Hua Yuhan | wen
Liu Xiaomin, flower butterfly.
Wearing a pair of small white shoes, walking on the street is particularly beautiful.
The man chased him and broke his leg, hiding in the house and kissing him.
This oil poem against Liu Xiaomin is an insult in Liu Xiaomin's eyes, but in Chen Zhuo's mouth, it has become the only way for Li Ping and others to express jealousy.
The 80s was a special era, and people in that era were still full of yearning and passion for the literary carrier of poetry as a form.
Liu Xiaomin was also a member of that group of young people, and like most young people of that era, she liked to read poetry and copied poetry.
As a result, she met and knew Teacher Su, who had the same hobbies.
Maybe it's a spiritual fit, or maybe it's just a shared love of poetry.
Such a pair of men and women, in the letters exchanged with each other, will inevitably reveal some poetic admiration.
Although Liu Xiaomin yesterday or today did not admit that he had an abnormal male-female relationship with Teacher Su.
But from the only words she told Chen Zhuo about Teacher Su, she could still see some clues.
In Liu Xiaomin's mouth, Teacher Su is a tall, skinny boy.
In the letter with Teacher Su to copy poems, Liu Xiaomin specifically mentioned Shu Ting's "To the Oak Tree".
Although in the mouth of the author Shu Ting herself, this "To the Oak Tree" is not a love poem, readers still like to appreciate this poem as a love poem.
Because Shu Ting used "Kapok" to "Oak" monologue in the poem, she expressed her ideals and concept of love.
The oak tree, which represents the masculine beauty of men, and the kapok tree, which represents the feminine beauty of women, have also become the representative works of "obscure poetry".
However, in reality, oak trees can never grow with kapok.
Such an image is almost like the relationship between Liu Xiaomin and Teacher Su.
Two young men and women who already had a family could hardly come together in those days.
Even if they come together spiritually, they are not allowed by the world.
Not to mention Li Ping and others, the catchy oil poetry echoed in the streets and alleys.
Roots, clenched in the ground, leaves, touching in the clouds.
Every time the gust of wind passed, we greeted each other, but no one understood our words.
Yes, no one can understand the words of Liu Xiaomin and Teacher Su.
In the end, Teacher Su compromised, he completely disappeared from Liu Xiaomin's world, and he let go of everything that once belonged to him
There is no living person, no dead body.
We share the cold waves, the wind and thunder, and the thunderbolts; we share the mist, the streams, and the rainbows.
It is as if they are separated forever, but they are dependent on each other for life.
The ideal is full, but the reality is incomparable backbone.
Liu Xiaomin did not see or wait for oak's promise to Kapok in the poem, although she was separated from Teacher Su forever, she did not rely on her for life.
Her heart was utterly disappointed, and she gave up all the fantasies and poetic meanings of poetry.
She was gone, she was gone from that sad place, and she began to wander and wander alone.
Liu Xiaomin, who used to be, liked Shu Ting's poetry.
She is a representative figure of the obscure poetry school, and she is the representative figure of the most controversial, influential and far-reaching poetry genre in the 80s.
At that time, Liu Xiaomin may have been attracted by the spiritual world shown in the poems.
It is a hazy beauty that lies between expressing oneself and hiding oneself.
This is also why when she quarreled with Wang Sumin, she would say that her marriage was just an extension of her mother's will.
Liu Xiaomin, who used to be, liked Haizi's poetry.
The poet who died young, the most important poems are known to the world after he left us.
As he wrote in his best-known poem "Facing the Sea, Spring Blossoms":
Strangers, I also bless you, may you have a brilliant future, may you have a lover to become a family, may you be happy in the world, I only wish to face the sea, spring and warm flowers.
At that time, liu Xiaomin, when communicating with Teacher Su, would he also have the same state of mind?
Neither she nor he had the courage or ability to resist, and perhaps they had no intention of changing their fate in their hearts.
So, Liu Xiaomin left, in the far north, she had a house, facing the sea, spring blossoms.
And the disappeared Teacher Su? Will he have his own house?
Liu Xiaomin, who used to be, liked Tagore's poetry.
He was a poet and at the same time a philosopher.
For Tagore, his poems were gifts to God, and he himself was God's suitor.
He was a saint, a poet and philosopher of epic status.
Tagore had great achievements in many aspects, but for Liu Xiaomin, these may not be important.
Perhaps only Tagore's attack on the feudal marriage system in his works, while speaking out for young men and women who strive for marital autonomy, is the most attractive to Liu Xiaomin.
As Bing Xin said: Tagore's works are full of emotion, bright tone, and gorgeous words. The style is also more innocent, more cheerful, more mysterious.
Chen Zhuo, who is with Liu Xiaomin today, is very similar to Tagore who once accompanied Liu Xiaomin?
Today's Liu Xiaomin may no longer have the desire for poetry in the past, but she has more goals in life.
She is no longer obsessed with the love between men and women, and she devotes more of her energy to her family and career.
For Liu Xiaomin today, the poetry of the past is just a dispensable life adjustment.
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