For many post-70s, Sanmao represents the youth memories of many people, this thin oriental woman, but wandering most of the world.
When everyone is overwhelmed by the pressure of work and life, Sanmao's free lifestyle and attachment to love make people envious. She created many works in her life, so that many people re-understood life and saw the beauty of life, but she could not break free of her shackles, in 1991, at the age of 47, she ended her life with her own hands.
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Sanmao has been a different girl since she was a child, Sanmao is her pen name, the original name is Chen Ping, but in fact, there is a "Mao" character in her name, which is arranged according to the family tree
However, Sanmao felt that this word was really difficult to write, so he made up his own mind to change it
finish.
When she went to school, Sanmao attended the last girls' high school in Taipei, but her grades were very strong, and she loved literature, and her math scores were a mess, which made her sensitive heart even more anxious.
Later, due to corporal punishment by the math teacher in front of everyone, she had a tendency to be autistic, who was already lonely.
In the end, I had to take a break from school, and I took a break for 7 years.
Thankfully, she had an enlightened pair of parents who didn't listen to other people's descriptions of their daughters, but found the root cause and agreed to take them out of school.
The father saw that his daughter was always alone in a daze, and felt that it was really inappropriate to waste such a waste of time, so he thought of finding a painting teacher for her. Father invited all the famous teachers,
One of them was when studying with Gu Fusheng
Unexpectedly chatted with the teacher about literary topics, in front of Teacher Gu, Sanmao picked up the pen again, willing to write the story in his heart,
When her daughter's first work was published, her parents shed tears of excitement.
Later, before going abroad, Teacher Gu introduced Chen Xiumei to Sanmao, a very competent playmate, and under her influence, Sanmao finally plucked up the courage to enter the Chinese Culture University to observe.
On the college campus, Sanmao finally had his own social circle and met his first love.
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The other party's surname is Liang, whether it is the appearance or the inside is very outstanding, but also wrote a good hand of poetry, at first Sanmao was not convinced, but after reading the other party's poetry collection had to admit that it was indeed better than his own writing.
Later, the two fell in love and had a very happy time. But in the end, like many campus lovers, graduation became a chasm between them.
Sanmao wants to get married, but Liang Sheng wants to fight for his career first and then consider starting a family, such differences cannot be reconciled.
In the end, the two people who fell in love still lost to reality.
After ending the relationship, Sanmao chose to study abroad, and in 1967, the 24-year-old Sanmao met 16-year-old Jose in Madrid, when Jose was just an ordinary high school student, but he fell in love with Sanmao from the East at first sight.
He confessed his heart to Sanmao, hoping that she could give her 6 years, finish college, and finish military service to marry her. No
Passing the three hairs is not taken seriously, it is just the impulse of an ignorant teenager, and it is not counted.
After Sanmao returned to Taiwan, he met a much older German teacher, and sanmao found that kind of steadfastness and stability in him, but he did not think that on the eve of marriage, this German man died suddenly, leaving Sanmao alone at a loss. In the end she chose to leave and return to familiar Spain. Here she meets Jose again,
This time the two finally came together.
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In 1973, Sanmao and Jose were married in the Sahara. The Sahara, a desert that represents desolation and loneliness in the hearts of many people, has extraordinary attraction in the eyes of Sanmao.
Jose knew Sanmao's obsession with the desert, so he found a job here, and the two of them officially settled down. Life in the desert is naturally very hard, but having the company of a lover is also sweeter than bitter, but an accident in 1979, taken
After taking Jose's life, Sanmao's heart was also hollowed out.
Sanmao has recorded her love with Jose in many works, but there are always people who think that what she is writing about is the love she imagined, and some writers have written a book after walking through all the places where Sanmao and Jose lived in the past, saying that Sanmao's neighbors said that Jose did not love Sanmao so much, and even used fishing to escape her.
Maybe Sanmao just filtered out the bitterness in the book and left only sweetness, maybe she wrote only stories, not life, but how a couple gets along, the neighbors probably don't have a say, right?
Whether the feelings are true or not, Sanmao's words have the power to touch people's hearts to this day, which is enough for a writer!