At three o'clock in the morning, the mobile phone rang, pulling me from the dream to the reality, and I didn't have to think about it to know that it was Xiao Meng. "Anlan children's shoes, you listen well, I only say once, your dear Lu Xiaomeng children's shoes are getting married, as for your bridesmaid's dress, I will definitely help you customize your favorite style, you are the first person to know this news, how?" I don't feel so honored! "I hung up the phone in the aftershock. Many of them belong to the past and have swept in. Maybe time will really help you leave what you should stay and forget.
In the past, Xiaomeng always said to me: "I will never regret or regret what Lu Xiaomeng decided, and no one can change me." From the first time she said this, I felt that she and I would never be in the same world. I was a well-behaved girl who obeyed her destiny, and I never thought that I would one day take charge of my own future or destiny. Maybe to some extent, I envy Xiao Meng's life! I've always felt that I might just be able to put my life on, and the future has always been just a phantom for me. But when did this kind of bondage slowly change?
On the day of the first encounter with Xiao meng, the sun was very good, and even the air was full of the breath of life. Xiao Meng, with her long hair tied up, walked proudly in front of me, and there was still a sharp breath on her clean face, and I calmly looked at this princess who would never appear on the same channel as me. Then I turned around and opened the book of Ki Ha Gibran's "Sand and Foam", "One Flower, One World, One Sand, One Kingdom", I circulated in Gibran's story, even when the teacher called me by my name, I didn't hear it at all, the teacher angrily threw me out, I can't remember how I got out of the predicament later. I kept pausing on that sentence, and he wrote, "You may forget the person you laughed with, but you will never forget the person who cried with you." "I think when he writes here, he may stop and reach out to wipe away the tears, just at that moment, I shed tears without warning, and when I looked up, I found Lu Xiaomeng's pure eyes, she saw me and smiled at me, at the same time, threw me a ball of paper, she made a move for me to open. I opened it and wrote "Anlan children's shoes, can you invite me to eat ice cream?" I glanced around and nodded at her. After class, before I could react, she rushed over and pulled me outside, and I saw the book that I had not yet had time to close, and the bag that showed a corner of the table, and I suddenly felt unspeakable pain in my heart. In fact, we didn't go to eat ice cream that day, but went into the street at her request, which looked like a small KTV, which was the first time I felt the thrill of my heart beating faster. After that day, my life seemed to start to change, and I didn't seem to hate it.
In the summer when I was fifteen years old, Xiaomeng and I were in love again, but this time we didn't sing, but we were drinking, and Xiaomeng said that when we were fifteen years old, we should drink wine once to represent growing up. We played Liang Jingru's song that was popular many years ago, she sang "Missing is the pain of breathing, it lives in all corners of my body", we all cried, even if we did not understand why we were so sad, at that time, I just liked to be in the middle of the night, pulled the curtains, turned on the lamp, carefully flipped through the "Cangyang Gyatso Love Poem", like a pearl to cherish it as a little girl.
Once I inadvertently asked Xiao Meng, why me? Why choose me as a friend? Xiao Meng said: "Because An Lan will shed tears, because the girl who shed tears has a kind heart", I think I believed Xiao Meng's words. Therefore, when Jiang Yuxuan said to me at the age of seventeen: "An Lan, I like you who is so kind, please be my girlfriend", I would blush and smile so innocently. Not long before, Xiaomeng told me that she was going to fall in love, and we quietly went to see her teenager together, a clean and clear boy, I think I was influenced by Xiaomeng! That year, we were all in love. Jiang Yuxuan took me, and Sheng Xi took Xiao Meng. The four of us, who had been on two bikes, would skip class and sit in the café for an afternoon to chat, going to the playground on a sunny afternoon to find excitement. Every Sunday, I would send and receive letters from Xiaomeng at the mailbox, and then laugh and cry happily on the street, and rush to see their ball game after class, when we all believed that the promised things would not change.
At the age of seventeen, from the moment Jiang Yuxuan took my hand, I was doomed to escape this happy disaster. He said, "Anlan, knowing you is probably the luckiest thing I've ever done." And I am convinced of this, maybe it is love, it should be so! Jiang Yuxuan took me to see the whole city, sat on the 13 road countless times, crossed the road countless times, ate street snacks, watched the sunrise and sunset, and maybe the whole city remembered our happiness.
When we were eighteen years old, we were facing the college entrance examination, and we had long heard many people say that graduation season was the breakup season, but we didn't believe it, I firmly believed everything Jiang Yuxuan said, and Xiaomeng firmly believed everything that Sheng Xi said. That year, Xiao Meng and I volunteered to choose Jiangnan, Sheng Xi chose Peking University, and Jiang Yuxuan finally chose to go to Jiangnan with me. However, at the moment when the train started, only Xiaomeng and Yuxuan were left, and I was desperately waving on the platform, it rained that day, but I forgot to cry.
When I got home, I saw the wind blowing on the clothes on the side of the balcony, and the white canvas shoes seemed to hear the raindrops outside the window.
September came, in the temperature is still soaring weather, I still in and out of the campus without Xiaomeng, without Jiang Yuxuan, I no longer take the 13th way home, I no longer go to the lawn to see the blue sky, I make myself very busy all day, that year, I lost contact with everyone, I no longer tell Xiaomeng about my life, no longer miss Jiang Yuxuan, I thought we had passed through each other's world so easily. In the graduation season of another year, I left this familiar town, I did not choose Gangnam again, I think I was afraid to meet the teenager or girl in some corner! I locked the space, just as I had locked my heart atrium a year ago, and I thought I had just hurried past. It wasn't until Xiaomeng knocked on the door of my house that I found that I hadn't forgotten anything, Xiaomeng looked at me and didn't speak, and when she pulled me into the smoke, we still didn't talk, I think I could hold back, but when she said, Anlan, you aren't dead yet! Don't you want to know that I'm dead? At that moment, I cried, I cried hysterically, I said: Lu Xiaomeng, how the are you haunted, do you think that when you left a year ago, I didn't see Jiang Yuxuan holding your hand? Do you think I don't have a heart? Who the lost whom, don't you know? We just stayed quiet for half an hour, "I thought I liked you guys like this will be happy, I quietly turned around, I didn't blame anyone, no complaints, what else do you want me to do?" You're happy, but I guess I have no reason to know! After I said it calmly, I felt that I had let go of everything, I easily wiped away my tears, and when I wanted to turn around and leave, she hugged me, and she said, "Anlan, why can't you see the slap I gave you after I threw away his hand?" Why are you so unconvinced of my feelings for Sheng Xi? "That was the second time I got drunk after I met Lu Xiaomeng. Xiao Meng said, "An Lan, I think Sheng Xi is gone," I didn't speak, but the tears couldn't be closed anymore, and I thought I missed Jiang Yuxuan too. We took the 13th way home. I always thought that if I went along the car, I would meet at the next intersection one day, but when I sat backwards in the car, I found that life would only drift away. I didn't ask Jiang Yuxuan how he was doing, I didn't ask how Xiaomeng and Sheng Xi were, I didn't ask a lot of things I wanted to ask, just like at the end of the bleak youth, I wasn't asked if I was willing to end it. And what was once vigorous and missed is like lightning in the sky, but the sky is finally calm.
At the age of twenty-six, my dear girl told me that she was getting married, and the groom was not Sheng Hee, nor was he handsome, but the smiling girl standing next to him said, "An Lan, he is very suitable for me." I think Xiao Meng has not forgotten Sheng Xi! Just as I haven't forgotten him, once, it was a word that sounded a little vicissitudes to me, we had loved each other like that, and I didn't hate him, maybe because of the serious look he looked when he promised! Or maybe what was once has really become what it used to be