#Essay ##作者: Sharp Zhao Hong #
Since I got married, my first memory has been a cage of resignation.
Although I would like to bring my own children, we only have my husband's salary of a few hundred to a thousand a month, and we often can't pay it for several months.
I wanted to go out and work with my kids, but my husband's dad said, "How much money can you make?" It is better to have children at home, which is equivalent to earning money for a nanny. "
Oh, no money to live, I often go back to my mother's house to get some bacon, jar dishes, dried bamboo shoots and so on.
The husband's father said, "It's sunny, it's sunbathing; it's cloudy, it's cold for the child; it's raining, it's dripping with children." Don't take your children back to your mother's house! "
When the husband's father saw that he could not block the way back to his mother's house, he snatched the child and angrily said, "If you want to go back to your mother's house, you should go back by yourself, don't take the child back."
I didn't have enough money to cook for our family of three, I could only guarantee that the children would have meat to eat, and my husband and his family laughed at me.
My husband ate some of the food I made, so he went to his father's house to rub rice, and said that the food I cooked was really bad.
Every day I am left alone at home with my children. Because they think that only I can bring children, and only I am only equipped with children, and I have no ability to work and earn money.
The breast milk of the children has not been weaned until the age of three, because they are against weaning, but the words are beautiful and the things are done very cleverly.
Originally the child was born and they forcibly fed the formula, I want to feed the breast milk, they despise my skinny little child will not have milk, don't starve the child.
I insisted on breastfeeding, and my husband's father and sister angrily threw up their hands and left, leaving us alone.
After that, their family, including their husbands, never held a child, and at the beginning they said, "The child's body is too soft, and his head is too soft to hold."
Oh, the child's mother is also the first time to hold the tender hair, and you have brought the husband and sister of the child, not only have photos to testify, and they often proudly say that the husband's sister's children were born with them, and the husband's sister has never brought a child.
Later, as soon as they hugged my child, the child cried, and they immediately returned the child's mother, who had just touched his hand, and said, "Look at you, don't want me to hold it."
At this time, my hand was already weak, and I couldn't even pick up a small glass.
The husband's mother went to ask her brother, who was a doctor, and the doctor said to let her rest more.
My husband's mother quickly replied, "How's that going?!" The child only needs his mother to hold. "
Since then, no one has mentioned powerless things.
Because they couldn't take the baby, I couldn't wean myself, but I was about to collapse.
I have only one wish: I want to get a good night's sleep.
My sister and brother-in-law deliberately returned from Guangdong on leave, specially helped me take the child to sleep, slept only two nights before weaning, and said that the child was very well-behaved.
But my husband's family said with disdain that my sister and brother-in-law were too cruel and forced the child to be weaned.
The child is three years old and has not been weaned!
My husband is air, and everything is based on his family's thinking and behavior.
My thinking and behavior work out on my own.