The movie "Who Fell in Love with Him First" tells a love story, and there are more stories about ethics and social identity than love, just because here a couple of men are in love. The story starts from the insurance claim after Song Zhengyuan's death, on the one hand is Song Zhengyuan's wife and children, on the other hand, Song Zhengyuan's lover Ajie. In the lives of the three characters in the film, there is a common protagonist Song Zhengyuan, who was once a husband, a father, and a lover, and in the different memories of the three of them, a man's love and affection, once choices, hesitations, wandering and reluctance were gradually revealed.
Visually, the film pays particular attention to portraying Ajay's home, that is, Ajay's living space, such as narrow corridors, dim lights, dilapidated furniture, and a cluttered home that does not even have a place to get off. And this was once the place where Song Zhengyuan lived on the last journey of his life. Here is Ajay's nostalgia for Song Zhengyuan - a book that can't bear to put away, the ringtone of the mobile phone that has not been replaced, and even every corner of the room seems to have his voice and smile.
In fact, there are more important things than life in the life of Ajay Hanger Lang Dang - the performance of the small theater, with a dream, eager to one day go on stage to show his carefully rehearsed stage play to the world, and hope to mourn his lover Song Zhengyuan, who is no longer alive.
And Liu Sanlian, as Song Zhengyuan's wife, first as an abandoned wife, pulls her son who is in adolescence alone, she not only silently bears the reality of not being loved in marriage, but also has to deal with her son's psychological and behavioral rebellion. Although it was difficult, she was still strong enough to cope with all this, but life still gave her a fatal blow, and when she learned that the beneficiary of her husband's insurance claim was an outsider, she broke down. She didn't understand why she, or even her son, was inferior to a junior outside of marriage. She rushed into Ajay's house with fighting spirit and courage, but she did not think that this step of hers was the beginning of the deterioration of their mother-son relationship. However, the son can abandon the mother fiercely, but the mother cannot bear to ignore the son, even if the son lives in the small three homes she believes, she still takes care of her son's living and eating as always. This is the kindness of a woman, but also the humility and helplessness of a woman as a mother, even if she is rejected by her son to the extreme, she must insist on performing her mother's duties.
Song Chengxi, as the son of Liu Sanlian and Song Zhengyuan, grew up under the love of his father and mother when he was a child, and in the face of his father's sudden departure from home, which accelerated the rebellion of his adolescence, he did not understand the enmity and resentment between his parents, nor did he understand the financial pressure that his mother endured in order to cultivate him. He just wanted to find out why the little king could take his father away from him, and subconsciously he wanted to find his father's shadow in the little king. Therefore, these two people who had no relationship temporarily lived under one roof, and for this reason, he gradually learned about Xiao Wang and his dreams, and even his father's ideals.
The facts gradually surfaced, everyone knew that Ajie was not the little king that Liu Sanlian said in his mouth, and he was a lover who had long been in love with Song Zhengyuan, but later Song Zhengyuan faced the pressure of the world, chose to return to reality, marry and have children, even if these were not his willingness, he also did his duty to treat his wife, and he was really heartbroken for his son, but there was still an indelible spark in his heart that beckoned him, and he never dared to face it, until he learned that he had cancer. After leaving all his property to his wife and children, he resolutely moved to Ajay, and Ajay did not bother him for more than ten years, and after coming to him when his lover was seriously ill, he did everything he could to take care of him, and even borrowed a loan shark, but his efforts did not return his lover's life, and in the end he was still alone to enjoy a lonely life.
In the face of facts, all the contradictions are frozen, and they have learned to bear their own inner pain alone, and gradually understand that they should go to their own lives and not disturb each other's lives. After Liu Sanlian and her son's concern became better, she gradually stopped dwelling on the fact that her husband never loved him. And after Ajay performed the stage play he gave to his lover as he wished, after silent mourning, he was finally able to face life again, because in his life there was a mother who loved him deeply no matter what. After experiencing all this, Song Chengxi grew up, he understood his father's deep love for him, not changed by the changes in his parents' relationship, he also learned to accept his mother and face life calmly.
In the era when Ajie and Song Zhengyuan loved each other, same-sex love was not recognized by society, and they could only hide their true selves and strive to become the same people as the public. With the development of society, Taiwan announced the legalization of same-sex marriage on May 24, 2017, and from May 24, 2019, same-sex couples will be allowed to marry under the Marriage Chapter of the Civil Law, which actually gives many people hope and future. At present, there is no such law in the country to protect the marriage and rights and interests of the same sex, and this love has not been accepted in the popular concept, so their love can only be humble and hidden. Hopefully, one day they will be able to walk in the light without having to face the words and accusations of others.