#冬日生活打卡季 #
Today is the 6th day of work, and I finally had a normal lunch at a normal time point. I should have been the most normal of this should have been, and now I have to be thankful for Dade. It is said that ten years of Hedong, ten years of Hexi, life is really feng shui rotation. Maybe when the direction of the direction has shifted, the only constant is their firm heart and full of hope for the future.
If people are divided into 2 kinds, one is positive energy and the other is negative energy, then my grandmother must be negative energy. In my memory, my grandmother was always complaining about life, and she never had any satisfaction or good wishes for the future. Obviously, she is a very kind and clean old lady, but everywhere she goes, she will be rejected by others.
Go to my aunt's house, and my aunt and my uncle will fight each other. Go to my second aunt's house, my second aunt and I, the second uncle almost divorced. I went to my second aunt's brother's house, and my brother beat up my brother's daughter-in-law. You might think it's a coincidence, and I thought so when I was younger.
I think an old man is in your house, you. You just have to remember the obligation of shooting yang, buy her beautiful clothes every day, make good food, and sometimes take her around. But you forget one of the most important things: our inability to meet or unilaterally meet the spiritual needs of an old man.
My grandfather died when my mother was very young, so my grandmother has always been a person, and she has taken turns in the families of these daughters. But basically, after my grandmother left every home, she would reflect some bad state. I didn't understand it when I was very young until I'm older now.
My grandmother had a strong negative energy, and she would cry out in front of her children about her misfortunes. She will transfer all her negative energy and sad emotions to the emotions of others. Maybe she didn't mean it, maybe she just instinctively, maybe she just didn't mean it.
I once read a book written by Mr. Mo Yan, "Qiqiao", which is probably called this name or related to this. I think many of the qualities of this heroine are very similar to my grandmother.
When I grew up, I read a lot of books on psychology and spirituality, and I had 2 to 3 years, which was brought up by my grandmother. In those years, my parents were very busy in business, and my grandmother took care of me for two years. I was probably in the fourth or fifth grade of elementary school, and because I was very young at that time, I couldn't understand my grandmother's negative energy and what she cried about every day.
I just remember that my grandmother cried every day, took a small handkerchief, and cried like a yellow plum opera. Every time my grandmother cried I couldn't help but laugh because she really acted like a singer. With that classic line: "Why is my life so bitter?" It's hard to be old, it's hard to be old, who's old to me that day. ”
At that time, I only felt that I wanted to laugh in that kind of crying voice, and the lines were classic and unchanged. My parents' married life was also very turbulent at that time, and my parents always quarreled. Every time my parents quarreled, my grandmother would not persuade her, she would only cry there. My brother and I were too young, and at that time, I just thought it would be better to go to the mountains to play for a while, and it was very sad to hear my grandmother's crying and my parents' quarrel.
The young age made me develop an indifferent personality, from the initial fear of my parents arguing, to the fact that I later became accustomed to it, and then I and my brother could play happily. Think of this kind of routine quarrel as a kind of drinking water and eating.
Now think about how sad it is!! My grandmother actually has a lot of choices, she can choose a better life. Maybe in the years after my grandfather's death, she could choose to be self-reliant, reclaim the land, and lead her children to a better life.
Later, my great-aunt, my second aunt, and my mother said to me, "Not only did your grandmother not reclaim the land, but she did not work hard to live." On the contrary, I got into some bad old singles, and this old single stick is still very unruly, almost attacking your second aunt and aunt.
Your grandmother was frightened, and she married your eldest aunt and second aunt indiscriminately. So although my aunt is very rich, she is not particularly happy. My great-uncle was nearly 15 years older than my great-aunt, an authentic Liaoning native, and took my great-aunt away when he went to the northeast to do business. It is said that he gave my grandmother a dowry of 30,000 yuan more than 50 years ago, which was quite generous for that era.
My grandmother married my second aunt to a very wealthy local family, but the whole family had violent tendencies. Needless to say about my life after marriage, my second uncle often abused me. More than 40 years have passed since you, and my mother's marriage is not particularly happy.
My dad was a pension son-in-law, the kind of door-to-door son-in-law you watch on TV. Because my father's mouth was very sweet, he said to my grandmother, "Mom, I will raise you old, and you can rest assured that you will marry the third eldest of your family to me." I will definitely be good to you. ”
Then you said that my father's conditions are not bad in all aspects, but my mother has people who like me, and she doesn't call my father at all. Marriage without love may not have been divorced in that era and could have reached the end, but it would certainly not have been happy.
Maybe happiness and love were too extravagant for that era, just like Chanel now, high-end cosmetics can only be desecrated from a distance. After stumbling through the years, I gave birth to my brother and me.
At that time, my grandmother could not choose to rely on men, she could rely on herself, and at that time she was free to reclaim the land. Even if we are small feet, others reclaim two acres of land, we can reclaim one acre. As long as you can raise three children, isn't there hope for everything?
I remember my grandmother and I said a word, I don't know why, the memory is very deep. Sometimes don't label children casually, because that sentence may carry you for a lifetime and hinder your growth path.
"Xiao Jing, hit seven feet, it is difficult to ask for a foot." Don't fight with the sky, don't fight with the earth, just follow the fate when you have nothing to do. ”
At that time, I was still very young, I didn't understand it, and I only thought that this sentence was a bit sad. I also think that this sentence is a bit against the meaning of life. But the profound meaning is completely incomprehensible, and I only remember that I seemed to have a sharp mouth at the time:
Grandma, you're not right. Fate is in his own hands, and man will triumph over heaven. Our teacher said, our teacher said that studying well can change our destiny, all life is in our own hands, we have the initiative in our own life. ”
My grandmother seemed to understand, but she didn't seem to understand. Still holding her handkerchief, she cried like a yellow plum. The sentence that is still said: "Hit seven feet, it is difficult to ask for a foot." ”
I didn't continue arguing with my grandmother and ran out to play with my brother. It's just that that sentence has always been imprinted in my life, and I will think of it when I encounter difficulties, and I will remember it when I encounter setbacks. Therefore, our life is a process of non-stop learning, and we must achieve our own beautiful life by reading different books and witnessing different characters in the books.
Therefore, the matter of reading and learning should never stop, he is the same as our daily charging, we must constantly cheer ourselves up, and constantly instill knowledge. Slowly let yourself grow better, grow up like a small seedling, and need to constantly absorb nutrients.
And the nutrients of knowledge are basically in the book, you have to believe that the initiative of your entire life is absolutely in your own hands, and absolutely not in the hands of others, and every decision you make is said through your mouth.
Don't live in regret when you're okay, and make a brave challenge to every decision you make. You have to believe in yourself, every decision in your life, every initiative is right, even if it is wrong, it can be changed at any time.
There is also success in life is not only money can be replaced, your spiritual thinking to reach a certain thickness is also possible. Life is so long and there are so many possibilities, why can't there be more choices?
Remember not to be too heavy with negative energy, remember not to complain too much, and remember to be grateful for life. And where to fall, where to get up.
Well, today at noon and early in the morning, I'm going to work. In the afternoon, you may continue to take stocks, and it is 1,000 times better to write a manuscript for half an hour after eating every day than to stand there and get sleepy.
After we have eaten, all the blood will flow to the stomach to digest food, which will cause the blood to become viscous and eventually cause drowsiness. Every time you eat for half an hour or so, are you sleepy and can't open your eyes? If there is a condition, of course, you can take a lunch break, like ours who do not have the conditions for lunch break, it can be used to write articles or read books.
Of course, you must find a particularly noisy environment, or simply no one environment, otherwise others really think you are neurotic. It's a very noisy environment, because everyone is talking, you can immerse yourself in your own world, you can't hear other people talking, others can't hear you.
A particularly quiet environment, needless to say. If you want to write whenever and wherever, you must learn the phonetic input method, because this is really convenient and simple.
Is spending this sleepy time reading books and reading manuscripts a sublimation and a better encounter for one's life?
These two days to arrange a shift, they lack a store manager in this store, always want me to be the store manager. You must not think that my ability is more prominent, it is not like this at all. The store manager needs to work 26 days a month, only 4 days off, and she goes to work in the middle class. Whether it is a shopping mall or a manufacturer, everything is looking for you alone.
Maybe you will say that the salary is also more, more is really more, then do you know how much more he can? Only more than 1000 pieces. I think it's inappropriate to think about it with your toes.
And I have other things to do, after all, there are still two stores over there that haven't been transferred out, and there are three babies. If he can guarantee that I have an income of 20,000 yuan, I will reluctantly become the manager of this store. But do you think that's possible?
On Thursday, November 25, 2021, the weather in Beijing was sunny at 12:47 noon. South Korean sports brand Samsung Rapido Beijing store.
Essay (Personal Growth)