Let's hold hands now!
The first time I noticed Yang Jin was at the autumn sports meeting held by the school.
It was a 100-meter men's sprint that afternoon, and with the sound of a gunshot, several boys rushed toward the finish line like unstringed arrows. One of the runners in our department ran first, and at this time my heart was tightened, my eyes were firmly fixed on him, and I couldn't help but stand up and squeeze my fist to cheer him on. Sure enough, he lived up to expectations and took the first place.
When he was sure he was number one, he kept making grimaces at his classmates. Seeing the big smile on his face, my heart moved: he smiled too much like my first love! I hurriedly asked the classmate next to me if he knew his name. Classmates told me that his name is Yang Jin, and he usually likes to write something and publish it in the school newspaper. "I heard that he is a famous talent!" My classmate told me solemnly. I instantly engraved the name in my own mind.
After the games, the first class we took was college language. During recess, I inadvertently turned my head and looked around. Suddenly, a smiling face came into my eyes: It was Yang Jin! I was stunned, I really didn't expect such a coincidence!
The next class, I fidgeted. On the one hand, he was worried that his bad image would leave a bad impression on Yang Jin; on the other hand, he wanted to turn his head to see what Yang Jin was doing, but he was afraid that his actions were too abrupt and scared him. In that class, my mind was racing, and I didn't listen to what the teacher was saying.
Since then, I have tried my best to sit next to Yang Jin and approach him as an ordinary classmate. Soon, I became acquainted with Yang Jin.
One day after lunch, Yang Jin suddenly stopped me and asked, "Do you have time at noon?" How about we go to dinner together? "This is the first time I've received an invitation from him, and I was so excited that I quickly nodded in agreement. But when I came to the restaurant, I found a man and a woman sitting inside, and they all smiled at me when they saw me walk in. Yang Jin hurriedly brought me to them.
I thought Yang Jin was embarrassed to be alone with me, so he specially pulled two accompanying guests. I was happy to see him value me so much. That night, on the way back to the bedroom, Yang Jin handed me a love letter. I opened the love letter with a flushed face, but my heart was half cold: it turned out that this love letter was written by Yang Jin's good friend, the boy who ate with us at noon.
The next day, when I met Yang Jin again, he handed me a love letter. Or the boy wrote it. Since then, he has given me a love letter written by someone else every day. I really hate him for being so stupid, why can't I see that I like him?
A month later, Yang Jin stopped me again and asked, "Do you like others or not, you can't always hang on to others!" Looking at the way he was out of the matter, I blurted out: "You don't know that the person I like is you!" ”
Yang Jin's expression immediately froze, he couldn't believe his ears, and after half a day, he left me in a daze. After the truth was revealed, I also felt that I was not reserved enough, and I went back to the bedroom with pity.
For two days in a row, I didn't even dare to look at him in class, and his eyes were evasive, as if we were all running away from something.
After the self-study class, Yang Jin stopped me and asked, "Is it true that you slept that night?" I lowered my head and whispered, "If you want to be serious, it is true; if you don't want to be serious, it is false." ”
Yang Jin was silent for a while and said, "Then let's start this relationship now!" ”
His dignified appearance, coupled with his comical remarks, made me laugh. At this time, he quietly reached out his hand, looked for my hand, and said solemnly again: "Well, let's start holding hands now!" ”
Since then, Yang Jin and I have officially determined the relationship between men and women.
Popular lover
Perhaps because I took the initiative to confess, Yang Jin always seemed to be a little twisted. My friends all say that I love him more than he loves me. After falling in love with him, I would carry a large bag of snacks to the dormitory every day to see him, and his roommates would follow him, and if they didn't see me for a day, they would feel that something was missing. In contrast, Yang Jin is too inattentive, even if I have a birthday, he will not send me a gift. One of the things he used to hang on his lips was, "You're not as pretty as my former girlfriend, but you're better than she was to me." ”
At the end of April 2003, Yang Jin and I went to live outside the school. After living with him, his shortcomings were exposed: willfulness, stinginess and violence. We had a small quarrel for three days, a big quarrel for five days, and he would do something to me when he was in a hurry. During the final exam, because I didn't pass on the answer to him, he actually slapped me in front of everyone. I think he's getting more and more incomprehensible.
When the summer vacation came, I found a job as a wine pusher, and Yang Jin threw his resume around without hearing back, so he stayed in the house we rented. Because neither party reached out to the family for money, life was tight during that time, and we often quarreled over money. On this day, I quarreled with Yang Jin again over a small matter, and in a hurry, he beat me again. Before leaving the door, I said to Yang Jin, "Tonight, I will not come back, I will make you pay the price!" Then, rush out the door.
I wandered slowly to the hotel and dazedly changed into my overalls. Just as I sat listlessly in my chair and thought about it, a colleague took out a small piece of paper with a string of numbers written on it and said to me, "Yesterday a guest asked me to give you this note. ”
I took the note and asked confusedly, "Who is it?" ”
"Didn't you sell him a bottle of wine yesterday?" I heard it's your school! "Colleagues remind me. It dawned on me that there had been a handsome guest in the restaurant yesterday. I thought he was very familiar, and for a moment I couldn't remember who it was. When I got to his side, I remembered that he was the security guard of our school, usually in and out, no wonder it was familiar. I immediately leaned in and asked, "Do you want a bottle of wine?" Then I asked him if he worked in the Aoyama area.
As soon as he heard this, he immediately turned his head and asked, "Are you from school?" I nodded, and he immediately cheerfully ordered a bottle of wine. When I was out of the room, he also asked me if I would go back with him at night. I shook my head and refused. Didn't expect him to leave a phone number.
I put the note in my bag and turned to get busy.
After work, I walked around the street alone. I really didn't want to go back to that cold home, I knew, and all that awaited me was a storm.
When I was bored, I pulled out the phone number in my bag and called the security guard. Soon, the magnetic voice of the security guard came over. He asked me if I was free at night and if I could hang out together. I said yes.
After a while, he came to me in a borrowed car. As soon as he saw me, he said, "Although we met alone for the first time today, it felt very lucky. What kind of person do you think I am? ”
I looked at him carefully and said, "You're a popular lover." ”
The security guard listened and looked at me meaningfully: "Then why are you in contact with me?" ”
I replied, "I have a boyfriend, what am I afraid of?" ”
The security guard smiled and ignored me. Then he took me for a ride on East Lake. I kept complaining to the security guards, saying how Yang Jin was sorry for me. The security guard didn't say anything, just looked at me with his understanding eyes. We didn't go back until late at night.
I want revenge
On the evening of August 1, as soon as I stepped through the school gates, the security guard called me. When he knew I had just gotten out of the car, he said happily, "You see, we're really pretty lucky." You don't want to go home anyway, so you might as well come to my office and sit down first. ”
I said yes. He was the only one in the office. After he saw me, he excitedly invited me to play in Hankou. I thought to myself, it's all right anyway, so I went with him. We played until two or three o'clock in the night before returning to school.
It was late at night, and there were no pedestrians in sight on the street. In the dim light, he asked me where to go to sleep. I knew he was tempting me on purpose, and if I didn't come home that night, something would have happened between me and him, but I still made him decide where to spend the night. The security guard asked to go to his dormitory, and said that he promised not to do anything to me. I thought that if something happened between me and him, it was also Yang Jin's harm, and Yang Jin should be responsible! So I went to the security guard's dormitory.
That night, almost in a daze, something happened to me and the security guards that shouldn't have happened. I really don't understand how I could have a relationship with a man who is basically stranger. I am not a casual person, and the only reasonable explanation is that I want to retaliate against Yang Jin through this way.
When I woke up in the morning, I unconsciously asked the security guard, "What will happen between us?" The security guard said with an innocent face: "What else can I do?" Don't you have a boyfriend? ”
I was so angry, it wasn't worth it for myself! I'd rather believe that the security guard is with me because he likes me, and I really can't accept that the security guard is just playing with me! At the beginning, I was proud of my revenge on Yang Jin, and when I heard the shameless words of the security guard, I suddenly felt that I was very dirty and very despicable, and it was not easy to find anyone, but I was looking for him, which not only humiliated Yang Jin, but also degraded my personality.
After I got home, I didn't want Yang Jin to touch me, because I was already very dirty and I didn't know how to face Yang Jin.
On August 2, reluctantly, I called the security guard again. As a result, as soon as he saw that it was my call, he would not answer. Hit again and he shut down. He hasn't contacted me since. It was as if he were a bubble coming out of the bottom of the sea and disappeared all at once.
During that time, I was very depressed, and the relationship with Yang Jin fell into an unprecedented silence. Yang Jin saw that our relationship had reached a dead end, so he proposed to go back to his hometown and let us both be calm and calm.
On August 14, the security guard, who had disappeared for more than ten days, suddenly called me. He said he would be waiting for me on the grass at the school. After work, I hurried to the school and found him standing on the grass. For a moment, I didn't know what to say, and stood there straight, unable to take another step.
At this time, the security guard greeted him, and said with a hippie smile: "I haven't seen you for such a long time, will you miss me?" I felt sick and hurried to pick up my pace and prepare to leave.
Xia Ke suddenly felt a little difficult to say, and said, "That day, for some reason, I was actually with him again." We seem to be playing a game without thinking about the consequences. ”
Afterwards, I regretted it very much, and it was difficult to understand why I had fallen into this. I have repeatedly told myself that I must not take the wrong step again.
On the 20th, when I attended a class reunion, I drank a lot of wine. Just after stepping into the school gate, the security guard called again. As I spoke, I couldn't help but cry: "Why are you doing this to me?" "The security guard heard that something was wrong with me and rushed to my side.
He wanted to help me, and I wouldn't let him help me, even asking him why he was doing this to me. He said seriously: "In fact, from the very beginning, you knew that I was a popular lover. To tell you the truth, I've been in contact with a lot of girls before you. Between me and you, it's purely mutual need. We can't have results, you won't be my first and you won't be the last! ”
I went crazy, slapped the security guard with my hand, and left.
During this time, I hated myself, and I also hated Yang Jin, if it wasn't for him doing this to me, how could I have become like this?