Lu Yao's "Life": "The city girl who really likes Gao Jialin and pursues romantic love is finally forced to cut off his love dream because he returned to the countryside, which is empty after all. ”
"Life" is the famous work of contemporary writer Lu Yao, which won the second National Outstanding Novella Award that year, bringing countless flowers and glory to Lu Yao.
The novel tells a story of "love triangle", in which the male protagonist Gao Jialin accepts the love of the urban girl Huang Yaping and abandons his first love, the rural girl Liu Qiaozhen, in order to leave the countryside and go to the vast world. Gogarin, who walked to the city, was exposed, and once his dream was shattered, he returned to the yellow earth.
City girl Huang Yaping is smart, arrogant, elegant, and has a good temperament, she loves Gao Jialin, who was born in the countryside, with a romantic mentality, but in the end because he was sent back to the countryside, the love dream was shattered, and it was empty after all.
01
Huang Yaping is a southern girl, foreign, beautiful, since she was a child, she followed her father who was a soldier all over the country, and met Gao Jialin when she was in high school in this small county, and she was deeply impressed by him.
She likes this boy's broad vision and good speech, and feels that he is very similar to herself, arrogant and unwilling, and the two have a lot of common topics together.
After graduating from high school, Gao Jialin returned to the countryside, and Huang Yaping stayed in the city, and the two lost contact. For three years, no one was contacted.
When they were in school, Huang Yaping and Gao Jialin had similar interests; After graduation, one was in the countryside and the other was in the city, and the huge gap between the two made Huang Yaping discouraged.
At this time, another classmate, Zhang Kenan, walked into her life. Zhang Kenan is also from a cadre family, and the two seem to be a good match.
Zhang Kenan likes Huang Yaping, and he cares about her when he has nothing to do. I went back to the radio station on March 1st, sent food and drink, and bought it for her immediately.
After a long time, Yaping found that Kenan had a hard work and a kind heart; In terms of life, he is a very thoughtful person and has a good temper.
It's just that there is something about Kenan that she doesn't like, and she always feels like the two of them are missing something together.
Kenan is attentive and thoughtful, and he will take care of Yaping like an attentive nurse and nanny when she is sick. Although he is a man, he is more attentive than a woman and can cook. When she was sick and had no appetite, he changed his tricks to coax her to eat.
Yaping was finally moved and accepted Kenan's love.
This is a love that lasts for a long time, not a love that is as passionate as fire.
Huang Yaping realized that this love was flawed, and she was not satisfied.
On this day, Kenan happily called Yaping to their house for dinner, saying that he had caught a few fresh fish, and his mother had brought them home to make them.
In this regard, Huang Yaping said angrily: Eat, eat, eat, you mother and son know how to eat, you see that you are about to eat into a pig, the sweater I knitted for you last year, just wore it for a winter, and the neckline is as big as the mouth of the barrel!
Look at how meanly Huang Yaping, a cultivated city girl, speaks.
You can't hide loving someone, and neither can you not love.
For a while, Kenan was scolded and scolded, helpless, and wanted to cry in confusion......
The love between Huang Yaping and Zhang Kenan is undoubtedly Zhang Kenan's wishful thinking, and his head shaving is hot; Huang Yaping was not interested in him at all, but because there was really no other object around her, she reluctantly accepted Zhang Kenan.
02
Suddenly, one day, Huang Yaping found Gao Jialin's manuscript while working, she didn't believe it at first, but after reading it over and over again, she was sure that it was Gao Jialin's writing.
She couldn't help but be surprised and delighted.
A girl's heart that was about to move was flooding again.
Only then did she know that Gogarin had been transferred to work in the city, so she frequently chatted with Gogarin after work, and sent him a love poem:
At this time, Huang Yaping was subtle. She believes that she, the family and resources behind her, can provide a broader sky for the "wild goose" to swim to her heart's content, and with her, Gogarin's future is more secure.
It's an inducement.
Yaping is a modern girl with a very ego, in her opinion, the pursuit of love is a person's right and freedom, "I am my own", and no one has the right to interfere with her pursuit, including her parents; Not to mention that she and Zhang Kenan are still in a relationship; It's that she's married, and she finds out that she actually loves another person, and she's going to divorce him!
Today, in our opinion, Yaping's idea is too selfish, but it cannot be denied that this idea is very selfish, and it is very independent and decisive in that still very closed era.
Finally, there are women who are willing to live for themselves.
Yaping is a love supremacist. Soon, she confessed to Gogarin, and after a few days of waiting, she also got the answer she wanted.
Gogarin agreed to associate with her. However, before that, he had to cut ties with his girlfriend.
Faced with the reality that Gao Jialin has a rural girlfriend, Huang Yaping is very incomprehensible:
Why should women be embarrassed by women! A selfish (selfish) woman like Huang Yaping must not be able to experience Qiaozhen's great love that is willing to sacrifice herself for love.
Gao Jialin finally broke off with Qiaozhen and was with Huang Yaping.
The love between the two is high-profile and flamboyant, setting off a romantic wind in the small county town: swimming at noon every day, wearing big sunglasses to bask in the sun by the river; In the evening, ride the same car and swagger through the city, wearing a fashionable trench coat...... Catch someone’s eye.
It is said that the whole city is scolding them behind their backs.
If it weren't for such a swagger, Kenan probably wouldn't be so miserable, and his mother probably wouldn't be so angry, and maybe she wouldn't have reported that Gogarin had gotten a job through the back door.
Huang Yaping is the same as before, squeamish and contrived.
One day, it was pouring rain, and Gao Jialin was in a meeting when he received a call from Huang Yaping, asking him to go to the place where she played yesterday to help her find a lost knife...... Gogarin said that he had a meeting, and Huang began to cry. In desperation, Garin had no choice but to invite fake rain to go, and searched all the corners, but still couldn't find it, and his whole body was soaked...... Helpless, he had to go and tell his girlfriend that he didn't find it.
Huang Yaping smiled after hearing this, she held the knife in her hand and was elated: she didn't lose it at all. I just want to see if you have me in your heart......
Unexpectedly, Gogarin scolded: Bastard!
Huang Yaping was terrified. But it's exciting, isn't it? In the past, Kenan had always been obedient to me, and there was no blood at all. Or Garin is more manly. He's going to get angry! Love this man so much......
03
At the end of the novel, after Koknan's mother reports the fact that Gogarin came to work in the city through the back door, Gogarin is returned to the countryside.
Huang Yaping was in great pain.
Where was the focus of her pain? This is self-evident: she sincerely loved Gogarin, but she also sincerely did not want Gogarin to be a peasant! It is this contradiction that she suffers from!
On the one hand, Huang Yaping thinks that her love for Gao Jialin is sincere and warm, and she is unwilling to give up this ideal love; On the other hand, she was afraid that Gogarin would turn back into a peasant and never get out of that small mountain village for the rest of his life.
She didn't dare bet.
Fortunately, Gao Jialin proposed: or his ex-girlfriend Liu Qiaozhen is more cute. Gogarin ended the conflict and pain of his current girlfriend with his own choice, and also ended this false love like a mirror.
In fact, it is not wrong for Huang Yaping to give up the warm man Zhang Kenan and choose the "macho man" Gao Jialin, pursuing his ideal love. What's wrong is that she is too utilitarian, oscillating between love ideals and real life, unable to cross the huge gap between the two identities, and in the end the two can only break up.
In the end, Huang Yaping's romantic love was miscarried, maybe, later, she probably returned to Zhang Kenan's arms, right? After all, Yaping's father had already found a job for Kenan in the south......
Dreaming back at midnight, will Huang Yaping occasionally think of a love game with that rural genius?