On the surface, I am a Grand Slam actress, but in private I am Lu Yu's secret lover.
On the same day I learned I had cancer, news of his engagement to someone else quickly hit the top searches.
"Lin Sixiao, recognize your position, you are just a substitute."
After I was completely disappointed, he refused to let go and insisted that I stay with him.
But I'm already feeling tired, and I just want to get back to my true self for the rest of my life.
1
In the fifth year I spent with Lu Yu, I have established myself in the entertainment industry, and Lu Yu's career is thriving.
I plan to propose to him.
The relationship may not be universally recognized by society, but it is enough as long as we love each other.
A message pops up on your phone's screen.
It was Lu Yu who asked me when I would finish work and wanted to have dinner with me.
Just as I was about to reply to his message, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my stomach.
I instinctively bent over and breathed heavily, trying to relieve the pain.
But the pain didn't lessen, it grew stronger, my stomach churned, and I barely managed to rush to the bathroom.
A smell of blood welled up in his throat, and the sink was filled with a shocking red.
I felt a panic in my heart and sent a message to my assistant asking him to help me ask the director for leave while I drove myself to the hospital.
After a series of blood tests, the doctor told me the sad news.
I was diagnosed with advanced stomach cancer.
The doctor advised me to inform my family and get hospitalized as soon as possible, so that I might have a chance of survival.
But my parents have passed away, and the only one who can be considered a writer may be my boyfriend Lu Yu.
I took out my phone and saw the message on the chat interface that was still stuck in the morning, and I didn't have time to reply due to the suddenness of the incident.
But at this point, I was a little hesitant to tell him the bad news, and I was worried that he would be upset about it.
Just as my mind was in a state of confusion, a piece of news popped up on my phone.
#陆氏集团总裁订婚#的标题醒目地出现在热搜榜上, there is also a word "explosion" next to it.
President of Luk Group? I was stunned for a moment, and after a while I realized that it was Lu Yu.
I hurriedly clicked in and saw a photo of Lu Yu wearing a gray haute couture suit, which was dazzling.
It wasn't until I could see the face of the man next to him that my heart sank to the bottom.
That person's appearance is five or six points similar to mine, but he exudes an innate elite temperament, and what I have is performing.
I watched netizens gradually reveal their past, childhood sweethearts, two little guesses, and finally came together.
Childhood? Some terrible thoughts popped up in my head.
Heh, no wonder he always stares at my face in a daze, it turns out that I am just a substitute?
2.
Fearing that I would be discovered, I hid in the corridors of the hospital and stayed until nightfall.
My heart was full of desolation, and suddenly I didn't know how to face Lu Yu.
But after all, an answer needs to be sought, and the worst case scenario is nothing more than five years of affection, which comes to naught.
I picked up my phone and saw many missed calls, and it happened that Lu Yu's call came in again, and my hand slipped and I accidentally hung up.
Soon, the phone rang again, and I took a deep breath and pressed answer.
Lu Yu's angry voice came from the other end of the phone.
"Lin Sixiao, where did you go, why did you only answer the phone now, do you know that I called all afternoon?"
"I'm waiting for you in the crew now, you'd better come back quickly, the director is very unhappy because you didn't say goodbye."
With that, he hung up without waiting for me to respond.
I was a little stunned, checked my phone, and found that I was on silent during filming, and then because of the continuous blows, I was immersed in sadness all afternoon and didn't notice anything else.
Indeed, almost all of the call records are Lu Yu's missed calls.
Even though he was on a happy occasion, he remembered me.
Just as I was about to leave, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my stomach, and I rushed into the bathroom and retched violently.
Turning on the faucet and listening to the sound of the water, I couldn't help but look up at myself in the mirror, barely squeezing out a smile, but with a hint of desolation.
In the past, he always said that for the sake of my career, our relationship cannot be made public, but now it seems that he may just not want Bai Yueguang in his heart to be unhappy.
But we did really love each other for five years, and those feelings that made me hesitate.
After tidying myself up a bit, I went to the pharmacy to pick up my medicine as instructed by my doctor and drove back to the filming site.
When I arrived at the scene, I saw my pale face in the mirror in the car and hesitated for a moment.
I stood in the cold wind for a while, until my cheeks were a little rosy and I looked better, and then I walked to the set.
"Are you...... Lin Sixiao? ”
An unfamiliar voice came from behind, I turned around and saw a face similar to me, it was Lu Yu's fiancé, I wouldn't admit it.
3.
"Hello." I greeted him as casually as I could, and he put his arm around my shoulder like an old friend, with a relaxed and cheerful tone.
"I'm Zou Kai, Lu Yu's fiancé. I often hear him talk about you, and indeed we look alike, and you are really his gold mine. ”
"Thank you for taking care of him all these years, but I don't want to hear about you and Lu Yu in the future, otherwise the career you have worked so hard to build may be ruined."
Zou Kai's voice sounded harsh, and his attitude of assertion of sovereignty and threat made me feel very uncomfortable.
I didn't know how to respond, so I chose to remain silent and walked straight to the shooting site.
Lu Yu stood up immediately when he saw me, and his eyes revealed reproachful emotions.
But when Zou Kai appeared behind me, his expression changed suddenly, and I seemed to see a trace of uneasiness and guilt in it.
What is he guilty about?
"Lu Yu, I'm here to pick you up for dinner, I just met Emperor Ning Ying, and we had a good chat."
Zou Kai's tone was relaxed, as if he had completely forgotten the threat just now.
I closed my lips tightly and just stared at Lu Yu with my eyes, hoping that he could give me an explanation of what was going on.
The people around felt the strangeness of the atmosphere, and the director also left with the staff with great interest.
I endured the discomfort in my body, and my eyes were full of sadness.
"Lu Yu, didn't you say you wanted to accompany me to dinner?"
My voice was hoarse, and when I asked this, there was not a trace of strength in my tone.
Lu Yu seemed to think of something, his eyes narrowed slightly, and his temperament, which was used to controlling everything, seemed a little scary.
"Where did you go in the afternoon? Do you know how many calls I've made to you? And now you still have the face to ask me? ”
His series of rhetorical questions directly put me on the back foot, and made me feel a little surprised, as if I was the one who betrayed.
I shook the medicine bag in my hand, and felt that it would not help to explain now, it would only increase my annoyance, and I opened my mouth, and finally chose to be silent.
At this time, Zou Kai walked behind me and stood next to Lu Yu, and they did look like a good match.
"Oh, it seems that I was presumptuous, I didn't know that Lu Yu was going to have dinner with the gold mine tonight, why don't we go together."
He held Lu Yu's hand, his fingers clasped tightly, and Lu Yu did not refuse.
Gold mine, Zou Kai mentioned more than once that I am Lu Yu's gold mine, and now he has not refuted it, and seems to accept this title.
4.
It turns out that I am not just a substitute, I am also his cash cow.
Yes, Luk's Group's entertainment business was sluggish in the past few years, and it was my joining that made this department gradually become the pillar industry of the group.
Over the years, I have loved Lu Yu deeply, and no matter how difficult it is, I have no regrets.
Even when I was accused by fans of not cherishing my reputation enough when I frequently led newcomers, or even being splashed with paint by radical fans, I never had a word of complaint.
I admit that the support of Lu's Group is indispensable for my achievements today, but Lu's Entertainment can not have today's glory without my hard work.
Now that everything is on track, I seem to be left with the label of a cash cow, and the corners of my mouth can't help but show a self-deprecating smile.
"Cash cow...... That's what you think of me. ”
I whispered to myself, my brow furrowed, my eyes fixed on their clenched hands.
"Lu Yu, so Weibo said that you are engaged, is this true, right?"
Lu Yu didn't expect me to be so direct, his face looked a little unnatural, and after noticing my gaze, he hurriedly retracted his hand.
"Ahem."
He coughed lightly twice, as if trying to hide something, his eyes wandering.
After five years with Lu Yu, I know him too well, and when he wants to lie but can't find a suitable reason, he will show such an expression.
"Lin Sixiao, don't think that if you are an actor, you can question your boss."
"What is your identity, don't you know? is just an actor, and he dares to question us Lu Yu, which is too bold. ”
Zou Kai stood in front of Lu Yu and looked at me with a contemptuous look.
Lu Yu was silent behind him, as if he had lost his voice, my heart was like a knife, and my stomach was churning.
Although stomach cancer makes me miserable, the indifference of the human heart makes me feel sick even more.
I clenched my fists, and the anger in my heart drove me to throw a punch at Zou Kai, gritting my teeth in anger.
"Lu Yu, what do you say I am? Say! ”
5.
Zou Kai naturally would not let go of this opportunity, and the conflict between us intensified, leaving scars on each other's faces.
And Lu Yu screamed in horror on the side, constantly calling Zou Kai's name, his concern was obvious.
I suddenly felt a wave of powerlessness and began to question what exactly I was holding on, fighting with another man like a madman, which was not what I was supposed to do.
Zou Kai was pulled away by Lu Yu, and I spat out a mouthful of blood and stood alone opposite them.
"Lin Sixiao, recognize your position, you are just a stand-in."
Lu Yu said this sentence viciously, as if I had committed an unforgivable crime.
Stand-in, he finally admitted it.
"Huh."
I sneered, as if I had heard a ridiculous joke, but it was not enough to express the pain in my heart, and my laughter grew louder and louder, and even tears welled up in the corners of my eyes.
"Lu Yu, you are really disappointing."
I wiped the corners of my eyes, the pain in my heart made me almost breathless, I never thought that behind our seemingly beautiful love could be so dirty.
A hint of panic flashed in Lu Yu's eyes, but it quickly disappeared, maybe I was mistaken.
"Let's break up, Mr. Lu. The Lord has returned, and my stand-in will no longer be in your way. ”
I was unusually calm and deliberately accentuated the title "Mr. Lu" in order to draw a clear line between us.
Lu Yu's eyes were complicated, although he admitted my stand-in identity, he seemed hesitant at this moment.
"Mr. Lu, I wish you a hundred years of happiness."
After saying that, I no longer wanted to see them and turned away, leaving behind a lonely and resolute back.
6.
Since that day, I have never contacted Lu Yu again.
Thinking that this drama might be my last posthumous work, I took every shot more seriously.
Even the director frequently praised my acting skills and advised me to take proper rest and not to make myself too tired.
But I didn't dare to stop, I didn't have much time left, and I was afraid that even this insignificant life would not be able to draw a perfect end.
Until all my scenes are filmed, it's time for me to be hospitalized.
But unexpectedly, on the day I went through the hospitalization procedures, I received a call from Lu Yu.
He seems to have drunk a lot, and if it had been before, I would have rushed to him at once.
"Si Xiao, I miss you very much. I found out that what I really love is you, you are not a stand-in, you are Lin Sixiao. ”
"I'm drinking at the old place, can you come and pick me up? I can't get in touch with Zou Kai, there are a lot of people around me I don't know, and I'm a little scared. ”
His voice sounded pitiful, like being coquettish in the arms of a lover.
My heart was also touched, but I wasn't sure how much sincerity there was in his words, after all, he was someone I had loved for five years, and he was in danger, and I couldn't sit idly by.
Despite the doctor's dissuasion, I endured stomach pain and drove to the so-called old place, an upscale clubhouse.
Wearing a mask, I hurried into the place Lu Yu had said, only to see him and his friends laughing and playing.
"What am I talking about, you still don't believe in my charm, what about the actor, he didn't come to pick me up in a hurry."
The people around me were still joking, but I felt like I was in a whirlpool, and I couldn't hear anything.
"Lin Sixiao, in fact, you didn't need to break up with me at the beginning, even if I got married, what can I do, as long as you still want to be with me, we can be together forever."
Lu Yu was high, and his eyes were full of superiority, as if he was giving me charity.
My heart was already numb with pain, and my stomach was protesting, I didn't want to continue to stay and be ridiculed, so I turned around and wanted to leave, but I was stopped by Lu Yu's friend.
7.
"Lin Sixiao, don't forget, I raised you for five years, and it was I who supported you at the beginning to have you today."
I clenched my fists, my eyes full of pain, and looked at Lu Yu.
I never thought that Lu Yu would want me to continue to be his underground lover, what is this, mistress?
"Lu Yu, in fact, I always wanted to tell you that on the day you got engaged, I was diagnosed with stomach cancer."
"That's why I can't drink."
I tried to find a hint of remorse on his face, but all I saw was his contemptuous sneer.
"is worthy of being an actor, acting like the real thing, I almost believed it. It's a pity that your excuse is too lame to fool me. ”
"Drink, I have evidence in my hand, if you don't drink it, I'll send it all out, how many people will be disappointed in you then?"
Just like I know Lu Yu, he is also very aware of my weaknesses, I don't want anyone who loves me to disappoint me, I hope I will always be a role model in the hearts of fans.
Closing my eyes and opening them again, I resigned myself to sitting down on the couch and holding the wine glass in front of me.
Glass after glass of wine, my stomach burned, and I protested, but I drank numbly and silently as if I didn't feel the pain.
Until I finally couldn't take it anymore and couldn't help but throw it up.
The wine was mixed with blood, and the corners of his mouth were bloodshot.
There was a sharp pain in my stomach, my mouth and esophagus were protesting, and I couldn't help but fall to my knees.
The room fell silent for a moment, and I looked up at Lu Yu with a somewhat sad smile.
"Is that enough?"
But before he could answer, I fell headlong to the ground, slowly losing consciousness.
8.
It was as if I was swallowed up by darkness, and the memories of the past flashed in front of me like a marquee.
My parents passed away young, but they left me an inheritance that supported me through college.
As soon as I stepped into society, I joined the Lu Group and met Lu Yu.
He was three years older than me, and I have to admit that he did give me a huge help at that time.
He guided me to familiarize myself with the rules of the industry, helped me improve my acting skills, and was my mentor and friend in all aspects.
But I don't want to rely on him too much, I work hard, I don't dare to slack off, and I try my best to repay Lu after becoming famous.
I continue to lead the new people of the company, hoping to promote the development of Lu's entertainment section and become a strong backing for Lu Yu.
I traveled around various Vanity Fairs just to get the most out of the Lu Group, so as to stabilize the position of the president of the Lu Yu Group.
Stomach cancer, perhaps, is quietly born in those endless busyness.
Even so, I always remember his kindness in my heart.
But today, I don't owe him anything anymore, I just don't want to disappoint those who care about me.
Saying goodbye in such a painful way was not what I wanted, it was because they pushed people too hard.
At the moment, I thought that if I left like this, maybe it wouldn't be bad, but the fans who loved me would be sad about it, but this sadness would come sooner or later.
There seemed to be a faint call in his ears, and there seemed to be droplets of water sliding down his face.
"Lin Sixiao, I beg you to wake up quickly."
"Lin Sixiao, I really regret it."
"Lin Sixiao, I love you."
It's a voice I'm all too familiar with, the one I missed day and night, but now it's all gone.
Lu Yu's charity-like attitude, how could he be so gentle with me, how could he really love me.
But the call continued, and I couldn't help but feel irritated in my heart, didn't he even let go of my last peace?
9.
Eventually, I opened my eyes and was greeted by the gray ceiling of the hospital, which made me feel a little dazed.
Lu Yu's voice of joy and tears sounded in his ears, "Si Xiao, you finally woke up!" ”
I followed the direction of the voice, turning my head mechanically, and there was no trace of life in my eyes.
"Mr. Lu, we should have cleared up between us."
Lu Yu was silent, biting his lower lip, tears rolling in his eyes.
I closed my eyes again, filled with bitterness.
Who is he looking like now? I've been lying to me for five years, and I can still stand here so calmly.
"Si Xiao, I'm sorry. I really didn't know you were sick, why didn't you tell me? ”
He sobbed under his breath, as if unable to accept this fact, and his voice was full of grief.
The corners of my mouth twitched slightly, and the smell of blood was still spreading in my mouth.
"I told you that it was the day you got engaged to Zou Kai, but you didn't believe it."
"After suffering from cancer, my boyfriend and Bai Yueguang got engaged."
"You blame me for being missing and not answering your calls, but have you ever wondered how I felt when I was diagnosed with advanced stomach cancer in the hospital and saw the news of your engagement?"
"Stand-in, heh, I've figured out where I am. Mr. Lu, please don't disturb my life anymore, I just want to go through the last days peacefully. ”
I poured out my grievances and anger over the past few days, and I felt a sense of relief in my heart.
But Lu Yu sat on the side of my hospital bed, without the slightest intention of leaving.
"Si Xiao, I'm really sorry, don't say those words about death, you have to cooperate with the treatment."
I suddenly felt as if I had never really known Lu Yu, and he shouldn't be so hesitant. is about to enter the palace of marriage, but he is so affectionate.
10.
I shook my head slightly, as if the sight of him would make me feel physically uncomfortable.
"Mr. Lu, please leave. It's my business to heal or not, but I don't want to see you again. ”
I tried my best to suppress my anger, but Lu Yu still didn't make any moves, stubbornly refusing to leave.
The anger in my heart was uncontrollable, and despite the needle still stuck in the back of my hand, I struggled to sit up, slapping the bed board frantically.
"Lu Yu, go away!"
The doctor heard the movement and rushed in, the back of my hand was already dripping with blood, but the pain was nothing compared to the onset of stomach cancer.
Lu Yu stood up in shock and was pushed aside by the doctor, as if he had never thought that I would do this to him.
"Mr. Lu, the patient's emotional agitation has affected his condition, I hope you can respect the patient's wishes and leave as soon as possible."
The doctor also began to urge Lu Yu to leave, telling him that continuing to stay would only cause more harm to my health.
He turned around to leave, but looked at me deeply, "Si Xiao, believe me, I love you." ”
I watched him walk out of the room dejected.
I breathed a sigh of relief that I had played countless roles and experienced all kinds of lives in my life, but I had never really been myself.
At the moment, I only feel deeply tired, and for the rest of my life I just want to return to myself.
Unfortunately, fate would not grant me even such a tiny wish.
After the scene was completed, I explained my physical condition to the director, and the director also expressed his deep sympathy and asked me to concentrate on recuperation, and I did not participate in the subsequent film promotion activities.
The secrecy of this hospital is well done, and I hardly leave the ward except for necessary treatment.
During my days and nights in the hospital, I was tormented by the constant pain and almost forgot everything else in the world.
Lu Yu never appeared again, but Zou Kai came once.
He came to invite me to his wedding to Lu Yu.
11.
I didn't understand Zou Kai's true intention of inviting me to the wedding, but when I flatly refused, he threatened me in a despicable way.
"Lin Sixiao, you don't want the fact that you were kept by the president of the Lu Group for five years to be made public, right?"
I felt so angry, I had never met such a shameless person.
"I know you want to argue that it's love, but who would believe it? After all, you were just an ordinary college student who had just graduated at the time, and it sounded ridiculous to fall in love with the heir of the Lu Group. ”
Lu Yu also said that they are really a pair of childhood sweethearts, and they even threaten people in the same way.
"Why, you ask me? I hate you for having Lu Yu in the five years I left, even if I abandoned him at that time, I didn't allow anyone to get involved. ”
"So, in three months, I want you to see your sweetheart marry me and throw yourself into my arms."
I smiled self-deprecatingly, there were still three months left in the wedding, and I wasn't sure if I would survive those three months.
Eventually, I may be dusty, but they will enjoy the joy of being married.
Zou Kai wanted to continue to say something, but Lu Yu rushed in at this moment and stood between me and Zou Kai.
"Zou Kai, didn't I say I wouldn't let you come to Lin Sixiao, what are you doing?"
He turned his back to me and put on a protective posture, and from Zou Kai's expression, it could be seen that there seemed to be some contradiction between the two.
I shook my head, none of that mattered anymore, I didn't have much time anyway.
"Mr. Lu, I wish you a hundred years of good together, if I can live to your wedding, I will go."
"So, please leave now."
Recently, I have more or less heard some rumors about them, Zou Kai once abandoned Lu Yu to go abroad alone in order to pursue himself because he hated the copper smell of money.
As the only son in the family, Lu Yu's privileged life also made him understand his responsibilities.
I knew that Zou Kai needed to save his family through this marriage, otherwise he would not have come back from abroad.
12.
His gaze was fixed on me, and men's jealousy was sometimes more terrible than women's.
"Lin Sixiao, you wait."
I read his lips and realized that he was threatening me, and that look gave me an inexplicable sense of fear.
Sure enough, what I feared most finally happened.
When I returned to the ward after finishing chemotherapy that day, I noticed a large crowd gathered at the door.
When they saw me, they rushed to me and surrounded me.
"It's really Emperor Ning Ying, Emperor Ning Yingdi, some people on the Internet say that you have been raised by the president of the Lu Group for five years, is this true?"
"Lin Sixiao, can you give us a positive response to the accusations that you are playing a big name and having violent tendencies in the video?"
I stood in the crowd, my eyes barely open from the flash, and my weak body could barely hold it up.
In the chaos around me, a litany of questions left my mind blank.
"What video?"
Someone handed me my phone, and I looked at myself in the video and couldn't help but hold my breath.
It was the day of the dispute with Zou Kai on the set, and I hit Zou Kai first in the picture.
I looked at the abuse in the comment area, my heart was full of panic, my whole body broke out in a cold sweat, and I didn't know how to deal with it for a while.
"Lin Sixiao, I didn't expect you to be such a person, are you worthy of us fans by doing this?"
The man was so emotional that he suddenly pulled a water bottle out of his bosom and threw it at me.
The red liquid is particularly striking, and the smell of paint fills the air.
"Si Xiao!"
In a trance, I heard someone calling my name, I followed the sound and saw Lu Yu rushing over with a group of bodyguards.
I was taken back to my room by the doctor, and the door of the ward was closed, cutting off the hustle and bustle of the outside world.
I looked at Lu Yu blankly, my eyes full of despair.
There was a lot of scolding on the Internet, and I was disappointed by the fans who tried to defend me.
"It's worthy of Mr. Lu, you won."
13.
Lu Yu shook his head eagerly, tears overflowing from his eyes, and his appearance looked distressing.
In the past, I would never have been able to bear to see him cry, but now, I only feel that his tears are full of hypocrisy.
"No, Si Xiao, I just found out about this matter, believe me, I will seek justice for you."
"Si Xiao, believe me, I have broken off my marriage with Zou Kai. When you get better, we'll get married, and we'll live a good life together. ”
Tie the knot? What I had longed for for five years, now readily available, has become meaningless.
I shook my head, and suddenly it seemed that there was nothing left in this world for me to be nostalgic for, and that it might not be a bad thing to leave alone.
"I promise you, when the matter is settled, we will get married."
Lu Yu nodded frantically, with a happy expression on his face.
After he left, I had a lot of trouble removing the paint from my body and immediately went to the hospital to go through the discharge procedures. The doctor's expression was full of sympathy, but in the end it didn't stop me.
Time was of the essence and I had to leave within this time.
14.
Almost all of my savings over the years have been used to pay for liquidated damages, so much so that when I go out to travel, I feel a little strapped for cash.
I came alone to a small border town in the north, where the people are simple, the scenery is picturesque, and most importantly, the cost of living is very low.
I rented a house and the landlord was a grandmother in her sixties who was kind and kind and took care of me often.
I lived in almost isolation, and it wasn't until my grandmother's granddaughter came home from winter vacation that I was able to learn about the outside world.
"Are you Lin Sixiao? Oh my God, I'm a fan of yours, I didn't expect you to be at my house! ”
I looked in the mirror and saw that I was so thin that the little girl could still recognize me, which was amazing.
But the thought of the abuse on the Internet made me suddenly feel frightened, and I hurriedly turned around, trying to deny my identity.
Unexpectedly, the little girl took the initiative to take my arm, and her eyes were full of sadness and sympathy.
"I knew you before the gossip, I liked you since you first debuted, and I believed from the beginning that you weren't that kind of person."
I was stunned, I didn't expect the last warmth in my life to come from a strange little girl.
"The president of the Lu Group has already clarified for you, and now he is looking for you all over the world, but if you don't want to go back, I will help you keep it a secret."
The little girl's liveliness, kindness and empathy invisibly gave me the strength to warm up.
Back in the room, I took out my phone, which had not been charged for a long time, turned it on, and logged in to my social accounts.
Sure enough, the online abuse has disappeared and has been replaced by people's sympathy and regret.
Lu Yu made our relationship public and made all the details of our relationship public, and my deep affection was praised by netizens.
He also clarified the previous engagement incident, saying that it was just a rumor made out of nothing, and the video of me beating someone also proved to be a deliberate provocation by Zou Kai.
and my disappearance that afternoon, the lonely figure in the hospital surveillance also confirmed that I was not playing a big name and not filming, but was diagnosed with stomach cancer in the hospital.
The person who spread rumors on the Internet was also found, and as expected, that person was Zou Kai.
The person who splashed paint on me that day was not my fan at all, it was instigated by Zou Kai, who just wanted to embarrass me even more.
Zou Kai's identity as the youngest son of the Lu Group was exposed, and he has now become a rat crossing the street, and everyone shouts and beats him.
Most of my fans chose to believe me, support me, and stand by my side from the beginning, even when they were abused by the trolls hired by Zou Kai.
Now it's all hard work, and they're still waiting for me.
Before I knew it, I was in tears.
I didn't cry when I was diagnosed with cancer, I didn't cry when I knew I was a stand-in, and I didn't cry even when I was discredited.
But at this moment, I can't help but cry when I see those people who really like me, and when they see them standing behind me all the time and continue to follow my example.
15.
It turns out that I have never been alone in this world, and I still have those who have always supported me.
I browsed Weibo, and before I knew it, night had fallen, and through the window, I gazed at the full moon in the sky, and felt a sense of peace in my heart.
The phone rang suddenly, and I hung up trembling at the name displayed on the screen.
It's Lu Yu.
It wasn't long before the phone rang again, and he didn't seem to give up until he got there.
After thinking for a moment, I pressed the answer button.
"Si Xiao, it's me."
"yes, I know."
Hearing Lu Yu's voice again, it felt as if a century had passed.
The heart is unusually calm, perhaps because everything in the past has passed away with the wind, and love and hate have also drifted away with the breeze.
"Where are you, I miss you so much, shall we go and get married?"
Lu Yu's voice was cautious, for fear that he would accidentally anger me and cause the call to end.
"Si Xiao, Zou Kai had a car accident a few days ago, and one leg was seriously injured and he is already disabled."
"There is also the Lu Group, although it is not bankrupt, but now it can only survive, they know the grievances between me and Zou Kai, and he will not have a good life in his life."
"So, can you forgive me?"
Lu Yu said a lot and did a lot, but in my opinion, these are all useless work.
I sighed, my voice low and with a hint of otherworldly indifference.
"Lu Yu, you have never really realized your mistakes, you are not serious about your feelings, you are sorry for me and Zou Kai."
"You made me see my place, you threatened me with what I care about the most, you trampled on my self-esteem."
"Lu Yu, don't come to me, I don't want to die without peace."
16.
The words fell, and silence returned to the surroundings.
On the other end of the phone, Lu Yu cried in a low voice and kept apologizing.
I hung up the phone and felt my life go by.
I don't want to spend the rest of my life on these meaningless things.
The next day, I put on neat clothes and tidied up my messy hair a little to make myself look a little angry.
I asked the granddaughter of my landlord's grandmother to help me and I wanted to record a video to show my gratitude to all those who love me.
In the video, I am honest about my illness and hope that everyone will not be saddened by my passing. I have left many works for everyone to reminisce.
My time is running out, and I decided to donate all the income from my work in the future to the foundation to help those in need.
By the end of the video recording, the little girl was already crying.
I turned off my phone and set a time for the video to be posted.
I stroked the little girl's hair, trying to comfort her not to feel sorry for me.
I left all my remaining possessions to my landlord and thanked her for accompanying me through the last journey of my life.
It was another silent night, and I lay in bed, looking at the moon in the night sky, and slowly closed my eyes.
My life is worth it.
extra
My name is Yiyi, and I was born in a small town in the north.
It was probably when I was in junior high school that I saw Lin Sixiao on TV for the first time.
He is confident, sincere, and so dazzling, and the role he plays is a hot-blooded young man who struggles for his ideals.
I was so attracted to him that I followed him almost obsessively.
I wanted to be close to him, I wanted to be better, and that was the first time I felt the power of an idol.
I witnessed his success, and I realized my dream of getting into his university.
But the situation changed abruptly, and he was slandered.
I firmly believe that he is not that kind of person, I knew him before the rumors, and he could not have done such a thing.
I supported him with those who believed in him, and in the end we won.
The official clarified the facts, his relationship with Lu Yu, but he was already seriously ill.
The initiator of everything is Zou Kai.
I saw the fate of Zou Kai, who lived a miserable life and could only spend the rest of his life in the hospital, being abused.
This is the retribution he deserves.
And Lu Yu, the president of the Lu Group, he doesn't seem to be what the outside world says.
He is deeply in love with Lin Sixiao, and his pursuit is widely circulated on the Internet, and I almost believe it.
It wasn't until I came home from winter vacation that I met Lin Sixiao.
I never thought I'd meet my idol in such a way.
He was like a brother next door, approachable, but his body was emaciated and full of signs of fighting the disease.
He told me about his love-hate relationship with Lu Yu, and I felt angry, but there was nothing I could do.
I helped him record the video and also helped him deal with the aftermath.
That movie became his posthumous work.
At his funeral, Lu Yu appeared, and he wept bitterly in front of Lin Sixiao's grave.
His grief was contagious to everyone present, but it didn't affect me.
Everyone is gone, what's the point of such a performance.
In order to thank me, Lu Yu let me join the Lu Group.
I didn't refuse, that is Lin Sixiao's career, and I am willing to protect it.
I witnessed Lu Yu's lonely rest of his life, and no, he didn't live to old age.
He was addicted to Lin Sixiao's death, unable to extricate himself, and his life was decadent to the extreme.
He didn't want to see anyone, so he just asked me to stay with him and listen to me tell Lin Sixiao's last days over and over again.
His family tried to sober him up, but in vain.
Eventually, his family abandoned him and chose another heir.
No one cares about Lu Yu anymore.
Until one day, Lu Yu walked out of their home and smiled at all of us.
We all thought he was back on his feet, but I saw the desperation in his eyes.
Sure enough, that night, the flames were in the sky, and Lu Yu set their home on fire.
He called Lin Sixiao's name in the flames, and finally passed away.
I watched coldly, and my heart was calm, and it was just his own doing.
I came to Lin Sixiao's grave with flowers, cleaned up the dust, and put my newly won actor trophy.
Thank you, you will always be my idol.
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