01
The matchmaker in the village introduced me to a blind date, a girl from more than a thousand kilometers west, the daughter of a relative of the matchmaker's mother,three years younger than me, without a job, and currently selling brine vegetables for her parents at home.
I'm almost thirty years old this year, and 25-year-old men and women in our village are generally married, and people over 25 years old are talked about before they are married.
After graduating from secondary school, I went to work in the factory, and every month I got a salary of about four thousand, my parents worked at the construction site, two people eight or nine thousand when I lived more, and two talents four or five thousand when I lived less. But they tried their best to build a three-story self-built house for me to get married, and the family still owes more than 100,000 yuan to relatives and friends to build a house. Because there is no money, the home has not been decorated much, and it is a simple cement house.
I grew up and didn't fall in love much, and when I first graduated, I went into the factory and liked a girl who was a few years older than me, named Ah Hua, and I wanted to see her every day. Paid to invite her to dinner and watch movies, we talked about love for almost half a year, originally thought we would be together, who knows my parents can't accept A Hua divorced, gave birth to a child, said that Ning Que is not indiscriminate, no matter the lack of women can not find a woman who married and had a child for the second marriage, shame.
I argued with my parents, saying that Ah Hua is a good woman, do not abandon me, and you will regret losing her.
The reason I say this is because I was born with a little disability and a finger growing next to the thumb of my left and right hands. In the past, when I was studying, I was ridiculed by my classmates, and they even married me a nickname, Twelve Fingers. Because of this, I have always been quite inferior.
Before the family was poor, did not think about doing surgery to cut off, and then gradually grew up to get used to, always feel that they are also a part of my body, although it will attract strange eyes can not hurt or pain, I do not care, the important thing is that I consulted a doctor, to spend a lot of money, it is better to take this money to pay off the debt, this matter will not be solved.
Now it's hard for Ah Hua to look at me, and my mother still beats Mandarin ducks. Roar me, you guys together I not only regret it but also have a short life! Because of my family's opposition, Ah Hua quit her job and did not say goodbye. I couldn't find her. My first relationship ended in a vacuum.
02
After I separated from Ah Hua, I threw myself into my work and had no interest in marriage, mainly because my hands were strangely looking and no woman was willing to approach me.
As I got older, my mom began to get anxious, and in recent years she has been asking people to introduce me to people. WeChat video chat is very good, about to meet out, people will not have the following, directly block me. My mom asked the matchmaker what was going on? Saying that my family has a house, I have a serious job, and the wedding bride price car will definitely be indispensable in the future, why are they unwilling?
The matchmaker told the truth, saying that they felt terrible at the sight of my fingers and did not want to affect the next generation.
No way, my mother said that as long as it is a woman, no matter where it is, how old she will accept it.
If you know today, why did you know it in the first place?
The matchmaker asked for a circle of He Ling, the unmarried daughter of her mother-in-law's relatives.
I was afraid that He Ling would feel uncomfortable when she saw my fingers after seeing me, so I told her in advance about the strange appearance of my body, and intentionally or unintentionally showed her my hands during the video chat. He Ling did not show any resistance.
After we talked for two or three months, the matchmaker said that the two of us talked so closely, and we were not young, so let's get a license to get married early. He Ling's family proposed a dowry of 150,000 yuan, and our family agreed, because now it is all this market, who is called a wolf with more meat and less meat.
03
Our family did not have much money, originally saved tens of thousands of plans to use to decorate the house, for the cost of my wedding bride price banquet, my parents cheekily borrowed more than 100,000 yuan from relatives and friends.
An uncle who worked in the city reminded my parents to go to the woman's house to see what was going on and to find a neighbor to find out what the girl's character was. Otherwise, when the meat bun beats the dog, there will be no return.
The matchmaker patted her chest to ensure that He Ling was the daughter of a good family, saying that her parents were weak and sick and sold brine vegetables for a living, He Ling used to go out to work and send most of her salary back to her parents, and her brother's college expenses were still earned by He Ling's part-time work. Listening to the matchmaker's words, plus He Ling photographed her family's house for us, her parents and her own ID card, I chose to believe that she is a simple and kind woman.
A week after the hundred thousand dowry, He Ling, her parents and brother came to my house by train.
He Ling smiled and bowed her head when she saw me, but her parents looked at my fingers, and there was a flash of surprise on their faces.
This was the first time I had seen it, more feminine and charming than on my phone, although wearing simple jeans and a white shirt, her skin was like snow, and her slim jade hands did not look like a girl doing housework at home. He Ling said that after graduating from high school, she worked as a waiter in a Restaurant in Guangdong, and later improved to the front desk, with no wind and rain, and naturally fair skin. In the past year, he has only returned to the blind date at the urging of his family.
After we received the license, my family held more than twenty tables of banquets according to local customs, and also wrapped 10,000 red envelopes for my brother-in-law. My father-in-law and mother-in-law smiled happily. They played here for a week, eating, drinking and having fun, I was all inclusive, and when I left, I was afraid that they would be too tired in the train, so I bought a plane ticket.
Although this trip almost squeezed out my salary for a few months, I still felt that it was worth it to marry a beautiful and gentle woman like He Ling. There are some long-tongued women in the village who have married such a beautiful wife, always talking behind my back, saying that He Ling is not a woman who lives a life, and I will be wearing a green hat sooner or later. If it weren't for He Ling's broad-mindedness, I would definitely have torn their crow mouths.
04
After He Ling came over, my parents hurt her very much and spoiled her as a daughter. Housework is not done by her, but my parents often urge us to have a child quickly, and I don't need He Ling to go out to work, saying that she is not familiar with life and is afraid of being deceived. I can't wait to go back to her every day after work. As soon as the monthly salary arrived, he quickly transferred it to her before it was hot.
I just don't know why, He Ling's feelings for me are always faint, although not as cold as frost, but always feel less like a normal couple.
I've seen our co-workers just get married, the two are always flirting, the co-workers are drinking outside and going back late, and his wife is angry and keeps calling. But once I didn't go back at eleven o'clock outside, He Ling didn't pay any attention. I bought her a gift, and she couldn't see a smile on her face. It was as if there was an invisible distance between us.
I asked her if she minded my fingers? Or I'll cut it off, and I won't be bothered if I don't see it.
He Ling said no, she was a little homesick when she was just married.
Listening to her say that, I quickly bought He Ling a snack from her hometown from the Internet. He also promised that we would go back after having a baby.
Because of the meticulous care of our whole family, He Ling gradually had a smile on her face, not as depressed as when she first came.
Half a year later, He Ling became pregnant. Our whole family was happy and broken, and really took He Ling as an ancestor, and at the dinner table, she didn't move the chopsticks, and the rest of us couldn't move first. As long as she wants to eat anything, even if it is three times in the middle of the night, my mother will cook for her without complaint. In order to thank the matchmaker, in addition to the matchmaker's money that should be given, a few thousand more were given.
Even though my family is in debt, we are willing. There is hope with children, a family working together without unpaid debts, and life will always get better and better.
05
On the day He Ling gave birth, I was both excited and nervous, and I always felt that something was happening.
After three hours of struggle, He Ling gave birth to her daughter smoothly, and I named her Huan Huan. My parents were obviously a little disappointed in this newborn daughter, and the old man's thinking was still feudal, hoping to have a grandson to pass on the generations. But for me girls are cotton jackets, more intimate.
Who knows, when the nurse came out with the baby in her arms, her face was dignified. My heart jumped to my throat.
The nurse said carefully, there was something wrong with the child's hand.
I couldn't wait to open the quilt, looked at it, and was dumbfounded. This is God deliberately teasing me or genetics, my poor daughter's right thumb next to the actual growth of a finger out, pink, do not look carefully and can not find. But as you get older, it grows bigger and bigger.
My head was buzzing, I couldn't figure out why this was the case, we obviously had a timely obstetric examination, the folic acid that should be eaten was the same as calcium tablets, since He Ling became pregnant, my dad smoked all his life and did not dare to smoke at home.
It took a long time for my parents to react. My dad is frowning and sighing, my mom is crying and crying, the female baby is even if it is, how can he have one more finger like his father, why will this girl find her in-laws after that? O iniquity!
06
The whole family was a little disappointed that He Ling had a problematic daughter. I told my parents that no matter how it was my own child, I couldn't throw it away. Besides, I was born like this, can you still throw me away, and then we will go to the hospital to do it, it is no big deal. Listening to me say this, they also want to open. Six meals a day to serve He Ling confinement.
On the day He Ling was discharged from the hospital, she knew that Huan Huan had more fingers than others, and usually hugged her to feed her, and then my mother and I took turns to take care of her, and she did not carefully observe what Huan Huan looked like.
When we got home from the hospital, we were all busy. Suddenly He Ling burst into tears, and Huan Huan was also frightened by He Ling's crying. I comforted for half a day, He Ling still cried uncontrollably, she said intermittently, how can Huan Huan have one more finger, how to marry in the future? I reassured her it was okay and waited for the bigger one to go for surgery and cut it off.
On the day of He Ling's confinement, our family was busy greeting guests downstairs. He Ling took advantage of the fact that no one noticed her, and she left a letter to throw down her daughter without saying goodbye. She said that she couldn't stand living with a man with twelve fingers every day, and she couldn't accept that her daughter was such a monster. She's going back to her hometown, don't look for her.
By the time our family found out, it was already more than seven o'clock in the evening, and Huan Huan was crying in the room hungry. Friends and relatives are saying look, He Ling is here to cheat your family's money! When I first said that I would let you go to her hometown to see, I wouldn't go, so it's good! It's over, people and money are empty!
We confronted the matchmaker, who had already lost her face, saying that her mother's family and her packing ticket He Ling were good girls, and she did not return to her hometown for so many years and did not know the specific situation.
The next day, I simply packed up my bags and went to He Ling's hometown to find her.
Her parents refused to see me, and denied that He Ling had returned, and even gathered a group of relatives to find me, saying that my daughter was missing in my house, and it was good that they did not look for me to settle the account, and it was really a thief who shouted to catch the thief.
I asked the villagers and the local police station, and the truth I came up with made me dizzy.
It turned out that He Ling used to work in Guangdong entertainment venues. I can earn thousands of dollars a night, and my salary of four or five thousand a month is not at all dismissive of He Ling.
She was not only a young lady, but also a junior.
He Ling knew her husband, Lao Li, and the two had a disgraceful affair. He Ling was once pregnant with Lao Li's child, and was violently beaten by the original partner and miscarried. It's well known to their locals. He Ling's parents felt humiliated and asked someone to let her marry far away, and the farther away she married, the better. Old Li learned that the original match went to make trouble and made a big fuss, divorced the original match, and after several turns to find He Ling's mother's family through friends, who knew that she was actually married.
Old Li had an accident on the way to talk about business, and now his life is in danger in the hospital. He Ling did not say goodbye and went to the hospital to take care of it.
For my daughter Huan Huan, He Ling, as a mother, is ruthless and unjust, abandoning her own daughter in disregard; for Old Li, He Ling is a sentient and righteous woman, and she is always by his side when she is seriously ill.
And for He Ling, I can only be a passer-by in life. She said that she couldn't give me feelings, let alone give joy to a family. He Ling returned the bride price given by my family and the salary I gave her to me through WeChat transfer, and when Huan Huan grew up, she went to find a hospital to get her fingers straightened out.
I know that I can't take this woman away, even if her body is willing to go home with me, her heart is not on me, is she sentient or unrighteous? My marriage to her, I don't know if it is fate or robbery. When I met a woman like this, I had to admit my fate.