Ever since my wife and I decided to buy a house, it has been at the center of our lives. Finding a home to call home, a haven in the midst of the hustle and bustle of the city, is what we've been trying to do for years. When we finally found the right house, we were only 150,000 yuan away from making our dream come true – an amount that made us excited and a little stressed.
"The distance from the dream house, that's it!" My wife smiled at me as she laid out the blueprints on the dining table, "I really want to take my parents into the new home now." ”
"It's okay, 150,000 is not much." I took a sip of the soup and pretended not to care, "Like I said, among these friends, as long as everyone makes up a little bit, it's definitely enough." ”
My wife nodded, she had an unchanging trust in me, and this trust was slowly accumulated over the course of our days and nights.
That afternoon, I sat alone on a park bench with a list in my head, a list of names I thought I could turn to. In this city that has traveled all year round, I am also an "old man" who has accumulated a lot of contacts. Over the years, many people have said that I have become an indispensable friend.
"It's time to validate the human relations over the years." I muttered to myself, the list in my hand tightened my grip.
In the evening, while sorting out the furniture that was about to be sold for old goods, we talked about our plans to buy a house this time.
"Do you really think you can get them to help?"
"Of course, how many times have I jumped down to help them?" I moved a table and chair aside, and continued, "This little favor, I'm the best at talking about people. ”
The next day, I started this big plan to contact my friends. The first one I called was my roommate from college. He helped me many times, and the reason why I dared to call him first was that the promise I made so many years ago is still deep.
"What have you been busy with lately? There's something I want you to help with. "When the call came through, I tried my best to make it sound light.
"What's the matter? You say. ”
"That's the case, I'm in a hurry to scrape together 150,000 yuan to buy a house, can you help me scrape some together?"
There was silence on the other end of the line for a moment, "This...... It's been a bit tight lately, and there probably isn't that much to turn around. ”
"It's not a matter of how much, it's okay."
"I'll see if I can find someone to make it up, and we'll talk about it in a few days."
Hanging up the phone, I looked up at the window. It's still early spring, and the feeling of dampness and coldness in the air hasn't gone away. I remembered the house we had moved so many times that winter to save money on housing.
Several phone calls in a row were all similar answers, "I am short of money, I'll talk about it in two days", "It's not convenient recently, I'll talk when I'm free"...... These voices gradually made my heart heavy.
"They're too busy." The wife sat on the couch and whispered, "Don't be disappointed. ”
"It's okay, everyone is busy, and we have to be patient." I comforted myself and tried not to let my loss show.
After dinner, we leaned back on the couch and swiped the TV, and I proposed to go to the supermarket. Halfway through, his wife asked, "What if it's actually money, isn't there no way?" ”
"Borrow it." I clenched the steering wheel, "There's always a way, never want to give up until the last minute." ”
I nodded, "Every time we get past those difficulties, it's the same every time." ”
This kind of small daily conversation gives us a little warmth and confidence in the tired days, and although there is a little uneasiness in my heart, I always believe that there are more solutions than difficulties.
In the dead of night, I flipped through my phone's address book and suddenly remembered an old friend I hadn't been in touch with for a long time, maybe he could help this time?
"Why don't you try, maybe he's righteous enough." Even when my hands were starting to sweat when I was clenching my phone, I still cheered myself up," and I explained the situation vividly, maybe it would have been different. ”
It's a suspenseful process, and I'm not sure who's going to lend a hand in the end, but I'm hoping that the $150,000 will be raised soon. While my wife was packing up her things, I decided to keep in touch. Hope, in the midst of troubles, illuminates us like a beacon to move forward.
Early the next morning, I called my old friend from my school days, he was my iron buddy, and the friendship of many years should be helped. I dialed the phone, but I couldn't stop feeling nervous.
"It's been a long time." As soon as the phone was connected, I began to greet each other warmly.
"yes, how are you doing?"
"It's okay, the family is stable, and I'm planning to buy a house, but I still have some money."
"How much?" There was a hint of curiosity in his tone.
"About 150,000, can you help make up some?"
There was a moment of silence on the phone, "This is a bit difficult to do, I have been short of money recently, plus the various expenses of my children's schooling......"
I thought he could help me this time, but unexpectedly, reality did not go in the direction I expected. I had to bite the bullet and hang up the phone.
Walking on the street, the sun shining on the face should be warm, but the mood is inexplicably heavy. The old friendship seems to have become blurred when it comes to reality. I looked at the phone in my hand and remembered so many gatherings and jokes, why did that once rock-solid intimacy become so fragile in the face of reality?
For the next few days, I kept making phone calls. The repeated rejections made me feel more and more depressed. Every time there was a glimmer of hope on the other end of the phone, but without exception, all I got was a tiring heaviness.
"Money is tight, and it's really not very convenient lately. I've seen it for a few days? "Alas, there have been some difficulties recently, so let's talk about it when we have a chance in the future...... These words are repeated, and at the same time, I can't help but start to doubt my own worth - could it be that all these years of human relations are really just a superficial veil?
In the dead of night, I lay in bed tossing and turning, the air in the room was humid and dreary, I couldn't sleep, looking at the stars outside the window was less passionate and more melancholy. The next night, my wife and I sat at home, and the atmosphere was a little depressing.
"After making so many calls, why is there no good news?"
"I didn't want to do that, I thought I could get the money."
"Maybe they are all general acquaintances, and they are not as righteous as we think."
Her words struck me like a needle, and the uneasiness and grievances in my heart came to my heart in an instant.
"They may not really be able to help, but that's too disappointing, isn't it? I thought we had all these years of affection. ”
"What can you expect from them? Everyone has difficulties. I'm afraid we have to figure it out ourselves. ”
Before the words fell, I finally burst out with the emotions that had been deposited for a long time: "But where is the current solution?" What is it that we were so attentive to them in those years, but now we are facing them alone? ”
My wife was stunned by my sudden outburst, and then raised her voice. "What can be changed by being angry? Instead of complaining, think about what to do! ”
I knew she was right, but I couldn't vent the weight of the weight on my heart.
That night, we didn't speak again, and the air was filled with silence. I sat alone in the living room, looking out the window into the darkness, and the endless loneliness in my heart flooded with disaster. The feeling of being alone like this is unprecedented.
Who would have thought that the people who were together in those years now have their own difficulties, which really makes me feel a little helpless. In the face of this faint reality, I desperately want to clarify a truth: if even years of friendship can't withstand the impact of reality, then what can we rely on?
I was secretly determined that I would overcome this great hurdle no matter what. At this time, I realized who else could I count on but myself and my family? Without the blessing of human exchanges, there is only perseverance and finding a new way out. In this hard-working city, I have to learn not to rely on it, and to rely on myself for everything.
A few days later, on the weekend, my wife proposed to go to a family party, which I didn't want to go at first, because being so depressed that I lost the desire to share the joy. But she patted me lightly on the shoulder, "Maybe you need a change of scenery." ”
I reluctantly agreed, so we drove to her aunt's house. As soon as I entered the door, the lively sound and the moment full of human touch eased my heart a little.
My aunt came over to greet her with a smile on her face, "It's been a long time since I've seen you!" Come on in, the dishes are ready. ”
At the dinner table, relatives sat in a circle, and everyone enthusiastically helped his wife with food. Just as we were sharing the latest situation, my wife's unintentional words were captured by my aunt, "I'm still saving money to buy a house." ”
"Why haven't you bought it yet?"
I smiled awkwardly, "I've been having a bit of a hard time lately, so I need to work harder." ”
"If you have difficulties, just say it, everyone is a family member." There was concern in my aunt's tone.
The cousin next to him nodded, "Is there anything you can do to help?" Otherwise, when I see my brother from the big city being stumped, wouldn't it be a shame for me, the big brother? ”
I laughed, but choked speechless. On the contrary, my wife replied for me, "The main thing is that we didn't plan it ourselves, it's okay, just work hard." ”
Everyone, you say a word to me, full of concerned greetings, and the sincerity in the mood warms my heart.
After dinner, we sat in the courtyard, and when the night was getting late, my cousin came over, "As soon as I heard it, I thought that we could help our little brother, you are welcome, you can speak in any situation." ”
I stared at my toes, "It's really not about money, we're already a lot better when we see everyone like this." ”
In the dead of night, we drove home, but the mood was different and fulfilling, as if the heart was filled with warmth again. My wife held my hand, "How about it, share your feelings?" ”
"Surprisingly, this kind of touching and support is more important than anything else." I replied in a deep voice, and my thoughts gradually became clear in the street scene that slipped out the car window.
A few days later, I sat down at my desk and thought hard about how to solve the funding problem. Suddenly, the feeling that had been suppressed for a long time suddenly opened up because of the support of my family. Unexpectedly, it turned out that we still have a deposit account that is stretched thin, and after reasonable planning, the time is tighter, but it is not hopeless.
I said to my wife, "It's not that hard to just adjust your spending and save for a few months." ”
The wife nodded, "You mean, we can solve it ourselves?" ”
"That's it." I smiled with relief, "I always cared about everyone's reaction, but I forgot that I was capable, and nothing could stump us." ”
She looked at me quietly, and finally laughed out loud, "It's our own business to say anything, other people's help is just an addition, the important thing is our own efforts." ”
"Yes, how can we understand the essence of friendship and family if it is not through this process?" I sighed.
The lights outside the car slid by quickly, as if the fleeting images came back to mind. That remaining void does not need to be covered up by rhetoric, what truly belongs to us, care and understanding, often come more precious than luxury.
The wife smiled slightly, "We learned a lot this time, how good." ”
At this moment, I know that we are determined, and no matter what obstacles we encounter, the trust in each other and the support of my family will be enough for me to face all the trials head-on. Every moment of stumbling turned out to be facing a more solid reality.
Along the way, it is clear that I no longer expect too much from my friends, but that I have gained a huge amount of my own strength from the bottom of my heart. What could be more valuable than this?