It is very interesting that Zheng Jun is actually a chimera of clear spiritual contradictions:
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Sometimes open-minded adult beauty, sometimes despicable and obscene, both graceful and generous and understanding, but also asshole sour, the first few minutes of intimate conversation and laughter with people, the next minute will be angry and turn over the crown and turn their faces and not recognize people...
It is really wonderful that these diametrically opposed and fundamentally opposed behaviors or qualities can coexist in the slightly sick shell of a thin, nervous "literary youth";
Unconsciously, almost instantaneously, he realized the transformation from an extreme individualist who stubbornly insisted on personal pleasure and utilitarian ideas to an optimistic soldier who consciously dedicated himself to the motherland, devoted himself to the frontier, and despised all suffering and even sacrifice;
And the key to all this lies in the existence of Yang Yueliang, in his luck and happiness to meet and finally get her true love. This may also be "one thing drops one thing".
This is also the power of "love".
ii) "Village Girl" Yang Yueliang's enlightenment and reconstruction of Zheng Jun's soul
Zheng Jun was a very emotional "literary and artistic youth", in the darkest moment of his soul, the encounter with Yang Yueliang gave him the opportunity to vent his depression; and then Yang Yueliang exuded the "natural sound" harmony of natural wild beauty, which made him shake up and sweep away the haze in his heart; the common hobby and tacit spiritual resonance made him suddenly discover the simple and wild local beauty scattered by Yang Moon against the background of the vast grassland and the clear sky, and even more sublimated his ideological realm.
It must be pointed out that for a "literary and artistic person" who has a pure or artistic component in the factors of character, romanticism and idealism are often the characteristics that determine their fate in life; compared with the material environment and conditions, they pay more attention to the liberation of a free, unfettered mind and thought. For example, the famous "King of Northwest Song" Wang Luobin, a Han Chinese, since 1938, has abandoned the bustling and lively metropolitan life of Beijing, traveled thousands of miles and roads to take root in the wild land of the northwest, immersed and reveled in the folk songs of the Western Regions full of ethnic minority customs, and devoted himself to researching and sorting out the popular classics "The Girl of Dabancheng", "In That Distant Place", "Half MoonLight Climbed Up", "Lift Up Your Hijab", "Alam Han" and "Under the Silver Moonlight" and other immortal songs.
Zheng Jun, as a "literary youth" who loves music, is much more sensitive to hearing (that is, "sound", including 'musical tone' and 'noise') than vision (Yang Yueliang's youthful and beautiful appearance and figure, etc.); therefore, the first thing he feels is the female "zhiyin" in front of him who is suitable for the "chord" - knowing him, understanding his state of mind.
And it was Yang Yueliang's agitated, high-pitched and beautiful harmony that swept away Zheng Jun's "small self" consciousness that was at first confined to it and was difficult to extricate himself from and obsessed with material life, and her positive and optimistic singing and mentality deeply infected Zheng Jun, and stirred up the romantic and idealistic "big me" feelings of pursuing spiritual happiness and realizing self-worth in his heart; since then, he has begun to examine his "being held" in this vast green grassland full of vitality with a new and completely different gaze from the past. Begin to accept and enjoy the fiery life of the legion that is "hard and happy" and "simple but happy"...
iii) Zheng Jun's love for Yang Yueliang: "selfish" or "selfless"? The insincere "Qi Yang" marriage matchmaking
Some people say that love is selfish. Zheng Junming knew that Yang Yueliang was bent on marrying Qi Huaizheng, but still "added chaos between her and Qi Huaizheng" and "swore that he would always wait for her".
At the same time, some people say that true love should be selfless. It is also true that although Zheng Jun "declares that he only likes" Yang Yueliang, he has claimed that he "can help persuade Qi Huaizheng" to marry her; and he has also faithfully fulfilled his promise:
On the day of the inauguration ceremony of the test station, Zheng Jun secretly reflected to Li Guoxiang the situation of Qi Huaizheng's repentance, and Li Guoxiang was angry and rushed to Qi Huaizhengxing to ask for his guilt, forcing him to complete the marriage with Yang Yueliang tonight.
However, when he heard the news that "Yang Yueliang was crying with joy", Zheng Jun was "secretly sulking" on the side...
All of the above, the contradictory manifestations of selfishness and selflessness, both voluntary and unwilling, reveal Zheng Jun's complex true feelings for Yang Yueliang in three parts:
On the one hand, he loved her without complaint and was loyal; on the other hand, he sincerely hoped that she would be happy and did not want to wronged her in the slightest.
Human nature is sometimes so gritty and contradictory, like "incomprehensible" in another sense.
This is life, this is the world of all sentient beings...