the sun and the air. (Education also contains some rights, the state must spend money, but literature, but almost completely fulfill the obligation, want the government to give freedom, not money!) This view is extremely natural and fits the needs of the facts. However, there was already a trend of monopoly in politics at that time, and there were also those who walked like writers and ate like writers, and the manuscripts must be printed on the manuscript paper as "×× creative manuscripts", and the business cards must be printed as "×× literary members". Therefore, the air that can be made in the government and the opposition is still reasonable to put writers in propaganda organizations as subordinates. Any effort to violate this trend is close to a waste of energy and does not know reality. Terms such as "national literature" and "reporting novel" came into being. The activities of many people are therefore consistent with Chinese official politics, and after the principle plan is proposed, it usually causes a debate, and after the debate, it ends and there is no further follow-up. It is precisely because empty words are easy to be lively and difficult to see good, and they argue with each other for nouns and wrongs, so they become more and more intense. When there is no dispute, the same group must also compete for a name of who belongs, who invents, who leads, in order to increase the lively atmosphere of the cultural movement. It is really like the so-called "vain people fight for the year, and the latter wins", although fierce and long-lasting, it is not conducive to real progress and can be imagined! The emptiness behind the liveliness is visible to a discerning person.

　　The literary movement cannot be separated from commercial bidding and political competition, and from practical work to propaganda extravagance, to the funeral ceremony, all of which are inevitable. In this circulation of ethos, writers who can create adorned the scenery of the "era" naturally have no hope of producing excellent works that can withstand the cultivation of time. There are already many writers who play with nouns and re-indulge in nouns, and I have to compete with that minority. The work may be slightly more troublesome than others, dull, need to remain simple and rigorous, from all aspects of learning to try this pen, in order to break through the predecessors and surpass themselves. It is inevitable that work is free from theoretical disputes and beyond ordinary successes and failures. That is, the way of expression of the work also has to be sought out from outside the habit, discovered, expanded, recreated, and formed a new freedom requirement, so it tries to rediscover from the historical legend, and the decay of the Buddhist scriptures in the metaphorical prohibitions, but also tries to use a lyrical way, to deal with it again, to see if it can still be renewed. Stylistic fixations such as 骈文和 偈語 also tried to dissolve it entirely and re-spell it with the slang colloquial language to prove that it could not produce a new effect. I also had to take evidence from more people and scenery in different places, so I left Beijing again, and went around Wuhan and Qingdao for three years. In particular, the silent education obtained in Qingdao in two years, from the long walks on the sunny coast, the clouds and sea waters on the sea side, and the wreckage of the snails and clams washed by the waves, is more concrete than all the theories of the world. However, the way of working is not only outside the standards suggested by the theories and works of the literary movement in the government and the public, but also never attaches much importance to the profession of food delivery, so I am close to complete failure in the general life.

　　However, the faith and hope for work are becoming clearer. In terms of work achievements, I understand that there is no hope of becoming a good writer, but in terms of work attitude, I hope to be worthy of a pen in my hand, and a group of admirers who have a few mentors and friends for the goodwill expectations of this pen.

　　After the northeast fell into the hands of the Japanese, the enemy forces were approaching, and Pingjin and North China had a tendency to specialize. For the sake of the country's tomorrow, in the northwest or in Shandong, Henan, everything must be restarted, and the problem is not trivial. Those who have a heart will admit that when the central forces completely withdraw, writing will become the only weapon in North China to resist the strong neighbors and strengthen themselves. Over the age of thirty, the personality and temperament have become stereotyped, or helpless, and there is a growing child and a young man, to be injected with a little national feelings and courage. As a result, several teachers and friends were entrusted by an institution related to national defense to compile basic reading materials for students in North China. Start in elementary school and gradually complete it. The person who brought these teaching materials to the Shida University and the Affiliated Elementary School for experiments was the president of a national university, and for the confirmation of his ideals, he deliberately resigned from that solemn post and accepted such an ordinary job. The title of a countryman should be the assistant of a Chinese language teacher in a certain primary school. (Also an assistant is the head of the Chinese Language Department of a prestigious university in China!) According to the activists of politics, that is, power, this trade-off is not clever and calculated. However, the countrymen honestly and silently walked on the third section of the road, and continued to work in one place with a few good teachers and friends for four years, which was very simple and pleasant.

　　In the process of competing for slogans and nouns, the south, with Shanghai as the center, has achieved an achievement of "essay above all else". However, the achievement seems to be only a conclusion, the conclusion and there is a locality, there is a time, once you leave Shanghai, after two or three years, the liveliness and liveliness will be unsustainable, and there is nothing to pursue. In Nanjing, the literary night party is also lively and lively! In Beiping, it is really as a certain "cultural brother" said, dead and dull. If people are scattered, they cannot see a leading group.

　　Beliefs in work are fought separately, each bowing its head to seek and learn, and it is still a set of old feelings, hiding the famous mountain, passing it on to others, separated from the masses, and detached from reality. Of course, a certain "cultural brother" is a kind of truth. But it's just the real side, because this dead and the relative liveliness, once a long time passes, for example, three or four years, it will be a little different in comparison. Of course, the achievements in the South are also great. The only popular language, Latinization, etc., which attracted attention at the moment, seemed to be only a political effect, leaving a collection of polemics, and after the bustle, it was abandoned. In short, if the group and the achievement are in opposite proportions, the larger the group, the less the achievement. Therefore, in Nanjing, we have only left one impression, that is, the "night meeting" followed by "nothingness". However, in the north, in the so-called dead and dead cities, a group of powerful and energetic writers slowly grew. Cao Yu, Lu Yan, Bian Zhilin, Xiao Qian, Lin Huiyin, Li Jianwu, He Qifang, Li Guangtian... It is during this period that people have become familiar with it, and they are familiar not only with their names, but also with the excellent works produced by them with a humble attitude! Because in the situation of wandering and not adhering to each other, there is a similar attitude, competing for performance, freely competing for performance from a broad principle. To acknowledge another fact, is to allow "time" more just than empty theory to cultivate liquidation and prove what will be destroyed and what can exist. Although this development is slow and clumsy, the far-reaching impact is still useful, and the average person can also see it. When it comes to this work of supporting education, the ta kung Pao's ideal of literary supplements, the attitude of Mr. Zhu Guangqian, Wen Yiduo, Zheng Zhenduo, Ye Gongchao, and Zhu Ziqing in presiding over the literature department of the university, and the attitude of Ba Jin and Zhang Jin in hosting large-scale publications, the joint contributions are unforgettable.

　　Unfortunately, the work was too late to carry out a bigger unfolding, and the war came. All the nerdy ideals, the wealth and power of others, and the warm dreams of the younger generation for life and career, also lost their meaning in an instant. So everyone was silent and silent next to the big stove in a compound, destroyed all the materials and achievements for several years, and hurriedly left Beiping, through central and southwest China, into Yunnan. Although reality destroys everything, it does not destroy the ideal of the individual.

　　It's not the end, it's just the beginning of a new learning. After defeating the battle, the country will be established, and the work of this department will always need to be cautiously carried out with solemn respect. Work is laborious and hard to see good. In the case of people abandoning me and taking meaning, of course, I still have to use this pen to learn from learning and continue.

　　After arriving in Yunnan, we are close to a new real society. One of the characteristics of this society, that is, as far as the eyes and ears can see, is infiltrated by the legal tender air caused by the war. Although the original thick and simple nature of the place is still retained in most educated families, it is fashionable with material activities, but it is decorated to the surface of society. There is a lot of freedom in the sun, so the prickly cactus is often entangled with some beautiful and easy-to-thank morning glory, and the silver-green poisonous spiders that weave webs in between, coexisting and thriving with each other. The real scene also contains a metaphor, that is, in a particularly warm climate, noble ideals can grow and rot can flourish. The desire of the minority to dominate has not only been given a full opportunity for development and accumulated thousands of unjust wealth, but also the desire of the minority to lead needs to find a way out and obtain a number of mass trusts. The two are supposedly opposed to each other and are not easy to mix, but they do not know how to come, but they suddenly turn to each other, water and milk, rich and powerful such as a certain warlord bureaucrat, suddenly interested in abstraction, pretending to be a group of people who pursue abstraction, that is, ignoring the current problems. Thus the place suddenly became a greenhouse for democracy in a short period of time. Everywhere you can hear people's devotion to democracy, true or false, but it is not appropriate to ask too much. The living room of the bank was covered with ugly calligraphy and paintings of celebrities in the capital, and in this kind of living room, some other celebrity writers were invited to give repeated speeches. In this greenhouse, pure intellectuals who have truly contributed to scholarship and who can stand up to their lives are all impoverished and starved in the meager treatment of the state and the exploitation of rising prices, and do not know how to live. Some of the accommodations were rushed around. Little attention has also been paid to their importance in wartime and peacetime to the society of the country, or to the ability to seek redress from all aspects, both public and private. A small part has no special contribution in knowledge, and there are some problems with man, which is not quite active in the other special sense, but is quite important in this delicate relationship. Or on the contrary, or they are mutually exclusive, so there are editorials of international fans, discussions that tickle each other, lectures on the new eight strands, and patchwork propositions everywhere. If everything is extremely lively and enthusiastic, behind it is a case of a rather contradictory variety of opportunities. All the opportunities for the germination and rooting of ideals depend on a reality that is contrary to the ideal. Therefore, those who are teachers of man are promoting noble principles on the one hand, and on the other hand, they are acknowledging and supporting some not-so-noble realities. Some young friends, breathing this kind of air, become a mixture of contradictions. Most of the poor children still retain the simplicity and purity of the countryside, which is very cute; the children of officials and businessmen, on the one hand, never refuse the ill-gotten gains they have obtained from their families, buy atomic pens to learn to dance, and think that after fashionable people do not fall behind, they also participate in the recitation of poetry evenings, so as not to fall behind in their thinking. Because of the momentary excitement, everything seems to be negated, and the excitement is followed by silence, and what seems to be fully acknowledged. On the one hand, society is like this, and on the other hand, there are some people who seem to be outside the bitterness of the times, but they are also in the misery of the times. That is to say, some intellectuals usually promise themselves with Confucianism, have intricately entangled feelings of self-esteem and inferiority, are lonely and uncomfortable, and think of themselves, that is, they have given up the rational attitude of "the son does not speak strangely and chaotically", listened to the residual religious emotions in his life, and changed into openly chanting mantras for people and exorcising demons. There are also people who, from all kinds of hints, promote the children in the family to see the ghosts in the daytime, and in the small group, they incite each other and infect each other. All the forms of the past theocracy and sorcery era were reborn in robes and dresses. The lama who had been hidden in Dian, dressed in a scarlet and yellow satin robe, rode in the jeep of the director of a certain committee member and rode around the streets, and many good men and women who were knowledgeable and ignorant prostrated their heads at the dafa king's station, asking for some spiritual blessings in the transmission of the Fa. (These people could never have imagined that the living Buddha of the Zhongdian Great Temple was the only local clock repairman!) Probably this also distracted some democratic beliefs, so there came "politics", and there were almost miraculous legends of "national special" activities, which were spread out in each other's greetings. ...... Try to do it: "Everything is like a drama, embellishing politics." Everything is like a dream, and there is no way to be serious. Behind all reality, behind the emptiness. Analyze it carefully and increase compassion. "All that is alive, in resisting, adapting to, and bearing the abstract concrete pressures that come from war, sees all kinds of illusions of the circle, and before the dissolution of the visible regime, it must be the same.

　　Because the war has been too long, everyone's life is hard and dull, and the state affairs are very bad, making people feel even more desperate about realpolitik, and many people cannot support their nerves, and they have lost their original flexibility, so that they can find a new balance between the physical and mental sides in different ways. From the depths, all of this is not surprising. But from the depths of the same, the fragmentation and freezing of the "democratic greenhouse" has become an ice cellar, which is a matter of intention. This greenhouse is expected to nurture a certain abstraction of health, making it weather the wind, rain, frost and snow, but it may also produce wild artemisia nettle. The special reproductive nature of the latter, and will be more likely to spread in a short period of time, so that the ground to form a phenomenon of desolation, is also intentional. The country people appreciate the reality in this complex and multi-faceted reality, and in the process of replying, they recognize the reality and simply live for nine years. During this time, I have great respect for the friends who can change themselves and rebuild themselves to adapt to the times, pursue ideals, and finally be destroyed by the claws of those in power. But for those more colleagues who use complete silence to bear the suffering inflicted on them by the war and the setbacks in their work, they are sometimes misunderstood by young people, and if they use silence to deny this reality, they have the same respect. For their death, their immortality, has its solemnity and sorrow. And the burden of the living, and its significance, has a particularly significant impact on the country's tomorrow. I understand, I remember, that this is also an education for me.

　　This is the fourth journey of the countrymen, quite long, rather lonely, rather bitter. But he still accepted it with the simple attitude of the first lesson of learning reality in the first place. In particular, two years before the end of the war, a new technique of vertical and horizontal, which was being adopted by the second and third sons of so-and-so, was slandering and attacking me during the difficult period of my material and spiritual life. On the other hand, part of my work is destroyed by a foolish and ignorant censorship system. Several of the most personal relatives and friends, and because they could not withstand the pressure of life imposed by the long war, were destroyed one after another under different circumstances. From the perspective of ordinary people, I still seem to have no resistance, no way to save, and I seem to be indifferent. However, in the process of accepting all this with silence, at least one person in the family understands that this is for myself, so I do not change my attitude of giving, and what kind of hard struggle and war is used!

　　In the meantime, the map of the world changed. This change before and after, where the underground resources are concentrated, where the people are concentrated, where the commercial re-exports, where the military strategy must be contested, and where the vast oceans and skies are boundless, there is also death and bloodshed made of steel bursting. The meaning of its continued existence is invariably different. Even in the case of China, the tangible situation and the invisible people's hearts have not also changed greatly? That is, in the case of the countrymen themselves, the teeth are out, the hair is spent, and as for the personal beliefs, it seems to use all this as a test, indicating that it seems to be stubborn and rigid, hopeless.

　　All I can say is that it comes off because it's not strong, listen to it take it off. What is destroyed is fragile, and it has to be destroyed with it. If you give something in pursuit of reality, if you know how to adapt to reality, life may be much better, at least the relative who is mad from unemployment can hope to be saved. But my work is about to lose its meaning completely. A person has a limit of one person, and the gentleman and leopard change is hopeless, I am afraid that it is close to a fate, and it is out of touch with the reality of this group competing for fish in muddy waters. It's a kind of war! That is, willing to live a life to an uncontrollable degree, anxious, striving for a simple principle of being a human being, not taking the wrong way, to deny the struggle of modern forces that simplify people's minds. I have to be human, I have to work, two and one, inseparable. My job is to explain the past, to explain the present, and whether it will contribute to the future, and the pedantic stubbornness of the positive and the individual will all be handed over to history.

　　If the country is being played with by a group of children's great people, the big fire and the small burn are expected. Although the result of the fire-players in history is often to burn others and burn themselves at the same time, at present, all those who have weapons of force are afraid that they will not use the past to learn from the present. But later, it is likely that everything will turn into a pile of ash, leaving some widows and orphans, and... But at that time, the young generation, to survive, to develop, there will always be a day to find another way! This path must be an education beyond "competition", to reinterpret the meaning of the word "politics" with love and cooperation, and in this vision, and in the hope of expanding efforts, the rebirth, progress and prosperity of a country will slowly come to the world! At present, in tomorrow, if we hope that those minds that are growing up, before they are rigid and hardened, can still have a some negative effect on reality, and have the courage to explore that they can recast abstractions, literature seems to be able to do something, to give them encouragement, to inspire, to ensure that they can also hope to have a hope and courage, tomorrow on this pile of bones and bones made by emotional condensation and cannibalism, to accept the poverty and misery brought about by the protracted civil war, and to rebuild a more reasonable country!

　　I came back, back to the big city of Beijing, which I had known for nine years and had been acquainted for twenty-five years. Everything is different, everything is the same. In a way, the various kinds of warlords, politicians, parliamentarians, and bureaucrats of twenty years ago have become obsolete, they have become a thing of the past. This narrative of the past, for a young friend of about twenty years old, that is, it is close to an unbelievable and bizarre myth, does not seem to be a real person who really has his own things. But from another point of view, all the weaknesses that have historically affected the greed and ignorance of mankind, as well as all the weaknesses that have been cultivated successfully in modern politics in the past thirty years and the slave rule of the past eight years, seem to have disappeared in the end, but it seems that after a compressive effect, it is still well preserved, and the slightest opportunity will inevitably slowly expand and restore the old view. If you are not careful, these invisible and insubstantial things that are highly poisonous can be unconsciously transmitted to young people with weak nerves and physical defects and particularly fragile resistance. There are about several characteristics of the infection, one of which is that the mind is simplified and unified, always like in hypnosis, life is aimless and idealless, and after growing up and studying abroad to read ten thousand books, there is no way to relieve the numbness. On the other hand, the mind is organized a little differently, and according to the way my old acquaintances move, he becomes a little Mr. Warwick, familiar with worldly philosophy, hand-held leather bags, polished up and down, identity and soul are much the same, and there is still no purpose and no confidence in life. ...... When it comes to this typical person, if we look at it from the perspective of the use of a novel, we should say that this is not very cute, nor is it abominable. I appreciate both complexity and simplicity, and I will work with them from appreciation. But if we think about it from the point of view of an ordinary person, if a country has some institutions, some people, and is creating such friends who can appear in all scenes, will we feel a little pain and danger for this country?

　　Although the difficulties encountered by the country are multifaceted, the political atmosphere and tendencies to pursue reality, superstitiously believe in reality, and rely on reality should bear more responsibility, and the current ominous situation in the country is formed, prolonged, and expanded. Everyone knows that there is no way to deal with the aftermath in this way, but there is still no real opportunity for a turnaround, and it is a tragedy of national suicide to be widely consumed by the national strength. Is it possible to hope that this tragedy will be remedied from a conceptual reconstruction of the design? Individuals think that reality, although it is a powerful giant, will not only dominate the present, but also form the future. For example, the great achievements of human beings produced by the combination of enthusiasm and reason, when they come into contact with it, may collapse and become a useless accumulation. However, we still have to admit that the only hope that solidifying reality, decomposing reality, denying reality, and recreating reality will remain that immeasurable and invisible idea! Starting from the mind, using the light and heat of life to accumulate and synthesize all kinds of beautiful principles, using various materials to express and process, glue each other, integrate with each other, infect each other, and slowly form a new potential energy, a new order of vision to replace. If intellectuals lack this confidence, then our country can really be said to be finished!

　　Everyone says that Peking is the brain of China, because many people can think and can effectively inject knowledge and reason into the healthy minds of the younger generation. The demobilization of the school shows that this mind will once again take on the responsibility of review and reflection. Looking at the examination of 30,000 students this year, it is advisable to make people pay special attention to how this mind is used.

　　The sky in Peiping is still so touchingly blue, and the sun is clear and the air is so fresh. Occasionally walking by outside the door of an organ, seeing the flag with a blue sky and a red sun, it always seems to have a little symbolic meaning, which inevitably makes some people feel a little worried in their hearts, and gives others some hope in it. These worries and hopes are reflected in the mood of ordinary citizens, or disappear in an instant and injected into the minds of young students, which will obviously have an effect. There are currently nearly 20,000 college students in Beiping City, and their emotional depression is more serious than the hardships of life, and it seems that no one has yet thought of it and must be sorted out. The absence of effective arrangements, or the absence of any return, is not a blessing for the nation, but prolongs the tragedy. The term "academic freedom" has been re-called very loud in this area, which shows how much hope is pinned on the people of other countries. Although the noun is quite empty, the fulfillment of the principle should actually allow and encourage the newly developed mind, blowing into a little fresh, lively, free and independent air. Make it more responsible for its current and future. To be able to get rid of the natural habit of dependence, the compulsive habit of enslavement and anesthesia, to dare to doubt, dare to deny, and to criticize all abstractions that use force to support the marketing. If this kind of species is still close to a taboo at present, it involves too many efforts to get rid of unnecessary taboos, which should be something that Peking's mind can do, and it is also something that the literary and ideological movement to be developed must bear.

　　The night is quiet, the sky is clear, and the night scene made of a brilliant starlight is indescribably solemn and beautiful. From common sense, we know that the formation of each starlight is actually far away, scattered and lonely, and never matched. However, although these stars exist in different ways, they are still bound and attracted by an unknowable willpower, thus forming their own complex cosmic magnificence. The human scene is no different. Reviewing the past, contemplating the present, and hanging on to the future, when the countrymen examine the simple enthusiasm and obscure faith that they have maintained in their personal lives, they have used this work for twenty-five years, and when they look around, they look around, and all they can see is what seems to be nothing more than a silhouette. However, in the face of this nothingness, it is not a sense of sadness, but rather causes a serious feeling of cherry blossoms remembering the scenes made in cultural history by human enthusiasm and wisdom, the stars are scorching and dazzling, and how their lives are freed from reality, trapped in isolation and isolation, a kind of religious believer's devotion to conversion, turned into a spontaneous birth.

　　I, the countryman, seem to have to start taking the third leg. The old people said, "Virtue is not alone, but there will be neighbors." Proving the past and speculating about the future, this silent and lasting trek, that is, there will never be an end, and there will always be people who will continue to walk at the same time or in different generations! Go for another ten or eight years, and maybe you have to put down your pen and take a long rest. "A large piece of labor to live, rest me to die." Playing with Mengzhuang's words makes people increase their composure. Twenty years of study have assumed the title of a "prolific writer", and the title inevitably contains some ironic meanings, which are even more ominous if compared with the opposite achievements of activists. But just think, if there are thirty or fifty honest writers in China in the past twenty years or so, who can forget the general successes and failures and are willing to share this title, even for the current chaotic society, there is no way to actively participate in the transformation, nor can they passively participate in mediation, but for one of the ideals of the literary movement, each of them has left something behind, as a reference for latecomers, or much richer than the achievements of the current department. The conversation with my relative twenty-five years ago is still in my life, in my faith. Twenty-five years ago I came to this big city to read some books, and I didn't read much of a good book written in words, and I still read the big book written in human affairs. Now I'm sent to teach again. To tell the truth, if books were limited to one kind written in words, my profession would be close to a mockery of dignity scholarship. Because the country's human resources are no longer scarce, it is not appropriate to let a person who does not learn to use books written outside the text to talk nonsense. However, I did not feel bad about the blasphemy of scholarship when I came here. Because the first time I was sent to school, it was Mr. Hu Shizhi, the host of Peking University. In 1929, when he was the principal of a public school in China, he gave me this opportunity. This bold attempt can also be said to be the second episode of Mr. Shizhi's attempt, because it does not affect my subsequent work, but more importantly, it affects my attitude towards work, and the effect that this attitude slowly causes when it is extended to domestic acquaintances or strange teachers and friends. This role is the healthy development of "liberalism" in the literary movement and its achievements. If this point still needs to be expanded, it is worth expanding, let me come to Peking University to do a small thing, it must have its significance, personal gains and losses are not enough, and the attempt to renew will also have a good future from this way.

　　But a month after returning here, I felt a deep fear at the invitation to visit the strange and familiar friend and student, and in the publication of the various interviews full of kindness and humor. Peking is known as the Chinese mind, and this mind is precious and should include the accumulation of rich and profound knowledge of experts from various departments. In the words of a university, those who deserve our respect, those who study geology, those who study materiae, those who govern economic politics, those who engage in education and law, even those who are in the department of literature and history, and all kinds of knowledge are extremely important. As for Xi literature, it is only a small department in the school, and it is not reasonable to pay too much attention to it and ignore it. Writers related to literature, although they have the obligation to educate and entertain the majority of readers in the past twenty years, have enjoyed some abstract rights, that is, the majority of love and trust. If compared to scholars, it seems to be particularly important. This is really an illusion in society. This illusion is due to a despair of current politics, not a genuine intellectual concern for scholarship. For in the present situation, in a situation where politics is above all else, all those who use force to sell doctrine to the upper ruling are said to be for the people, but in fact there is no love or sympathy for the people in the opposition. In the midst of attempts to turn the gang into a mediator, all the parties and factions that have campaigned for this purpose have also said that they are representing the masses, and when they analyze them carefully, they know that they are currently running, and they may become ministers and members of the State Council in the future, and there are a few people who have really done something for the masses in the past thirty years. When in the impression of the people. And have you ever used his work to have a self-observation in society? In terms of habit, in fact, if we really enrich the people's feelings and enhance the people's awakening, we are still a few writers in China who have thoughts, enthusiasm, and achievements. In a situation of desperation for reality, the writer thus gains the true love and trust of the masses in particular. However, if a writer has an understanding of the existence and development of the country, he will inevitably feel that work has an impact, and the individual really does not deserve special attention from the masses. And it is necessary to work hard to transfer the hope of the majority to the one who is in the classroom, in the laboratory, in the workplace, in all respects, as if silent, from all kinds of setbacks and difficulties with a simple attitude to defend themselves, trying to explore the experts and scholars who study, and the work done for the survival and development of the country and the nation is huge and permanent. The reason why a writer is valuable is that he takes the same silent and humble attitude as these people, engages in work, and can particularly expound this concept of loyalty to knowledge and respect for knowledge. This is what I learned in school from outside the books, and it is also a literary theory to be developed.

　　I hope to use this conclusion to learn from all my friends who write for the ideal of faith. From this conclusion, we can also see how a countryman learns from reality, and finally seems to be disconnected from reality, a deeper meaning and reason!