21
It rained for a few more days.
Xu Fanyin likes to make a pot of tea and sit at the table next to the window to write and draw.
I was lying on the couch with a book in my arms.
The puppy she sent me curled up at my feet, quietly. I gave it a name called pudding.
During this time, my relationship with her has improved a lot.
Outside the window, there was the sound of rain. Inside, it was the rustle of her pen on the paper. Occasionally, I was heard flipping through a book.
Inexplicably, I am reminded of a group of words, the present world is stable, and the years are quiet.
A sharp knock on the door shattered the silence of the room.
Outside the door, Xu Fanyin's neighbors were full of anxiety.
"Yin Yin, your dad just fainted, go back and take a look!"
Xu Fanyin shook her slender body, then stood up and ran out like crazy.
I'm also busy keeping up.
Uncle Xu has always taken good care of our grandchildren. When my grandmother was alive, he helped us a lot. During this time, I even sent some food made by myself every once in a while.
22
Uncle Xu was lying on the bed, his face sickly white.
Xu Fanyin frowned and asked, "Dad, how are you, do you want to go to the hospital?"
Even if he tried his best to suppress it, he couldn't suppress the tremor in his voice.
Uncle Xu glanced at me behind him and let out a long sigh.
"I wasn't going to tell you."
He beckoned me to come forward, and he fumbled for a piece of paper from under his pillow and handed it to me.
"I don't have much time left. The most reassuring thing in my life is Yinyin."
"Sui'an, uncle knows that you are a good boy, and uncle wants to entrust her to you."
On that piece of paper, it was written that the cancer was terminal.
Xu Fanyin snatched the paper, and after seeing the content on it, her brows furrowed deeper and deeper.
She was silent for a long, long time before she said, "Maybe it's a misdiagnosis, let's go check it out in two days."
23
That being said, Xu Fanyin became more and more silent day by day.
When he was young, he looked for me who secretly hid and cried, and now I am looking for her who is quietly hiding and sobbing.
When she saw me, she raised her head, the tip of her nose was red, and there was still mist in her eyes.
The appearance of her made my heart throb when I saw it.
"If you want to cry, just keep crying, don't hold back."
I sat down next to her, raised my hand, hesitated, and slowly placed it on top of her head.
As she comforted me when I was a child, I gently rubbed her soft hair.
June is coming to an end, which may be the reason for the mood to be more depressed, and I always feel that this year's summer is much hotter than usual.
"I came back this time because my dad said he was sick." She looked up at the sky and choked up, "When I got home, he sent me away with a joke."
"I thought he lied to me."
I listened quietly, and what she needed now was a listener more than communication.
"Sui'an, I've been bothering you these days. Don't be too reassuring about what my dad says."
"It's not your responsibility, and you have no obligation to take care of me, and you shouldn't get into your own marriage for the sake of so-called friendship."
Uncle Xu's last meaning was to hope that I could marry Xu Fanyin.
I looked into the distance and was silent for a long time.
During this period of getting along, I can't say what kind of feelings I have for Xu Fanyin.
It's comfortable to be with her, even if you don't say anything and do nothing.
When I see her crying, I will feel uncontrollable distress, and I will think about how to make her happy.
It seems that it is not a bad thing to let her be a burden to me.
There is even a hint of longing.
After a long time, I heard myself say, "Sister Yinyin, let's get married."
24
Before I was 14 years old, my parents were strangers to me who only appeared during the holidays. After I turned 14, my family would only ask me if I had enough money to spend.
Do they love me? I guess it's love. It's just that fourteen years of emotional blankness have left them with no idea how to get close to me.
Every time I see my mom interacting affectionately with my brother, who is five years younger than me, I comfort myself like this.
When I heard the news that I was going to get married, my mother on the other end of the phone just asked the woman's conditions and agreed.
The wedding was scheduled for a little over a month later.
Xu Fanyin meant to keep everything simple, but I refused.
Although she can't give her a luxurious wedding, if other brides have it, she will have it too.
Since I decided to marry her, I can't let her suffer the slightest grievance because of me.
25
After discussing the marriage, we went home together.
A blue Pagani Aeolus stopped at the door of the small building.
Zhao Siyu got out of the car, his well-defined face full of exhaustion. The dark circles under the eyes are deep, and even the jaw has a short stubble.
It seems that he drove all night.
He frowned and looked at Xu Fanyin beside me, and asked me in a deep voice, "Is she the person you want to marry?"
As a brother, I only told him about the marriage.
I nodded, and Zhao Siyu's face sank a little more.
"Suian, let's talk."
Xu Fanyin left the space to us, she has always been calm and considerate.
Zhao Siyu looked at her back as she left, frowned and asked, "Have you thought about it?"
I followed his gaze and unconsciously softened my voice, "Well, think about it."
26
Zhao Siyu sighed and persuaded him with good words.
"Ann, marriage is not child's play."
"You've liked Wanrou for so many years, I don't believe you'll empathize with you in such a short time!"
"Wanyu hurt you, but that doesn't justify you from hurting another innocent girl."
"Ask yourself, do you like her?"
I was slightly stunned, and the picture of getting along with Xu Fanyin these days came to my mind.
With her, it's very plain but also very stable.
Xu Fanyin doesn't talk much, but every morning when I wake up, the breakfast she made for me is already on the table.
She wore a cartoon apron that was very inconsistent with her temperament, and smiled and beckoned me to wash my hands and eat.
The little pudding wagged his tail and circled around her.
A man and a dog constitute a fireworks in the world that flows for a long time.
I suddenly figured it out.
turned his head and patted Zhao Siyu's shoulder, and replied to him firmly.
"Don't worry, there's no way I'll hurt Yin."
Do you like it? It seems to be liked.
27
After Zhao Siyu left, I started to get busy.
The wedding date is urgent, and there are many things to prepare.
He still sends me messages every once in a while. Occasionally, Chen Wanrou is also mentioned.
He said that Chen Wanrou was drunk and was calculated by Ji Chuyan, and Ji Chuyan used her large-scale photos to force marriage.
It was so big that it even made the news.
The old man of the Chen family was furious about this, and ordered Chen Wanrou to quit the company's management and think about it at home.
Chen Wanrou has been a pampered little princess since she was a child, how could she have suffered this kind of trial.
In a frustrated mood, she started to get drunk, and when she got drunk, she yelled for me. It is useless to persuade anyone.
Naturally, Zhao Siyu wouldn't tell me that it was Lu Siang who sent me a message.
Lu Siang: "After so many years of relationship, can't you forgive her this time? Don't you feel distressed to see her like this?"
I didn't reply. Distressed? For twelve years, she didn't know my intentions, while giving me hope, she continued to be in love, and who felt sorry for me.
In fact, Chen Wanrou has added me many times during this time, but I didn't agree. She called me at a different number, and she blocked me all of them.
Between us, since she kicked me for Ji Chuyan, even friends can't be friends.
Some injuries are irreversible. The relationship has been broken, and it is not easy to repair it.
What's more, I now have Xu Fanyin.
28
Goodbye Chen Wanrou was more than a month later.
Lu Siang sent me a message, saying that he was now in the county seat here, and asked me to meet in the most prosperous commercial street.
Before leaving the house, I took a stack of invitations and stuffed them into my bag, hoping that he would take them back for me and divide them.
and Xu Fanyin's wedding has been almost prepared, and Uncle Xu's health is not as good as day by day. But it can be seen that he is really happy.
Our marriage should be the only color in these black and white years.
Today's pedestrian street, the flower beds on both sides are filled with bright red roses, and ribbons and balloons are tied to them.
Two little girls passed by, chattering and discussing.
"Wow, is this a rich young master who is ready to propose? It's too romantic, isn't it?"
"I heard that it's a beautiful lady who wants to confess. There's also a big sea of roses in front of you! It's all airborne! Someone saw a small plane in the morning!"
"It's rich! Let's go check it out!"
The crowd was surging, all rushing in the direction of Lu Siang to ask me to meet.
I frowned, vaguely guessing something.
Two days ago, I heard that the Chen family gave Ji Chuyan a breakup fee of 5 million. Ji Chuyan saw that there was no hope for a wealthy family, so he accepted it when he saw it, and left with the money.
I carried my bag and followed the crowd forward.
29
The place was full of roses, and sure enough, the intersection next to the café we met was already full of people on the inside and outside of the three floors.
From time to time, a little girl exclaimed, "The girl holding the flower in the middle is too beautiful!"
"The men next to them are so handsome!"
"I like the one on the far right, it looks ruffian and bad! Poke me so much!"
"What kind of fairy novel plot is this, the beautiful heroine and her handsome knights!"
"I really want to know what the actor looks like! That's why such a good-looking young lady confessed in public!"
Lu Siang was guarding outside the human wall, and when he saw me, he ran over excitedly, pulled me up and squeezed into the crowd.
"Let's go, let's go! Our hero has arrived!"
Soon, the crowd automatically gave way of way.
At the end of Ruth, there stood a nervous and expectant Chen Wanrou, holding a large bunch of Juliet in her arms.
Lu Siang let go of my hand and pushed me in front of her.
Maybe compared to me, he likes Chen Wanrou more admirably.
30
"Sui An," Chen Wanrou called me, her delicate face stained with a flush.
She walked slowly towards me amid the commotion of the crowd.
Behind him, all the small hairs had happy smiles on their faces, only Zhao Siyu on the far right, leaning lazily on the corner with his arms crossed, looking like watching a play.
When he saw me, he raised his eyebrows, and a circle of little girls screamed loudly.
Chen Wanrou bit her lower lip and handed the flower to me shyly and timidly.
"I'm sorry! I know what I did some time ago was excessive!"
"After you left, I realized that you were far more important to me than I thought! Can you give me another chance? Let me make up for the mistakes I made!"
I lowered my head and opened my bag, pulled out an invitation from it and handed it to her.
"I'm getting married next week, and I hope you'll come."
31
Chen Wanrou froze, the expensive rose in her hand fell to the ground, and the petals splashed.
She stammered, "Don't ...... No kidding, it's not funny."
As she spoke, her eyes turned red.
I ignored her. Bypassing her, he handed out the invitations to the others who were also stunned.
"Remember to come to my wedding."
The news that I am going to get married only told my parents and Zhao Siyu. Obviously, none of them made a statement.
Chen Wanrou rushed over, stepped forward and snatched all the invitations I had just distributed, and tore them to the ground with all her might.
She glared at me with red eyes, "Suian, I just said it! It's not funny!"
I didn't expect the enraged Chen Wanrou to be so extreme.
She cried as she tore up all the invitations in my bag, grabbed my arm and was about to leave.
I wrenched her hand away.
He smiled faintly, "There are still a lot of things to do at the wedding, and my wife is still waiting for me to go back. I won't accompany you yet."
32
Two days later, Chen Wanrou bought the house next door, and the swaggering limited-edition Koenigsegg stopped in front of the dilapidated building, looking out of place.
She would block me at the door every day, begging me to give her another chance.
I was annoyed by her, and scolded her with a straight face, "I'm about to get married, please don't continue to pester me."
She bit her lip tightly, and her eyes turned red instantly.
After a few minutes, she slowly crouched down, held her head and began to whimper.
"Suian, I know it's wrong! Is it okay to give me another chance? I'm begging you!"
"Please, please, don't be so ruthless......
The proud eldest lady, in order to beg me to turn back, lowered herself into the dust.
Watching her squatting on the ground and crying silently, there was not a trace of turmoil in my heart.
狠吗? 那我不介意再狠点。
I leaned down slightly, "I'm sorry to be gentle, but your presence will make Yin Yin uncomfortable. Let's not get in touch just yet."
If you gave me something, I will return it to you as it was.
33
The wedding took place as scheduled.
Outside the door, the wedding cars lined up in a long line.
When I was about to get in the car, I saw Chen Wanrou standing outside the door. She wore a brand new white wedding dress and painted a very beautiful makeup.
I ignored her and looked down to get into the car when she came over and grabbed my arm.
Her clear voice was hoarse, as if it had been ground by fine pieces of sand.
"Suian, are you taking revenge on me?" Her eyes were red, and she tried to squeeze out a smile, "You can punish me however you want, just don't marry someone else, okay?"
I looked at her calmly and replied, "No, not to get revenge on you."
"I married Yin Yin just because I wanted to marry her."
Tears fell, and her hand on my sleeve tightened a little.
"But, but you don't love her, do you!"
I pushed her hand away and smiled lightly, "How can you marry her if you don't love her."
"Wanrou, after so many years of friendship, you should know me to some extent."
After that, I ignored her and went straight to the car.
The convoy drove away, until it was far away, and she could still be seen in the rearview mirror, standing still.
Dressed in white yarn, it looks like a farce.
34
After marriage, life is not much different.
In order to take care of Uncle Xu, we moved back to the small western-style building. Xu Fanyin slept on the bed, and I made a bunk on the floor.
Before I am sure of her feelings, I have to give her enough respect.
Zhao Siyu still contacts me occasionally to chat about family life and care about the current situation. Regarding Chen Wanrou, he never mentioned it to me again.
Chen Wanrou's father was kicked out of the board of directors, and I still saw it on the news.
Ji Chuyan is a ruthless person, but he has no legal awareness.
He copied several tender documents from Chen Wanrou and sold them to the Chen family's rivals.
The shopping mall was like a battlefield, and Chen's enterprise was caught off guard and suffered heavy losses.
As a last resort, Chen's father could only sell the stocks in his hand to fill the hole.
Although he sent Ji Chuyan in, he is no longer the largest shareholder of the company.
Because the disaster was caused by Chen Wanrou, the other shareholders who were already dissatisfied with Chen's father took this opportunity to jointly seize his power at the board of directors.
After reading it, I only felt embarrassed and didn't inquire about the follow-up.
This can be regarded as the repayment of the female debtor's father.
35
Uncle Xu didn't survive the winter after all.
Xu Fanyin calmly dealt with the aftermath. Calm ...... It's a bit distressing.
She has been dependent on her father since she was a child, and her relationship is naturally very deep.
Maybe it's because she doesn't have a mother, so she takes care of me because my parents aren't around, and I'm bullied.
After more than half a year of marriage, I hugged her for the first time.
She curled up in my arms, crying silently.
"Suian, I don't have a father anymore......
I gently patted him on the back, choking to soothe her.
"And me, I'll be with you in the future."
Xu Fanyin, for the rest of your life, let's go on well. Take care of each other and keep each other warm.
36
Because of Uncle Xu, we have been staying in this Jiangnan town during this time.
Now, it's time for us to go back to Beijing.
As I was packing, Pudding came running over and placed the diary in front of me as if he were offering a treasure.
There's a cobweb on the diary, and I don't know where it came from.
I opened it curiously, and it recorded a girl's secret love for many years.
It turned out that in the years I didn't know, there was a gentle and demure girl who had been silently liking me.
Xu Fanyin finished packing his things and came to ask me if I needed help. I happened to see me crouching on the ground flipping through my diary.
"You saw it all?" She asked.
The voice was shy and a little frightened.
I raised my head to force back the wetness in my eyes and curled the corners of my lips at her, "What a coincidence, I like you too."
And although she is not hysterical and vigorous, but marriage is trivial and trivial, who can say that it is not life that is ordinary.