The Psychiatrist's Tale 001

The hilly area between Jianghuai and Huaihuai does not have the romance of mountains and forests, nor the vastness of the plains, but for farmers, there are crops that guarantee drought and flood.

　　Because of the geography and good water conservancy, during floods, heavy rains can run along the riverbed in all directions to the lake and sea. During the dry season, water can also be diverted through the riverbed in all directions. For the farmers of the seventies, although materially scarce, they were also full of security.

　　At that time, there were no roads in the countryside, there were no all electrical appliances, and even the lights at home were often cut off!

　　At that time, the countryside was full of mud-made houses, and almost every household had jumping noises and lice. Outdoors are full of pig manure, cow dung, chicken manure. Diligent people always get a treasure and collect it to fertilize their crops.

　　The sky was blue and the air was fresh. At that time, the countryside was almost everywhere, like a primitive society, living a life of sunrise and sunset...

　　In this pristine environment, until another harvest autumn, a pregnant woman in her forties gave birth to her fifth child...

　　This primitive mode of fertility was normal in those days, when women were like fertility machines, and it was common to have a child in one go for seventy or eighty or so.

　　In terms of parenting, they are closer to the stocking mode. Families with many children are afraid of losing it on a busy night, and they often use the moonlight to count...

　　Day after day, the four seasons rotate. The newborn soon reached school age accompanied by his sister.

　　On the day of enrollment, he came to the office and the class teacher asked him, "What's your name?" ”

　　However, he listened but did not know how to answer. Because his parents didn't give him an official name.

　　However, such embarrassing things were normal in that era, so the class teacher reacted at that moment and then asked, "What is your father's last name?" What is Mom's last name? ”

　　The stunned child listened to his question and immediately replied, "Daddy's surname is Ling, and Mom's surname is Feng..."

　　When the class teacher heard this, he smiled and said, "Then you will be called Ling Feng in the future..."

　　In this way, Ling Feng had his own name and became a primary school student.

　　On school days, though, he was quieter. In the years of elementary school, he also kept his grades in middle school, but he didn't know why he wanted to study. Because no one ever told him about it. And he never thought about who to ask.

　　In his heart, the reason why he read was because of the requirements of his parents and teachers. I feel that I am only reading to satisfy them and do not want to embarrass them...

　　As for why you want to read, what will you do to yourself in the future? Although the teacher said in class that Chengcai had become a scientist, Ling Feng had never been exposed to such words before, so the concept of Chengcai had no meaning to him. I think scientists are just doing things. But why do you want to do things? It seems to be the first question mark of his life...

　　Unexpectedly, starting with this question mark, he began to avoid learning. Perhaps because of the relaxation of his mentality, he often couldn't help but want to sleep in class. Although it is often unclear what the teacher is saying, whenever the teacher deliberately asks him a question, he can almost inexplicably answer it.

　　Therefore, let the teacher feel that he does not respect the teacher and deliberately class casually. The angry teacher began to punish him for being late to sleep...

　　Ling Feng did not do it on purpose, but it was also difficult to explain, and it was even more difficult to gain the trust of the teacher. Because of sleeping in class, this is something that any teacher can hardly tolerate. What's more, the teacher later found his family because of this incident...

　　Under the pressure of two-way punishment, although Ling Feng barely perked up, his heart was still dead. This mentality of forced learning, allowing him to take classes, do homework, test scores, almost all the purposes, as if to escape the pain of punishment ...

　　Until later, with the realization of growing up, he himself also found that something was wrong, and he thought that he often deserted and slept, although he often did not understand, but whether it was a teacher's question or an exam, why could he be stable in the upper middle?

　　Although this question made him start to study seriously, he did not expect that in order to explain his behavior, he used the intensity of his serious study on extracurricular books to find answers!

　　In this way, Ling Feng, who was absent-minded and studying hard, did not come into contact with psychology books under the influence of his classmates until the second semester of the second semester of junior high school.

　　Later he was curious about Freud's subconscious theory of consciousness. He found the concept plausible and unfathomable...

　　In order to figure out this concept, when the night came, he finally walked in the direction of his classmates...

　　In the countryside of May, insects groan and frogs chirp in the moonlight. When he walked through a village in the middle, he soon came to the cottage of his classmates...

　　Although it is a mud hut, many books on the small wooden table still smell of books.

　　His classmate, Liu Wen, looked emaciated. Because his parents did not have a good relationship, his mother sent him to his grandmother's house to study.

　　At that time, Liu Wen told him: "My father is difficult to communicate, his personality is grumpy, and my mother is afraid that he will hurt me, so she sent me to my grandmother's house..."

　　Ling Feng listened, and at the moment when he was a little sad, he thought about his parents and family.

　　The difference is that his father's personality is a notoriously honest man. But the mother likes to be noisy, and often engages in chicken flying dog jumping at home, so that everyone is helpless...

　　Perhaps it was the pity of the same disease that made the two teenagers seem closer.

　　In the quiet night, the thoughtful Ling Feng lay on Liu Wen's small bed, looked at his slightly calm face and asked, "Liu Wen, why do you like to read psychology books?" ”

　　Liu Wen listened to his question, only to see his simple face quietly reply: "Maybe it's because of my parents, I don't understand why they always quarrel, especially my father, when my mother is sad, he seems to be very proud ..."

　　"Yeah, I think your father is very much like my mother, she seems to be like my father and brothers and sisters..."

　　When Ling Feng said this, he remembered the subconscious problem and quickly asked, "Liu Wen, what do you say is going on with this subconscious?" ”

　　Liu Wen listened, smiled slightly, and said: "If according to my explanation, our human brains will think, our hearts will have feelings, these thoughts and feelings will become consciousness, and these consciousnesses and the place where these consciousnesses are stored is the subconscious, what do you think?"

　　Liu Wen finished speaking and asked again.

　　Ling Feng listened to him say this, frowned, and said: "I think what you said seems to be very reasonable, but it is not comprehensive enough, I feel that I sometimes think involuntarily, and the mood seems to be uncontrollable, this should also be related to the subconscious, right?" ”

　　Liu Wen heard him say this and smiled: "It seems that you will definitely be stronger than me in the future, and within a few days, you will think of this level..."

　　However, Liu Wen's praise made Ling Feng a little anxious. At that moment, I saw him say impatiently in a daze: "You don't sell Guanzi, I just want to know what is going on in the subconscious, and I haven't thought about it..."

　　Liu Wen saw that he was a little depressed, and hurriedly said: "I think your thinking is very correct, although the thoughts and emotions themselves are consciousness, but they can also produce new consciousness and become subconscious." But the subconscious mind can also in turn dominate people's thoughts and emotions, but we are not aware of it. This may be the cause of the bad mood control..."

　　"Oh..."

　　Without waiting for Liu Wen to finish speaking, Ling Feng cocked his thumb and laughed: "The hero sees the same thing!" ”

　　As he spoke, he looked at Liu Wen and asked again, "Then what do you want to do in the future?" ”

　　Liu Wen listened, his eyes sank, and replied: "I want to study well, I want to get ahead, I want to make my mother happy..."

　　Ling Feng listened quietly, found that his eyes were moist, and said ashamedly: "You are so great, your mother has a son like you, she will be happy..."

　　Liu Wen heard him say this, blinked his eyes, forced a smile, and asked, "Then what do you want to do in the future?" ”

　　However, he didn't expect that in fact, this was Ling Feng's inner confusion. Although he had thought about this problem, it was difficult to determine his future direction to this day, and he only felt that he wanted to walk around the world without doing anything. But I felt that this was not an ideal, but under Liu Wen's questioning, he could only answer bluntly and helplessly: "I want to wander..."

　　When Liu Wen heard this, he couldn't help but laugh: "That's okay, I will enter the DPRK as an official in the future, you will be a chivalrous guest who wanders the rivers and lakes, look at the face of your classmates, and when the time comes, I will go to zhao'an you..."

　　"Good! That word is certain..."

　　After the two innocent teenagers had fun talking, they soon fell asleep in the silent night...