06
The night before Bai Hao married Fu Yan, I sent the embroidered wedding dress.
When I arrived at Fu Yan's tent, she was already wearing a colorful golden silk Yunying wedding dress, and her whole person was bright and shining, and there were many maids around her.
Fu Yan put a few pairs of copper scissors on her dresser.
She's waiting for me too.
At the sound of an order, the finished product I had embroidered for more than a month was dismantled and cut into a pile of discarded gold threads by Fu Yan's maids.
I noticed that the little maid who had brought me the tulle was among them, and her eyes fell on me, but she pretended not to know.
Fu Yan raised the corners of her mouth at the bronze mirror, "Shen Linyu, do you believe in your fate?"
I didn't say anything, waiting for her next step.
"On the day of your wedding with Bai Hao, I met a blind fortune teller in Jing'an City, and he said that I must learn to let go in my life, otherwise I will not be willing to suffer, but I don't believe it, the road is walked by people."
Fu Yan stood up and walked in front of me, with a victorious gesture.
I seem to see myself in her, all the bitter and sweet thoughts are tied to Bai Hao, there is no self in her eyebrows, and there is nothing else.
I smiled pityingly, lifted the curtain and turned away.
There was a sound of neat footsteps outside the tent, and a large number of well-trained soldiers with torches surrounded us.
"Stop!"
A short cry rang out, followed by a thin, cold blade against my neck from behind.
I didn't look back, but I knew that the person holding the blade was not Fu Yan, but the little maid who shouldn't be here.
She held her twin blades, and the other knife was against Fu Yan's neck.
Fu Yan's face was incredulous, "Xu Xuan, are you crazy? How dare you betray me?"
The change was sudden, and we were forced out of the tent by her, and a few meters away stood Bai Hao and his guards.
The blade quickly drew blood lines on my skin, and a dense pain came.
Fu Yan cried, "General, general save me."
Bai Hao's mood didn't fluctuate, staring at Xu Xuan and speaking indifferently, "Xu Yun is loyal and courageous, I didn't expect to have a scheming sister."
Xu Yun?
I was stunned.
Xu Yun is the captain who was in charge of my daily life for most of the year.
Xu Xuan sneered, "No matter how loyal my brother is, he was not sent to Metasequoia Valley by your own hands, you knew that there was no return in that battle, and you killed him in this way."
The Battle of Metasequoia Valley, Xu Yun also went?
My lips twitched slightly, and I couldn't say a word.
Bai Hao's face was expressionless, and he said calmly, "Behind Metasequoia Valley leads to a strategic road, someone must lead the vanguard to fight over, but Xu Yun happens to be the most suitable leader candidate."
Xu Xuan shouted bitterly, "You are revenge! The arrow of revenge was shot by my brother!"
The scabbed memory was picked open again, and it was bloody.
The arrow was fired by Xu Yun, but the order was given by me.
Mid-Zhong South Shiba Heartmouth.
Xu Yun is not a careful person, he is a little childish, but he is honest and kind, and he will not lose half of his respect for me because of Bai Hao's snubbing of me.
At that time, the Bai Hao army had been fighting hard with the bandits going south for half a month, and Nanzhi went to the temple in the suburbs to pray for the blessings of the soldiers, despite his increasingly serious cough.
In the evening, before Nanzhi had returned, her maid broke into my tent in two watches.
Nanzhi was intercepted by a group of northern bandits.
I was a little panicked, so I immediately asked Xu Yun to hand over the news to Bai Hao, and asked him to order some close sergeants to inquire about the news, and I didn't sleep all night.
Good news came in the early morning, Nanzhi was found.
But only two of the dozen or so sergeants sent to investigate returned, and Nanzhi was covered in blood and hung on the mast in front of the enemy's city gate, still breathing.
For nearly a day, there has been no news from Bai Hao's side.
In desperation, I disobeyed the ban and followed Xu Yun out to the rescue.
In order to let Nanzhi know that we had come to save her, I dropped the embroidered handkerchief, which rolled a few times in the wind and fell into her sight.
The bandit whipped Nanzhi with a whip.
In my memory, Nanzhi has always been gentle and gentle, but that day she shouted so loudly, "Don't save me, they set up an ambush, don't let the sergeant die."
The bandits in the city were on alert instantly.
Nanzhi was like a broken piece of cloth, and her voice seemed to be mixed with a lot of blood blisters, "I have a serious cough and I won't live for many days, but I'm also afraid that I won't be able to endure torture and say something before I die, if you still recognize me as a sister-in-law, kill me."
The bandits excitedly waved their barbed whips and threw them at her, and Nanzhi's screams became more and more terrible, "Kill me, please, give me a good time."
My nails cut my palms, and my eyes turned red.
Xu Yun looked at me with a frown.
Nanzhi fainted in pain, but was awakened by the ice water, and continued to whip, almost collapsing The bandit may not feel exciting enough, and used a bayonet to pick open her clothes that could only cover her body, Nanzhi became even more emotional, "Please, kill me."
How could such a decent Nanzhi suffer such humiliation.
Could it be that death could really be relief?
I trembled my voice, "Xu Yun, how are your archery skills?"
Xu Yun was silent for a while, "It's okay."
"Then ...... Help my sister-in-law."
07
After getting the news of Nanzhi's departure, Bai Hao hurriedly killed me overnight, and Ling Chi also crushed those bandits and crushed me, but I didn't expect that Xu Yun, who was loyal and courageous, would become a victim because he helped me fulfill Nanzhi.
"Bai Hao, you killed my only relative in this world, I will repay you and you, only one of the two of them can live tonight, do you choose your old wife or your new love?"
The archers behind Bai Hao were all mounted with arrows.
Xu Xuan stopped me and Fu Yanla in front of her, "I don't have any patience, if you don't choose me, I'll kill you."
"I choose Fu Yan."
Bai Hao said the answer I expected.
I thought I could not care at all after being hurt for so long, but my heart still hurts and cracks.
Fu Yan was crying and laughing beside me.
My eyes traced the white eyebrows and eyes, and I will never meet anyone with this face again in my next life.
Xu Xuan sneered in my ear, "It seems that you have no weight in his heart."
I lowered my eyes and whispered, "I always knew."
Xu Xuan's knife rubbed against my neck, "Is there anything else you want to say before you die?"
All eyes were on me, sympathetic and disdainful.
The white crow's eyelashes were lightly covered, covering the obscure emotions under the eyes.
I nodded, looking up at the moon in the sky, "I can't help your brother's business, he just obeyed my orders, and he was angered, and I will make amends to him when I go down."
"Gone?"
"It's gone."
Xu Xuan smiled, "But my stupid brother has always thought you are a good person, if I kill you, he should blame me."
I was stunned.
Xu Xuan didn't give anyone time to react, pushed me away, and stabbed the knife into Fu Yan's heart, but she was still not as fast as Bai Hao's sleeve arrow.
It was the first time I listened to the sound of flesh being pierced so closely, Xu Xuan fell to the ground with a relieved smile, her whole body was twitching, looking at me, as if she wanted to say something, she opened her mouth slightly but could only utter vague words.
The cold wind blows through people's hearts.
She collapsed in a pool of blood, shouting "Brother" in a broken, inaudible voice.
Bai Hao coldly ordered, "Release the arrow."
The rain of arrows rushed towards Xu Xuan in an instant.
A white figure quickly pulled me away and stopped me in front of me, "Don't look."
I breathed heavily, my chest rising and falling violently.
Bai Hao stood not far away, his gaze calmly sweeping over me.
Fu Yan wanted to pull Bai Miao, but was held down by the guards behind him, she showed a frightened look, struggled hard, and frantically reached out to grab the hem of his clothes, "Bai Miao, you...... Listen to me."
Bai Hao coldly ordered, "Put the traitor Fu Yan in prison."
"White rinse, white rinse."
Fu Yan's unwilling hoarse screams came from near and far.
So much happened that night.
I burned it for two days and had a lot of bizarre dreams.
There are many people in the dream, there are the living, there are the dead, there are people who want to see but have never met, and there are people who have been separated for too long and are about to forget.
When I woke up, it was night, and the lights and candles in the tent were about to burn out, and Bai Hao was lying on the edge of my bed, still holding one of my hands.
What kind of play is he playing?
I stared at him, his face did not change, but I couldn't see the appearance of the freshly dressed angry horse boy I admired back then.
Bai Hao held my hand with a little force, "Awake? Are you still uncomfortable?"
I shook my head, "Let's go away or you divorce me."
Bai Hao's face froze, and he looked at me with a heavy gaze, "You rest more."
I shook my head, and my tone was flat, "When I was in Jing'an, I sent you a letter of separation and departure, you may not have taken care of it, after delaying for so long, we don't want to torture each other anymore."
Bai Hao was silent for a while, and his voice was dumb, "Ah Yu, I will let go of my sister-in-law's affairs, and you will also let go of the past, and we will start again."
Put it down?
How can it be put down?
I turned my back, tears streaming down my face.
Bai Hao was silent and changed the lamp and candle for me and left the camp.
08
The location of my tent is not far from the prison, and I can hear Fu Yan's screams of pain every day.
Cui Baiyi said that Fu Yan had been recruited.
Fu Yan was accidentally raped by the northern bandits when she went out, in order to protect her reputation, she was able to marry Bai Hao smoothly, and she reached an agreement with the bandits, as long as they didn't talk nonsense, she would help them do things.
She was involved in the plan to intercept Nanzhi.
The reason why there was an epidemic in the soldiers was also because Fu Yan secretly released the source of infection in accordance with their requirements.
Hundreds of thousands of soldiers died because of her hatred.
The last time Fu Yan met the bandits in disguise, she was cut by Bai Hao's shadow guard, and in order to cover it up, she deliberately provoked me to hit me on the tip of the knife on the day I asked me to embroider the wedding dress.
Bai Hao's people intercepted the letter passed by Fu Yan, and when they were about to arrest her that night, they didn't expect to bring out Xu Xuan first.
Fu Yan was deeply guilty, although his father was a loyal general, and many old-school forces in the military camp interceded for her because of their old feelings, Bai Hao still issued a military order three days later.
The jailer had been taken care of by Fu Yan before, and he handed me the news on Fu Yan's behalf.
She wants to see me.
I had no intention of having anything to do with her again, but she said that there was something else going on in my father's death.
I avoided the daylight and chose to go to prison in the middle of the night.
Fu Yan collapsed to the ground covered in blood, like a mess of meat, and she smiled when she saw me struggling, "You're here."
I looked at her lightly, "How do you know that my father's death is hidden in other things?"
Fu Yan ignored me and said to herself, "It's just a little bit, it's just a little bit, I can marry Bai Hao."
I was patient, but my hands were shaking.
Fu Yan also had a neck injury, and said very slowly, "Shen Linyu, the person I hate the most in this world is you, and the person I hate the most is also you, obviously I have been by his side for so many years, but I can't resist how many days you have known each other?"
"Because you have a dad who can handle it, but I don't."
Fu Yan laughed so much that tears came out, "But what I don't have, how can you have it? Your father is not in good health, so I went to the pharmacy where your housekeeper always grabbed medicine, bought the man, and put a trace amount of Heding Red in every medicine bag he drank."
Layers of blood stains seemed to invade my eyes, I strode forward, and I pinched Fu Yan's neck.
Fu Yan couldn't stop coughing because she couldn't breathe, but she laughed more and more wildly, "I already knew these Bai Mi I did, but he didn't tell you that it was never me who lost."
I forced myself to use the last of my senses and let go, Fu Yan's face changed slightly.
"At this time, you are willing to talk to me about this, but you want to force me to kill you, Bai Hao ordered Ling Chi to you, you want to change the way of death from me."
"If it is used on you, it will be lighter than a thousand cuts."
I slowly stood up and looked condescendingly at her who was in tatters from the inside out, "Fu Yan, your father is a loyal minister and a general, if you want to say that he really can't do anything, it will only be your daughter."
Before I burst into tears, I came out of the damp and cold prison, and at the dimly lit entrance, Bai Hao, dressed in white, stood tall and jade, looking at me with heavy eyes.
I walked up to him step by step, and the moment I got closer, I pulled out the hairpin and plunged it into his chest.
The red blood quickly soaked through the white clothes, and he didn't hide at all.
My voice was filled with desperation, "You already knew, didn't you? You already knew that."
There was no blood on Bai Hao's face, just silence.
I lowered my eyes and walked vaguely past him.
"If you still have the slightest conscience, let me go."
Bai Hao took my hand, "You are Your Majesty's personal Lady Yu, if you want to reconcile, you must face the saint."
Mrs. Yu? I forgot about that.
When the news of my father's dowry of 100,000 yuan reached Jing'an, His Majesty decreed that I should be named "Mrs. Yu", which I thought was a supreme honor at the time, but now it has become a shackle.
Daddy, my daughter is wrong.
My daughter must be reconciled with Bai Mao and go to see you cleanly.
10
On the day of Fu Yan's execution, I didn't go to see it, but went to find Cui Baiyi.
Cui Baiyi frowned slightly, "The Queen Mother will celebrate her sixtieth birthday this year, but I don't think Bai Hao will take you there."
I reached out and brushed the herbs off the shelf, and said softly, "Isn't he worried that the harmony will affect the good reputation he has saved over the years?"
Cui Baiyi paused for a moment, "I don't think he will."
I stared at him suspiciously, "Why are you still talking to him?"
Cui Baiyi lowered his head and smiled, diverting the topic, "I'm leaving."
I froze on the spot, "Where are you going?"
Cui Baiyi looked at the green mountains in the distance, "The vast mountains, rivers, lakes and seas are going to stay with me."
I paused, "Leave me as an apprentice behind?"
Cui Baiyi took out a few medical classics from the medical box he was carrying, "These are all what I have learned all my life, handwritten, and when you figure it out, the level will not be below me."
I pouted.
Cui Baiyi thought it was funny, "I'll take you to see the moon again tonight, will you go?"
"Go."
In the evening, as I was about to leave the tent, I crashed head-on into Bai Hao's arms, and I took two steps back vigilantly.
Bai Hao's face was a little tired, and he saw that I didn't speak, and forcibly dragged me back to him, and unfolded it and put it on the white fox fur for me, "It's windy at night on the grassland."
I waited in silence for him to finish tying his belt and walked out of his way.
That night the moon was foggy and I couldn't really see it.
I asked curiously, "Why do you like to look at the moon?"
Cui Baiyi didn't open his mouth yet, he smiled to himself, "When I was a child, I was bullied and cried by a very naughty little girl, she wanted to help me stop my tears, so she coaxed me to let me look up at the moon."
I thought it was incredible, "You didn't resist?"
Cui Baiyi touched her nose, "I resisted, I asked her why she was looking at the moon, and she said it was because there was a moon tonight."
I smiled and bent over, I rarely felt comfortable and happy from the inside out after coming to Bianbei for so long, "I see, what about this little girl now?"
Cui Baiyi looked at me for a long time, and it took a long time before she responded, "She's like you, she has been married a long time ago."
I raised my eyebrows, "I didn't marry you?"
Cui Baiyi looked at the night sky and sighed faintly, "I thought she would marry me at first, but she later met someone she liked, but that person is still a close friend with whom I had a lifelong friendship."
I patted him on the shoulder and comforted, "There is no grass anywhere in the world."
Cui Baiyi smiled, "What are you going to do next?"
"Reconcile with Bai Mao."
Cui Baiyi was silent for a while and spoke.
"He ordered you to be hung for three days, but on the first night he resisted his own orders and carried you down."
"He asked me to try it myself before I tried it with you. Even before I stitched the meridians for you, he picked the tendons of his left hand and used himself to train my hands first."
"He doesn't have a prominent family background, he has fought step by step to get to his current position, and there are undercurrents of new and old forces in the barracks, and only Xu Yun and others he has cultivated with one hand can dare to put him by your side."
"There are some things that you can't just look at with your eyes."
I chuckled, "What should you look at without your eyes?" The wounds on my body, the seams in my heart, and the child who left, which one doesn't really exist? What's the use of saying this, trying to make me soft-hearted? It's too much."
"If you remember our master-apprentice friendship, you don't need him to be a lobbyist, I will remember everything he has done to me, and I will never forget it."
I didn't go to see him off when Cui Baiyi left.
I don't want to inquire if the words I asked him to help pass on have been passed on.
I sat in the tent and flipped to the last page of the medical book he had given me, staring at the small red seal on it.
I saw it the night I got it back, and there were four words on it, "Luo Po Prayer Seal".
I have seen this seal before, and it has fallen on my divorce letter.
Luo Bo Qi, Cui Baiyi.
It turns out that we have never met.
When Bai Hao came to me, it was already dark outside the tent, and he didn't come in, but just put a soft and timid gray rabbit through the crack in the tent.
When I first got married to Bai Hao, I was still childish and especially playful, on the Yuan Festival, I was infected with a strong wind and cold, and was detained by him in the house to recuperate, I talked to him well, but he just didn't let me go out to see the river lantern, I was angry and ignored him for a long time.
Later, he secretly put a rabbit in my room to make me happy.
I got up and walked over, gently picked up the gray rabbit, and looked at it carefully, "This rabbit is really ugly, much uglier than the rabbit in Jing'an City."
Bai Hao at the door lifted the curtain and showed some joy in my response, "The rabbits in the mountains are not as beautiful as those carefully tended by the farmers, if you want me to take you to the market next time to pick out a few beautiful ones."
I turned, "Whatever."
09
The relationship between me and Bai Hao has become very delicate.
He put me in his tent, and often bought me things that he thought I liked, and I took them when he gave them, and I was obedient to whatever he asked me to do, and we slept together with respect as if we didn't know each other.
When the Queen Mother celebrated her 60th birthday, Bai Hao was leading the troops out to regain the lost land, and sent a congratulatory gift into Beijing and did not return to Beijing in person to celebrate her birthday.
It's another year of Shangyuan Festival.
The wind in the winter in Bianbei was stronger than in Jing'an, and I had a high fever that did not go away.
Bai Hao was feeding me the medicine and suddenly asked, "Do you want to go to see the sky lantern together?"
I was stunned and nodded.
Bai Hao put on a thick fox fur for me, and carried me step by step to climb the city tower, outside the city are solemn defenders, and inside the city are the people of Hemei and Ankang.
Countless sky lanterns are lit together, and thousands of fluorescents are flickering, like smoke and sparks.
The wind was very strong on the city wall, and Bai Hao held me in his arms, "There are few rivers in the border north, and the people in the north of the border cannot put river lanterns to pray like Jing'an, so they will write their blessings and expectations on the sky lanterns and put them in the sky."
I looked at the light that was clearly extinguishing in the sky, and I was in a trance, "Can it be useful to put the sky lantern?"
"Do you want to try it?"
"Okay."
I held the ink pen in my hand, but I didn't know what to write for a while.
I have been grinding for a long time, Bai Hao has been patiently helping me to hold the sky lantern, I can't think of a wish, so I wrote a sentence at random, "May I see such a lot of lights in the sky every year, and I hope that I can enjoy mountain flowers and freedom every day."
On the other side, Bai Mao wrote, "May I be with Ah Yu every year."
As we enter June, the weather is getting hotter.
I had no appetite for several days, and Bai Hao sent someone to buy frozen cheese, and as soon as I took a bite, I vomited again, and the military doctor knelt down to congratulate me after checking my pulse.
I had children again.
Bai Hao was happy and worried, taking care of me every day, and everything went along with me.
At the beginning of July, it was the death day of my father's fifth year.
I told Bai Hao that I wanted to go back to Jing'an to sweep his grave, and although Bai Hao was a little hesitant, he still arranged a trip for me and accompanied me on the road in person.
I didn't have any pregnancy all the way, but when I arrived in Jing'an, I lost a lot of weight and was extremely haggard.
Bai Yi took care of me untiedly.
After a few days of rest, I finally regained some energy.
We live in the east of the city, I asked Bai Hao to go to the shop in the west of the city to help me buy some white jade glutinous cinnamon cakes, I calculated the time of his departure, and went to the north of the city alone.
Dengwen drums shouted grievances, and he could reach the Son of Heaven.
On that day, I stood in front of the government office in plain clothes and beat the drum.
One after the other.
The drums don't stop, and I think of a lot of people, and I think about how many years have passed.
My identity is special, and the things I ask for are different, and the government does not dare to submit them to the palace immediately.
I knelt in the huge and empty palace, facing the eyes of the Manchu Dynasty civil and military, straightened my back, and bowed in a voice, "The people's daughter asks Your Majesty to cancel the seal and allow the people's daughter to reconcile with General Bai Hao."
Bai Mao stood beside me, and emotions were surging in his dark eyes.
Emperor Qing had a cold face and dropped the teacup, "General Bai can control tens of millions of soldiers, but he can't control a woman, it's a big joke in the world."
Bai Hao knelt down beside me and said in a dumb voice, "Your Majesty, Ah Yu is now pregnant and weak, begging Your Majesty to allow her to get up and reply."
Emperor Qing snorted coldly, "I see that she is in good health."
I didn't get up, and continued to bow down and kowtow, "I beg Your Majesty to cancel the seal and allow the people to reconcile with General Bai Hao."
Emperor Qing narrowed his eyes, and his voice was not angry and arrogant, "You woman, you are simply in the midst of blessings and don't know the blessings, do you know how many women in the world want to marry General Bai as a wife?"
I was expressionless and slipped the blade out of my sleeve.
Bai Hao understood what I wanted to do, and reached out to stop me, but how could it be slow when I had secretly rehearsed thousands of movements.
The short black hair fell to the ground like a discarded mess.
I cut my hair on the spot.
"Your Majesty, according to the custom of this dynasty, it is detrimental to women's morality to cut their hair in public, and I beg Your Majesty to cancel the seal and allow the people to reconcile with General Bai Hao."
I stubbornly kept prostrating and shouting out my plea.
Emperor Qing sighed deeply, "Bai Hao, what do you think?"
Bai Hao's face was pale, and her voice trembled slightly, "Your Majesty, Ah Yu is still pregnant now, and she needs someone to take care of her closely, can you delay the disposal?"
I chuckled, "General Bai, do you really think this child can be born?"
Bai Hao's eyes were scarlet, and there was a hint of despair in his dark eyes, "What do you mean?"
I finally had a vengeful feeling in my heart, and I looked at him and said calmly, "I added cold herbs with medicinal properties to the tocolytic medicine I was taking, and I took it for more than a month, but it couldn't be kept."
Bai Hao's trembling hand clasped my shoulder, and his dark eyes lost focus, and he asked me why over and over again.
I laughed freely and numbly.
This sharp pain tormented me for a long time, and now that the stone in my heart has fallen, I am finally relieved to faint.
10
I was finally given a leave of absence.
Because the so-called female virtue is at a loss.
I was imprisoned in Hanshan Temple for ten years, and Bai Hao returned to the garrison in the north of the border.
The master of Hanshan Temple said that I was not destined to be over and would not allow me to shave, so I took the practice and copied the scriptures day and night, for the sake of the two children I didn't keep.
Actually, I've never taken medicine randomly.
It's just that my body is too badly damaged to keep it, and I can't feel its anger on the way to Jing'an, and I endure severe pain, so I use it as the last dose of strong medicine to force Bai Hao to untie me.
Incense flourishes in Hanshan Temple, and pilgrims come and go.
I only copy scriptures and never talk to outsiders.
At the turn of spring and summer, autumn and winter change.
By the third year, I had copied all the scriptures of Hanshan Temple that had passed away a hundred times.
Master took me to the pavilion at the top of the mountain to cook snow and taste tea, which is the highest point of the whole mountain, and I can see the whole Jing'an Castle, and I unconsciously look to the west.
Master asked me, "Now, can you let go?"
I shook my head, "The disciple is incompetent and can't cross himself."
During the conversation, a death knell suddenly sounded in the city of Jing'an.
I felt a palpitation for no apparent reason, "Master, what is this?"
Master looked into the distance and folded his hands, "There is a noble person in the capital who has left."
The snow on the mountain is gradually falling, and it is a little like the situation in the north.
On the Shangyuan Festival, I stood in the temple and looked at the cold night sky, and after a while, a large number of sky lanterns rose around Hanshan Temple, so many years, every year.
I know, it's always been him.
On the Shangyuan Festival in the fifth year, the master gave a lecture in the grass house at the foot of the mountain, and I accompanied the attendants, and when I returned to the Hanshan Temple, it happened to be the time when the sky lights were rising, and I looked up for a while.
Master said, "Go ahead, go and see."
I walked through a thorn and came to the outer bamboo forest.
The person who put the lamp was dressed in white.
When he saw me, he smiled, "Long time no see, Shen Linyu."
I didn't expect it to be Cui Baiyi, "Long time no see."
Cui Baiyi lit the candle in the sky lantern, "Although the sky lantern was asked by Bai Hao to be placed by me, but this sky lantern is woven by his own hands, hundreds of them every year, he is not tired of weaving, I am also tired."
I looked up at the sky, "I always thought you were on my side."
Cui Baiyi lowered his eyes, "I do stand on your side, but I occasionally want to help that stuffy gourd."
"When your father offered 100,000 military quarters in exchange for him to marry you, he asked for three days to think about it, and he came to me in those three days, and he said that he met the girl he liked, but the girl had a marriage contract with me, and he said that he would not fight back no matter how I beat him in those three days, but after the fight, he would agree to withdraw from the marriage and give you to him."
"He has no father and no mother since he was a child, he stole things on the street and stole them to Nanzhi's father, and he picked them up, Nanzhi is his dearest relative, he is a family member, he is angry with you after she died, but he hates himself the most."
"After he knew what Fu Yan did to your father, he was a little afraid to face you."
"Fu Yan's matter has not been resolved, he has been on a long-term expedition and is worried that she will design to hurt you when he is away, and he dare not get close to you more, but countless times in the middle of the night, he will unconsciously walk outside your tent and stop for a while."
I listened to Cui Baiyi's words, as if I was listening to another person's story.
sneered, and said lightly: "You don't have to do your best to plead for him so hard, in hindsight, everyone deserves it, I'm not rare."
I looked down at the sky lantern in his hand and asked casually, "The paper used for this sky lantern is actually the old style of the previous years, but shouldn't the paper supplied in the army be replaced every year?"
Cui Baiyi looked at me in silence for a while, "Two years ago, did you ever hear the bell in Jing'anli?"
I was stunned, "What do you mean?"
"The mourning voice is his."
My whole body seemed to be frozen in place, and I couldn't hear the wind piercing through the leaves.
Cui Baiyi handed me a sky lantern, "He rescued a female doll about three years old when he was patrolling the city, he was hit by a poisoned arrow, I went late, these sky lanterns were painted by him before his death, this is the last one, if you want, you can put it."
The sky lantern is my familiar handwriting.
"May I be with Ah Yu every year."
I didn't take it, and stepped back step by step, "There is a curfew at the mountain temple, I need to go back."
Cui Baiyi shouted behind me, "I was by my side when he left, and he said that if there is a next life, you should keep your eyes open and don't meet him again."
I didn't respond, and walked deeper into the bamboo forest.