Finally waited until Friday, walked out of the company, at the traffic light intersection to watch the traffic jams and crowds on the road during the rush hour, it turned out that everyone was eager to go home in the same mood!
But I seemed to be more anxious, and the reason why this weekend was more important for me than ever, because two years ago today, I was with Ah Yang.
This weekend should be a day full of rituals!
The car is driving on the way home, the street lights alternate between light and dark, recalling the past with Ah Yang, I think the most perfect happiness should be with him!
Just arrived home, found that the door is hidden, a bouquet of champagne-colored roses on the coffee table came into view, from graduation to now Ah Yang's small details have never been absent.
After a week of overtime, he was so tired that he fell asleep without changing his shoes. Usually Ah Yang cooks, let's do it yourself today!
Ah Yang likes chicken wings, I like fish, we like tomato scrambled eggs together, these dishes are usually not difficult to see Ah Yang do well, I can definitely do well!
After a busy meal, the tomato scrambled eggs turned into tomato soup, the chicken wings were covered with red blood, the fish was still pasted in the pot and could not be shoveled, and Ah Yang was finally attracted by the aroma (paste) and woke up.
The darkness of these dishes, Ah Yang's cooking skills can not be remedied. Finally decided to go out to eat.
Half an hour of makeup, half an hour of changing into a newly purchased small dress, Ah Yang was almost asleep again.
Just started to eat, but the stomach is faintly painful, as soon as I go to the bathroom, I found that it is the physiological period, which has always been Remembered by Ah Yang, and will help me buy sanitary napkins by the way.
I was anxiously waiting in the bathroom for Ah Yang to appear, and what broke my mind was a crisp tap and greeting from the waitress "Does the lady need any help?" I hurriedly fled the bathroom with the help of the waiter.
Ah Yang took my mobile phone on the table and asked why I had been gone for so long and forgot to bring it, and I bowed my head and did not speak.
The newly purchased small skirt also had a slight dirt, and it was awkward and aggrieved, and after Ah Yang accompanied me to buy back sanitary napkins and change of clothes, it was close to ten o'clock, and we returned home from a hasty meal.
Ah Yang's silence told me that he seemed a little tired.
When he woke up the next day, there was hot water and food on the table, but he didn't see Ah Yang.
Call him and hang up a few seconds later.
After more than an hour, there was still no response from him, so I had to dial his number for the second time with a confused mood and did not answer.
The physical pain and grievances filled my whole body and mind at once.
Looking at the empty and quiet room, I just wanted to cry, and the occasional bark of the neighbor's dog downstairs sounded like mockery.
Call my girlfriend Xiaofei, xiaofei who knows me better than Ah Yang, and wake me up with three words and two words.
Just like the movie "Two Little Guesses" said, "Good love is that you see the whole world through one person, and bad love is that you give up the world for one person." ”
Once independent and brave, I have a reasonable plan for life, but also have my own hobbies and pursuits, after being with Ah Yang, he occupies more than half of my life, I like his world, like his vision of the world, he will regularly swim and develop new hobbies, with a broad circle of friends.
In my heart, Ah Yang is so good that he will shine when he rides in the dust, and I can't see the bigger world from now on.
Relying on him in life has become my habit, which makes me feel loved.
I lost myself.
He, who has always replied to the message in seconds, disappeared in front of me today.
I want to find myself. Bring a drawing board, change into comfortable clothes, and go for a walk by the beach. This time, I don't want you.
The sea was blown to the shore by the wind, like a wave racing, stepping on the fine sand waiting for the shallow tide to retreat before the foot surface, feeling that the world had become a big playground.
A short-haired little girl in a red dress, crouching on the beach to collect shells... Cute and fun.
Can't help but draw her down, sent to Xiaofei, Xiaofei asked me where I am, I said I am thinking about life by the sea, Xiaofei then quipped, thinking about life can be, don't think about it! (I want to hit someone, but I have to endure it)
Preparing to go home, he turned around and saw Ah Yang. Perhaps in a hurry, there were obviously a few spots of sweat on the white shirt. The phone interface is the little girl I just drew.
"Long time no see" Ah Yang looked at me.
Well, I haven't seen myself like this for a long time, I love life and see more scenery.
Finally, write to Ah Yang:
Thank you for letting me be a carefree child in my relationship, I will also tolerate your occasional tiredness and desire to escape, and we will grow up together. Be your princess, be your own queen, love your own universe.